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[justiceformsasurvivors]

“not all men but always a man” NO ITS NOT. NO ITS FUCKING NOT.

most of the adults who actually assaulted me were women. The people who sent me for those procedures were men, yes. my father helped with some of my enemas, yes. But the nurses who did my vcug? all women. My own mother also helped with the enemas. I don’t even remember the genders of the people who removed my underwear and did god knows what to me in the hospital while I was asleep, nor do I care.

and let me tell you how many women were so quick to discount my experiences as SA, to admit that they had done similar things to their children, to express RELIEF and DISMISSAL when I told them that my assaults were mostly carried out by women.

yes, the patriarchy allows dangerous men to exist unchecked, but for fucks sake women can be terrible people too. Rape and SA carried out by women is not inherently impossible or less traumatic or deserved.

[justiceformsasurvivors]

me: I relate a lot to intersex people who have been through IGM and other related medical abuse because of my own medical-sexual trauma! I’m also queer and want to listen to different members of the community. I should get into intersex activism and learn about different variations!

*remembers worrying and obsessing over how my genitals never quite looked like the diagrams as a tween*

[justiceformsasurvivors]

Introduction Post

This blog is a place for activism, validation, information, and community for medical-sexual abuse (M-SA) victims.

For those who are not in the know (which is probably like. A Lot of people.), M-SA is the overlap between medical and sexual abuse, which includes but is not limited to: sexual misconduct in a medical setting, sexual misconduct under the guise of medical care, medical abuse that involves genitals or reproductive organs, or any medical procedure or treatment, regardless of necessity or urgency, that leaves the patient feeling sexually violated and/or traumatized.

These things are not often taken seriously by the medical system, the law, or people in general. M-SA victims are left feeling brushed off, invalidated, or ignored, even within other sexual assault victim spaces.

I will also be using this blog as a place to vent about my own experiences and frustrations, so if you don’t want to see that, block #vent

This blog aims to be inclusive of ALL M-SA survivors, so bigots fuck off. Also if I use any language that excludes a certain group or is otherwise not inclusive, please let me know so I can fix it. Some of the posts I reblog or the resources I post may use language that exclude transgender and intersex individuals, because there are not many M-SA resources, or consideration for trans and intersex people within scientific and medical spaces. Any posts that contain content of this nature will be tagged with “#gendered language”

This blog is also not in any way anti vaccination, anti medicine, or anti science. science and medicine are incredibly important and should not be ignored. However, the medical system and many of the people in it are very flawed and can partake in, excuse, and perpetuate M-SA. This blog IS pro autonomy, pro consent, and pro youth liberation.

I am also currently working on a document of resources and information regarding M-SA and common procedures that result in medical-sexual trauma, which I will be adding to the end of this post once it’s a bit more filled out.

[justiceformsasurvivors]

currently reading this paper (tw for IGM, experimentation, M-SA and CM-SA) about medical-sexual abuse of intersex children and I think this line sums up a lot of CM-SA

it doesn’t matter if the perpetrator(s) got any sort of sexual gratification from assaulting you. It only matters that YOU as the victim were being sexually stimulated or violated. It can feel really gross or shameful to have sexual feelings about something that wasn’t intended as sexual, especially when you’re a child, but that arousal is further proof that this needs to be considered sexual abuse.

if you’re sexually stimulating or penetrating a child (or anyone who isn’t consenting), you’re sexually abusing them, regardless of your intentions.

[justiceformsasurvivors]

man I wish I hadn’t been raped. But I also don’t wish I was dead. I like being alive. But I don’t think I’d be alive if I hadn’t been raped. Is this some kinda sick joke? I had basically been put in SEVERAL bang or die situations by AGE 5. And I didn’t even know what either of those options meant

[justiceformsasurvivors]

it kinda messes me up that many of my rapes are documented. Officially. On paper. But I can’t do anything about it because giving a child an enema or a catheter isn’t illegal.