Hello there. Sorry it's been a bit, have had a bit of... well, I suppose it's probably some kind of mental health crisis, or something. Apparently, having a few consecutive panic attacks and then isolating yourself in your room for two days is... uh. Bad. Daisuke climbed through the vents into my room because he was that worried I'd... hurt myself, or worse. Can't exactly blame him, considering the uh, last loop ended with me walking out of the airlock, so. Y'know. Reasonable reaction, I suppose, even if it did scare the fuck out of me to see him pop out of the floor vent like the world's biggest gopher.
As far as answering your questions go: we are currently about 4 months out from our destination on this loop. (here's fucking hoping we actually get there this time, yeah?) no idea on if it'll end the loop, but I am... cautiously hopeful about it.
Jimmy is in the pod because I ah. I hit him over the head with a spanner. So he wouldn't try to crash the ship this time around. The ship... does... technically still need two pilots, but I am. Managing. Currently teaching Daisuke the basics, which does help at least. I have been sleeping even less than normal, though, to try to keep on top of things, which... may have contributed to the uh. mental health thing. It's fine. I'm fine.
Thank you, genuinely, for uh. For what you said about the... "betrayal" thing. If... if your version of Jim... if he hurt you the same way, I. I'm sorry. I don't... I don't know what to say except that I'm here for you if you need it.
Hope you're all well, and settling in alright.
Cheers,
I’m very glad to hear from you. I’ve been worried.
Which, as a sidenote, does make me wonder — if the time loop resets, will it also reset for us? Has it already? Did I forget?
…Anyway. It’s very concerning to hear about your health. You— you can’t be running yourself into the ground, I’m sure your crew has told you as much. I know how it feels, believe me. I know. And it’s an uphill battle every hour of the day, but I know they are there for you. A captain is responsible for his crew, but a crew is there to support the captain, yeah? It works both ways. Please let them help.
And if I — somehow, I don’t know how — can help too, please let me know. I mean it.
Jim…he has, yeah. Most of it was uh, my own initiative though. So um. No need to get into it, or worry about it, yeah? I did what I had to. And it doesn’t matter now. Anya and I are home. That’s all I can afford to think about.
I hope these four months go well for you. I hope, if possible, to hear from you before that, just so that I know that everything is alright. I’d like to be in contact more often too, of course, but if you are too busy with…all of this…I completely understand.
Stay strong, and stay safe. I’m here if you need me.
