#tw relationship problems

[slightlyloki]

trying to explain being an alter to the hosts bf is the most fustrating thing i have ever done, today i showed him the the pronoun necklace from  SpacerobotStudio x i said that this would make it easier, and he just said “it’s not difficult but you do you” and by not difficult he means that for him it’s not difficult to protendt i dont exsist i am just so tired

[gloomgutz]

My ex just sent me this Reddit post sayin “People who can't handle accountability often confuse being confronted with being attacked. They'll play the victim to dodge responsibility, twisting the story until you're the one apologizing for calling out what they actually did.” Then blocked me???

Like bro??? At least open up a conversation,, also this mf literally manipulated me into breaking up w someone then asked me out immediately after even tho I said I wanted a break from dating? He’s completely in the wrong like wtf is this manchild doing🥀

[falcqns]

hi u can ignore this if you've already talked abt it but what did andrew do to start changing your mind about him ?

hi there!! i've probably talked a little but not too in detail and it was a while ago so i can go over it again, and dont worry about crossing any lines, andrew is very open with his struggles and is okay with me talking about them (he sees every post as well).

he started doing small things like asking me if he could take Bubba for a weekend he wasn't scheduled to (he had her twice a month for three days before we got back together as i didn't trust him and couldn't stand being in a room with him). i was apprehensive the first time, but my bff invited me to drink at her house that weekend and it convinced me bc i missed drinking lol. i was a nervous wreck the entire weekend but she came back in one piece, and had new clothes and toys with her, and was the cleanest i'd ever seen her, so some of the trust came back.

then, he kept asking to take her random places. he'd text me and ask if he could take her grocery shopping with him and his mom, he'd ask if he could take her to the park randomly, and things like that. i was confused, but i let him, and she hated leaving him when he brought her back (yes, they do in fact love each other). he would also send me morning and night texts telling both me and bubba to have a great night. he'd text me and ask me how i was doing mentally and would say he just got a gut feeling to check up on me, and if i said i wasn't doing great, he would send me old memes that used to make us wheeze in high school and tell me funny things that have happened in his life. when i'd have a depressive episode, he'd bring over groceries, clean my apartment, do my laundry and take Bubba out for the day so she didn't have to see me at my lowest. when i'd had a meltdown (this was pre diagnosis and meds so they happened too often) he would even do my school work for me. the most important thing that stuck with me then was he would validate my feelings and how i was doing mentally, and never raised his voice even when i was being difficult.

on mothers day, we went out for breakfast and then were at the park, and he opened up. he told me what was going on in his home life, with his dad practically disowning him and divorcing his mom when he found out i was pregnant. he said he had finally gone to therapy, and said that in his first session he'd brought his mom with him and he had a breakdown not long into it because his therapist helped him realize how badly he'd hurt me and bubba, it helped him realize how much he loved me, and all the 'hate' he had in him was him projecting about his dad. he told me he was still in love with me, and wanted to get back together, but that we could do it at my pace, and that we could start off as friends, which i agreed.

i still was unsure about if he'd truly changed, but one day, Bubba was teething and wasn't feeling good. i was exhausted and on my period, and i couldn't calm her down, and i got so upset i ended up regressing, so both of us were in our apartment, sobbing on the kitchen floor because we were both smol lil babies and were both in pain. i forgot andrew was coming over, and when he did he instantly helped me. he calmed Bubba down, and called his mom to come over. she took care of Bubba and got her sleeping, and andrew took care of me. he was so calm and sweet, and sat with me in my quiet area of my bedroom and just sang praise songs to me since i hadn't gone to church in so long due to my anxiety. once i had calmed down, i explained to him what was happening, and what age regression was, and he was accepting, and told me that he'd love to be my caregiver if thats what i wanted.

it was a month or so after that that we actually got together. his mom had Bubba for the night and we were at his apartment and watching Harry Potter. he kept telling me he loved me and it was making me so nervous and shy and he started teasing me. he kissed me on the cheek a few times before actually kissing me and then we had sex for the first time and we both cried 😭.

we got together that night and have been together ever since. we went to a few sessions of couples counselling when we first got back together, and focused on developing our relationship and not just staying together for Bubba's sake.

i'm always open to questions about our relationship! this was a lot of fun to write, and it honestly feels like a dream how he did a complete 180 in less than a year, and i honestly believe its because his dad disowned him (he's a shitty person). im so in love w him yall

[falcqns]

i feel like i cant even talk about our relatiobship problems becuase everyone on here loves him and i's dynamic and i dont want to take away from that but sometimes i just want to vent to somoene about whats happening bc my only friend works all the time nad the other friend is him

[falcqns]

i feel like he doesnt even wanna get married anymoer

[diggingupthepast2007]

This absolutely sucks.

Bf: Tell me when you're not doing okay. Tell me when you're getting urges. I'm not scared of you.

Me: I'm not doing okay. I'm getting a lot of urges.

Bf: What can I do?

Me: I don't know.

Bf: -miserable-

Me: You said to tell you...I'm sorry I'm this way...It's gonna be okay...

Bf: I'm exhausted.

I hate it when I can't control my brain and how it feels and everything that's happening and it hurts the people around me. I want to get better and if I could I would just decide to be all better and fine. But I can't. I want to and if I could I would, believe me. I could just keep it all to myself but I'm supposed to speak up when I'm hurting. But there's nothing anyone can do anyways and it just hurts people for me to say "I need help." I don't want to hurt people and I want to get better and I feel so guilty for all of this. Why does it always turn into me comforting the person who I asked for help??? Every time. I don't blame anyone for this... but myself. But I feel like I have to be perfect. And I am so, so far from that.

I don't know what to do.

Okay, done spamming you with negativity for today. Hopefully. Sorry =/