#tw passing

[big-ender]

i'm starting to find the idea of intentionally not passing in either direction and just letting people think i'm like a really confused gay guy who has a lot of girl-friends and pulls literally everyone increasingly funny

[kys0g0i]

i know i might be a bit early to the year mark of technoblade’s ‘so long nerds’ video, but i really wanted to write this post now.

I never knew him personally of course, and I wasn’t watching his videos nearly as long as some people in the community had. i had heard about him, but didn’t really consistently watch him until around the end of 2021.

I can remember when his cancer diagnosis came out. I remember thinking to myself that he’ll be fine. I didn’t think much about it at all, really. I didn’t consider the possibility that anything other then him living would happen.

I remember being excited to see him in content. I remember being bummed at not being able to see his final dsmp lore stream, but thinking I could catch his next one. I remember watching his vr minecraft video. I didn’t think that that would be the last video we’d ever see of him while he was still alive.

I know I didn’t know him as long, but i really do miss the guy. he helped. so many people. i hope he knows that. i hope he knows we miss him

i am so so thankful for the time he did have, even if he should have gotten more. Rest easy king

Technoblade never dies 🩷

[nolabelspart02s]

I can’t believe it’s been almost an year since my grandma passed, till this day I miss her so much 😭 I still feel very sad that she is no longer here and I think about her every single day

[punkrockgrantaire]

“What’s your gender?”

I’m non binary

“Yeah lol but what’s in your pants??”

It’s a vagina, actually, and I’d be more than happy to have an adult conversation about being assigned female at birth, about the experiences of growing up socialized female, about the way that societies treatment of femininity has affected me and how my path to redefine or abandon facets of that have shaped who I am, both personally and politically. I’d love to talk about oppression and gender politics as an insider who experiences those politics, and the way that my assumed femaleness makes my life harder as a relatively unattractive, gnc, fat person, and the way that engages with lesbian history and the coincidation of women’s Butchness vs non-binary identity. So yeah, I have a vagina, you’re not going to be able to catch me out by pointing out I have a vagina, because I’m not ashamed of it. It’s just irrelevant to my gender identity.

[big-ender]

passing? in this economy

[big-ender]

This channel is an invaluable resource for any trans people who can't afford or see a therapist right now. I've been watching her for over a year now, and a brief consultation with her was what finally pushed me into trying hormone therapy. The good news is I found out hormones were right for me. The bad news is that now I have to worry about people noticing physical changes, as I am still cis-passing in public.

Being more genderfluid, I've had a few scares when I started noticing breast development and was unsure if I wanted boobs or not, as I'm kind of indifferent/neutral to having them. It happened so quickly and was such a shock that I almost stopped HRT. I felt like dogshit when coming off of hormones, even after only a day or two, the dysphoria started coming back, and that "dry plant needing water feeling" (water being estrogen) that I had survived with for years came rushing back.

Trying to come off hormones was kind of a good experiment because it at least proved that, oh no, I actually am benefiting from this. It isn't just something I'm making up and wasting time, money, and effort on. It is improving my life and overall well-being. It's not just in my head.

I know egg cracks can be a shock. Hatching was a painful experience, yet relieving at the same time. When I came out of my shell, I felt like a raw newborn with zero guidance and no community. This channel has been an invaluable resource to me, especially as I attempt to scrape the pieces of my life back together and build something for myself. I highly recommend her as her deep insight and experience are hard to find in today's world, where every therapist calls themselves a gender specialist but doesn't have the first clue about the trans experience.

[nolabelspart02s]

my grandma smiled and laughed, that made me so happy, she rarely speaks anymore :( but when she does she makes her cute little comments like “what time did my family and I get there”, she doesn’t eat anymore :((( . The doctor told us it doesn’t look like my grandma will be getting any better so my family and I are trying to spend as much time with her as we can, I will miss so much! I really don’t want her gone but I am treasuring this moments with her and I will never forget them

[nolabelspart02s]

R.I.P grandma, you are in a better place now 😭