#tw emo

[ceristelle]

HII thank youthankyou 💕!! i appreciate this a bunch, i wish you the same as well 😽

of course,, the main reason all my works are like 99% male char related is cuz i see they’re more popular? and my reqs so far ask for the dudes LOL but yea i’d love to write for the girls too 😛

[pikansanok]

Damn, I didn't know 1-Up had like, an emo phase of some sorts.

[madzilla84]

Some waffle about writing in this year of our lord* 2020

*AmazingPhil

I hadn't written anything for a while until the new thing I wrote this week, and apart from that I had a quick go at another thing I had an idea for - and it made me realise I really have no idea at the moment how to write 2020!Dan, because - I don't feel like I “know” him any more. I understand that technically all versions of them I write are ones I've made up, and I can never truly *know* them, but I understand the distinction in my head between writing 2009!Phil vs 2018!Phil vs 2020!Phil, because I feel sort of like I've been on that journey with him? Like as surfacey as Phil’s interactions with us can be, he's been there throughout and I can sort of see him regularly and still have some idea of who he is and what he’s like and how he's changed (in the face he presents to us, at least), whereas with Dan, I just feel like I have no handle on him now. It's kind of ironic, because historically it was always Phil who was more closed off and less willing to share himself; how the turn tables...

Like. I want to imagine - and hope - that he's still Our Dan and that maybe I *do*, in fact, still know him just fine because he's still basically the same person, but I don't *know* that any more because the last time he really spoke to us with any substance was - well, BIG. (Apart from his merch blog posts, I suppose, which haven't really come to anything in the end, thus far.) Perhaps the Vidcon thing. If he's been going through the period of growth people keep talking about - that *he* talked about - what has that meant for him? How has that changed him, if it has? This whole marathon thing is *huge*, it must be one of the biggest parts of his life at the moment, and we know nothing about it. (Yes, Vidcon, but that was ages ago and I'm talking about how he feels about it *now*, not a year ago.) Imagining Dan, our Dan, as a like pro runner does make my brain bluescreen a bit, but he's obviously doing it, and, like. What is his life like after that? Who even is he now???

I mean, it might be like when you haven't seen a friend for ages and you're worried things will be Weird but then they show up and they're Same Old So-and-so and you get along like no time has passed, but the fact I don't *know* if that's the case...

Similarly, I have trouble writing the 2020 D&P dynamic because I don’t ever see it any more. I haven't seen them interact properly in 15 months; there were the handful of Japan insta stories and getting Norman and maybe the Christmas messages? It isn't much to go on when you're trying to understand what things *feel* like now. Maybe it's the same as ever; it kind of felt that way in the Christmas vids, but that's so little. Even Phil barely mentions him any more (and why should he, that isn't his *job*, but it gives us even less insight). All I have to go on is reading into things (maybe too much), hints and scraps. Fic writers are historically brilliant at taking these little things and running with them, but I feel like - I don’t have that talent; I don't know what vibe 2020!D&P should have, you know? And I know that doesn't necessarily matter to a lot of writers, but it bothers me. I'd just write OCs called Don and Bill if I didn't want some root in reality.

I would love the opportunity to get to know (or even, you know, meet) 2020!Dan, I guess is what I'm saying. I feel like I'll never know him again.

[centipedve]

(us, peaceful and wise) "there is no such thing as a bad person. true evil is something which only exists in shows. real people, regardless of action, are not solely defined by their wrongdoing - everyone has a piece of them detached from everything harmful they've ever done and everything ill they've ever intended to do, because people are not characters. everyone has a rich inner life, and you can only ever know a small fraction of a person, making you unfit to dub anyone as being truly evil."

(ex girlfriend walks in) "even me?"

(nodding) "you exist outside of what you've done to us."

(guy who kicks babies walks in) "even me?"

(nodding) "you do not have to dictate your life based on your past misdeeds. it is never too late to change for the better."

(former org leader walks in) "even me?"

(we empty 20 rounds into his skull and

[somesunsicksea]

I love making my friends laugh I love them I love making paper stars and I love caramel toffee and shoulder hugs and listening and talking and the cold and finding love letters scrawled in cobalt blue ink on the last page of a second hand book and stage lights and the prologue of romeo and juliet and strawberry lipbalm

[dwarfbutch]

happy frank ieros birthday bisexuals

[ilygsd]

251018: 5

im going to stop post emo shit ugh thats honestly so unhealthy i always make fun of emos but i really am an emo like please stop lol get over your fucking self, you’ll lose yourself if you stay in this bubble

.........sill find tons of relatable emo posts i’ll have to reblog later though lol

[tenderbyeler]

day 28912892: now me and @smallbyers are summoning satan thru our emo bops