#tryingtomoveon

[xfadednightmare]

Life lately... Time slips by, one day fading into the next. My mind’s loud, but the world feels quiet. I’m searching for something, anything, to make me feel alive. But for now, I’m just here. Maybe it gets better. Maybe not. Life lately... is a blur, and I’m just trying to keep moving. 🌙💭🌧️

[moonlightheretic]

Cruel Comfort

I used to think love was just for other people. I could never understand it, solitude appealed to me more.

But, then I met you on chance alone.

You were unexpected. 

And for the first time, I preferred someone else over the company of solely myself. 

I didn’t realize I loved you until you turned me down. 

Kindly. 

You have never said anything unkind to me ever, even when you reject me it is full of compassion. 

“Find someone closer.” 

If it was so easy I would have already done so. I can’t imagine anyone else, you are the only one for me.

Your words do not deter me, you aren’t fading from my mind. 

Am I destined to remain heartbroken?

Thanksgiving was a cruel comfort. 

Happiness abound, everyone elated and full of cheer. 

I see them and I see us. The robed couple sitting with their coffee, fresh from the spa. This place has so much to offer those that come in twos. Here, I thought the distraction would be enough, the holiday would be enough, but I only see you in the faces of strangers and I can’t help but stare. I only see you playing golf in the afternoon light. I see you recording this place with your phone and walking the trails. 

This place is one stroke away from a landscape painting reincarnated into reality. You would appreciate it. 

I wish you could see it. See me. I could offer you so much. 

I can’t help but think of what could have been. What this holiday would look like with you and I. I wish I could enjoy it knowing there was a possibility between us, a bud of hope that could bloom with each passing moment. 

But I shouldn’t be thinking of you anymore. 

My friends are losing patience with me and soon I will have to bury your name under false smiles and silence. 

Your name is an uncommon one, just as is your spirit, but I keep seeing it in odd places. 

In places where it shouldn’t be...you follow me and you are unaware of it.

Is the universe showing me signs? Or am I bending the universe around you--to my will?

I still hope, I still pray for you while also wondering if maybe one day I’ll forget you. 

Like you have probably forgotten me. 

Maybe if I was thinner, smarter, prettier, you would give me a chance. 

But you deem me unworthy of conversation. 

Maybe one day, I will forget your steady brows and soulful eyes, the purity in your grin, your tall frame and warm embrace. Maybe one day I will forget this hopeful feeling. 

I do not regret loving you. 

I can’t make myself regret it, not today, not tomorrow, not ever. 

I might have to block you, but I don’t want to. I am afraid of a future without you. 

In loving you, I never felt more alive. To move on I will have to kill a portion of myself. 

The Question I cannot answer is...do I remain in this place because I want to or am I only preserving my life?

[nowimscaredofheights]

“Am I gonna be alright?

I wanna kick myself for falling so hard

Momma, can you die from a broken heart?”

~Maddie & Tae~

[bohemianbookworm-blog]

In love with this series right now. Trying to mend my broken heart after finishing A Court of Wings and Ruin ❤ #acourtofwingsandruin #perfectruin #laurendestephano #tryingtomoveon

[andy-tyson]

Date: February 1 I see them laugh, live, and move on, While I’m trapped in shadows of a haunting dawn. How do they smile, pretend it’s all fine? I’m stuck in that moment, lost in the line.

[ibecryingsometimes]

Sometimes...

Life is so fricking hard sometimes... I don't know what's worse them coming back and being the same not caring person or them not coming back at all... I think I know which one is worse for me and unfortunately its not the first one... I really need to work on that. 

[olympappclub]

Trying to get over my ex #breakup #tryingtomoveon

Months ago I had to break up with my ex because of caste differences. We both are muslims but belong to different sects and my family was completely against me dating her and I had to choose between her or my family. She moved on and started dating someone. We both work in the same department and have lots of common friends and still talk to each other. I have told her that I still have feelings...

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[ha-jokes0nyou-ha]

There’s this darkness to me.

I’ve always hated it yet I find myself embracing it at times. I’m not what I seem to others. But, I’m also not as bad as I think to myself.