#turn off brain

[fleetofshippyships-archive]

Yay, so I finished a oneshot (my mdzs merman wangxian au)

But bugger it all, I immediately thought of a bunch of ideas that I could use to instead turn it into a long fic full of plot.

NO

[loveisonlyforthebrave8]

Fuck, I should really try and go to sleep.

[dreary-sunshine]

I want to go to bedd

[captainjimothycarter]

I knew it would happen eventually. I hit a wall writing this fic. I expected it to happen after writing so much in the last few days.

And Im slowly reading fics so that means brain turns off on wanting to write and worries I'll be unconsciously copying writing styles.

[formulataylor]

why can't I sleep I need to sleep

[appleschloss]

Me: sooo i need to wake up in 3.5 hrs-

Brain: and...?

Me: ..... some sleep would be nice

Brain: but im Awake

[heroicallychallenged]

The void.

How do I make my way back to some semblance of normality?

I know that there is no such thing as “normal” in regards to being a human within the scope of our knowledge. However, I find myself chasing this unattainable idea through toxic actions. I no longer pretend to know myself, I don’t dare dream to make sense of the choices I have been making as of late. 

The saddest part of it all is I can’t tell if I’m just pouring all of this energy into these pointless things in an attempt to distract myself, or if there are any real feelings involved. 

Fuck, at this point, I’m not sure I can feel things in the way I once did. Trauma has completely flipped the script, and nothing makes a lick of sense anymore. Not. A. Damn. Thing. 

I don’t know how much longer I can carry this weight.

I don’t know anything, really. 

[nickidia]

oh my GOD it’s 3am on a work night WHY can I NOT SLEEP!!!!