Loaded - Christos Tsiolkas
It's fast and it's sad. But yet, I have never related to anyone, any fictional character (including movies, tv shows, etc) like I relate to Ari. I don't think that we are similar or that we come from similar backrounds, because we don't, At least not completely, because we both are nineteen, we both like to party, we both are “lost in music”, so there is just something about him, that I feel like I absolutely understand. Maybe it is just the way he is written, maybe it's the way he talks about drugs (and I think everyone who has more than none experience with drugs can relate to this part of the book), maybe it's the way he talks about youth and life. Maybe it's the recognition of the fact, that we are not all destined to achieve something and I admire his honesty and how brave he is to admit that and to know that. Better than those who talk and yell their opinions on life and the future with their huge plans, but in the end they grow old and empty, just like everybody else.
He has no goals in life and that is what allows him to give no fucks. And I respect that and I want that.










