#tw sappy

[f0undati0ns0fdecay]

i’m at my boyfriend’s place and he’s off to volleyball practice for a couple hours, so i decided it’s selfcare time ™️ so i just took an hour long bath, did an extensive skincare routine including a double face mask and now i’m in bed in clean pajamas eating caramel m&m’s. life ain’t half bad sometimes

[f0undati0ns0fdecay]

i guess the love i’m currently experiencing really makes me see how toxic and codependent my last relationship was. it was filled with crazy ups and downs and emotions so strong it honestly felt like i was on drugs. and i remember thinking wow, this is what true love must feel like, because it’s so intense. this is what all the books and movies and songs are about. and all the heartache is worth it because in the end we’ll be together!!!

turns out in the end we wouldn’t be together. and that might be one of the better things to have happened to me. he broke my heart in a wild and relentless way and it got me sick. like i honest to god was physically sick, for weeks. and then he apologized and i forgave and continued to try to fix him. after that things just didn’t go back to how they were and he just slowly... ghosted me. after a 3 year “relationship”. and i thought i’d NEVER get over it and that i’d never find another love like that, so dedicated, so devoted; a love like worship.

i’ve something better now. it might not be full of rollarcoaster-like ups and downs, i might not feel like i’m on heroin when we’re together. but he doesn’t leave me lying awake worried. he doesn’t give up on me, time after time after time. i’m not a secret, to anyone. he tells me he loves me all the time and he does, and i feel it and it’s good. and we fight and sometimes it gets bad, but we apologize and move on. i’m not lying awake in the middle of the night crying over a message i never received, or another missed skype call, or the girl he fell in love with. instead we go to bed together, we fall asleep together, we wake up together; and in the morning, after his alarm goes off, he’ll snooze for 10 minutes just so we can cuddle and i’ll lie there and think, yes, this is it. this is what love is meant to feel like.

[electriscera]

yknow i originally joined tumblr just to like art and stuff and maybe occasionally post but somehow after a while i started following people and talking to yall and reblogging stuff and suddenly, somehow, i got where i am now?? seriously yall (all of my mutuals or even followers i've never interacted with) are so nice. you motivate me to make more art and write more because i know someone's gonna look at it or read it or like it and even my random textposts are sometimes seen and that makes me want to do more of everything. plus a lot of my views on certain stuff have changed so so much and for the better thanks to this place

i know most people might not see this, but thanks for existing <3

[labcoatblondie-archived]

no but in all honesty, i used to rp for ages.  i grew up through highschool doing it.  it’s always been a huge part of me, until my last experience a few years ago that hurt me and turned me off rp’ing for about three years (possibly more i just suck at maths).  but here i feel so welcomed and loved and everyone’s just ... great.  so thanks for loving gwen and letting me love her too.

[hozierwife]

🍓.... 👀 ily

Sugar pie, honey bunch!!! Ily 🥰🥰

Forcing myself to keep this short to spare the masses.... fjfjfkfkf. Bro babe ur so funny and big brained, every time u talk I'm like 🤯 . Ur harry rankings r hot. The way u ramble on our phone calls is SO cute and ur giggle is my favorite sound! ur touch for interior design is unparalleled and ur right about everything except cotton candy iced cream being good ♥️

Mutuals send me a 🍓 and I'll compliment u!

[toocsiboos]

15<3

I will forever remain in shock that you chose me of all people to share the rest of your life with. Honestly, I had been hoping for it secretly, in the back of my mind and it was beginning to turn into a solemn hope I was trying to desperately block out because of the circumstances. After all, we were just very, very close friends at the time and I didn't want things to be ruined if I approached you with how I truly felt. Thank god you beat me to it.  You're one of the most kindest people I ever knew and yet we both share the same twisted things together and somehow find a way to come around full circle by accepting that we're both not gunna be perfect. That is honestly all I could ever ask for. Thank you for everything. I can't wait to spend my forever with you.