who needs a father when youve got video games and tumblr on your side???
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who needs a father when youve got video games and tumblr on your side???
Just heard my brother laugh and it sounded so unbearably like my dad
When I tell you my lungs fucking filled with acid
Vent post:
Sometimes I wonder if I’m cursed to not have close friends.
Imagine telling the person who you’ve been best friends with for 12 years that your life has turned upside down and you could be dead tomorrow because your mom is filing for divorce but dad (a gun owner who’s threatened your life AND has expressed suicidal ideation several times throughout your life) doesn’t want a divorce while also willing to leave you out in the street as the mortgage company is getting ready to foreclose the house. And that you will text this friend on a weekly basis to let them know you’re okay and that if the worst ever happens, they’re not obligated to say anything about your home life because you don’t want them to feel pressured to deal with law enforcement in any way. Imagine telling them all of that and their only response is “sorry no talk, I’m comedically depressed, hang in there”. No confirmation that they read anything you said.
It’s been 3 weeks since I sent that message. I didn’t do the weekly check in figuring he didn’t read the message. Didn’t want to be a bother. No response, which confirmed he didn’t.
I know what it’s like to be depressed. I’ve been dealing with episodes of it since middle school and it gets worse every time it comes back, especially now given everything that’s going on. Then the BC just amplifies it even more. Despite that I haven’t treated close friends like this, particularly him. No matter how shit I felt or how worthless, hopeless, emotionally and physically paralyzed I felt, I was always there for him. I’m not even asking to be comforted, just some type of acknowledgment or nod that we have something of plan, a way to let him know I’m still here during this hellish time period in my life. Something that confirms at least one person still cares while our own family refuses to help because they don’t want to “be involved” due to the divorce. Mistakenly thought he cares as much about me as I care about him.
Not the first time a close friend abandoned me. Just about 1 year ago, a close friend in pharmacy school just stopped talking to me. It was revealed that it was because I had a falling out with her other “friend” who was providing her with quiz and exam answers. The falling out was because this other friend wanted me to do all the work on a group assignment but without telling me she wanted me to do the work. She just ghosted me for a week and only replied when she realized I had not started the assignment yet despite it being due in a few hours. So my close friend reduced contact, stopped sharing notes/study guides with me and every mutual friend, refused the study guides and answers I shared with her, and eventually cut contact to the point she was actively avoiding me after class and exams. I didn’t even see her at graduation, yet she was there according to another friend.
Then there was a friend I wanted to get closer to but making plans to hang out was difficult I guess. It kept falling on me to initiate time to spend together. I got the feeling they didn’t want to be around me so I didn’t push for another outing. I’m not one to force myself in the life of someone who doesn’t want me there.
Also can’t forget that one friend I’ve known since 1st grade who I studied with in college and was supportive of her when her own family couldn’t care less of her graduating. They didn’t even show up to the ceremony. She never replied to my messages prior to having classes together in college so I’m not sure why I expected her to keep in touch after graduation. And so many other friends who stopped talking to me when I got too ill to go out for a couple weeks, or when they no longer needed a study partner, or when I couldn’t be “feminine” enough, etc.,
People suck. This timeline sucks. The people in power suck. Family sucks. I don’t mind being alone, I like being alone, but life is supposed to be better when you can share it with good people…or whatever is said. Maybe I’ll just be the loner spooky witch in the neighborhood spending time on my hobbies and focusing on my job (I love my job, I see/learn new things every day), and when I become elderly and too weak to help myself, maybe then I’ll just head up to Canada and get that euthanasia people say they keep pushing on everyone.
Little James lore cuz I never fucking talk about him
Tw like childhood trauma and homophobia and stuff idfk
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Mix of dad, daddy, dadbf! Update: 05/08/2026
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Unorganised reader | @pinkandblueblurbs
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probably shouldnt post this on main but ever since we were little i remember us wanting attention from older men, even though we hated it. yk maybe our father being absent for most of our life actually did affect us
i love the fourth, as per usual it consists of my dad calling me to ask what my issue is and why i don't talk to him anymore. i'm glad you're having a nice cookout with the woman you chose over your daughter constantly, really.
I had a sort-of-nightmare last night where my dad was yelling at me and he backed me into a corner in front of my whole family and I started crying and nobody did anything about it…I’ve been having a lot of dreams about my dad lately and they’re of usually bad scenarios and I don’t what it means