#tw: adhd

[andsheloved]

hello friends!! sorry for the bit of inactivity recently!! i'm very much looking forward to doing some more writing and posting a bit more softness and fluffiness because that truly cures my brain :) and i'm so sorry for posting all these drabbles so late and most certainly not on tuesday like i said, but i pinky promise all of the drabbles will be written and finished and posted so soon!! i very much like to keep it positive on this blog but i just wanted to share something that happened in my life that has made it a bit :( with brain weirdness, but please skip over this if you don't want to read all that!! regardless, i am sending all my love and hugs to you all!! thank you so much for all the lovely messages i've received recently and i love you all very much mwauh

tw: adhd, general mental health wackiness

so basically long story short, after a lot of suspicions and 'hmm, maybe??' i was diagnosed with adhd just recently, and honestly, it threw me for a loop. getting a diagnosis on one hand, made things make a bit more sense for me, but on the other hand, i just feel a little boggled by the whole thing. like at the end of the day, i'm still me, being fully diagnosed with adhd has not changed who i am, i literally am still just madeline, but my brain was like 'ahah no <3'. i absolutely know that having adhd doesn't make me any less of a person or anything, but that weird, angry part of my mind just sometimes wishes i was 'normal', which i know normal is like, not really a thing if that makes sense, but there are some days when i wish my brain wasn't like this. one of my biggest fears when i was diagnosed was how people are going to treat me if they were to find out. i know that adhd shouldn't define how a person treats you, but my anxiety just thinks that people are going to 'baby me' if i were to ever tell them. i know that, already, i'm a lot as a human, i get super excited about things that not many people around me care about, i freak out over fictional men a lot, i cry over star wars and marvel and all that, and sometimes, people are turned off by all that. it's a bit difficult for me to make friends on occasion, and i'm absolutely so thankful for the people i've met on here that have accepted me so happily. i love you all so so so much. you have no idea how much your fun conversations and yearning messages have helped me smile. i think that at the bottom of all this anxiety and upsetness during this time has stemmed from 'what are people going to think of me if they knew?' and i know in reality, i actually don't have to tell anyone, but i just ?? you know ?? anyways, i suppose i've always had a feeling adhd was kind of happening for me, but to get a final answer is both a relief and a little scary all at once. there's nothing to do really other than to move forward, and yet i'm sitting in my room on some nights wondering what am i going to do. it's just a weird time. anyways, if you've gotten this far just know that i love you and am sending you all the hugs right now, i very much understand that there are a lot of things happening in the world right now and this is very trivial compared to all that, but i just am sending all of you the biggest hug with whatever you're going through. you are more than enough and i love you so much. you all deserve the world :)

[getoutofthefire]

ADHD

Well after being diagnosed with ADHD about a month ago I finally got prescribed medication for it (boy that shit is expensive). Just finished taking my dose a minute ago, I figure I might try and keep track of how I feel today to tell my therapist later. I was told I'd feel the effects right away, so we'll see!

[just-positivity-stuff]

[sonnetthebard]

CONCEPT: Xander is one of those people who has possibly ADHD but has never been diagnosed and he constantly fidgets or drums his fingers on stuff when he is bored. But if he gets really focused on something suddenly it is ten hours later and he forgot to drink water. And John also has similar tendencies except for the physical fidgeting so Schaffer has to make sure these two chaotic gays actually stay alive. (This ain't a prompt, just a headcannon.)

Oh you're absolutely right.

- Xander stims a *lot*

- When he's either alone or with people he's very close to, vocal stims or auditory stims like clicking his tongue, buzzing his lips, or short syllabic patterns are common.

- If not, though (which is more often than not the place because he's also got anxiety, ESPECIALLY with socialization) he has a fidget cube, plays with the bottom of his shirt, drums his fingers or plays with his pencil.

- Other fun stims: Xander used to dance a bit as a kid, so he'll very minimally move his feet/ arms sometimes to the motion of old choreography (nothing people would notice), trace shapes with his feet, and rock and bounce.

- He's also got tons of putties. Textures are a huge thing for him.

- His mind is either running at a million miles per minute or not at all

- And that's not even a joke.

- Sometimes he's just be going, going, going and then his brain just flat out stops and he cannot make a coherent thought happen.

- But yeah he works through the night very often.

- And John joins him

- John doesn't have ADHD

- Probably more depression/ anxiety

- Which drives him to just keep working

- Honestly the both of them thought they were the only ones working late

- And they tried to be all hush hush about it

- Until one night John bumps into Xander in a dino onesie that he'd brought to work so he could be comfy once everyone left at 2 AM going to the vending machine.

- From that point on, it was a partayyyy at PEIP after hours

- Like, they both started bringing special snacks.

- They share an office

- They wear pjs.

- Schaffer finds out about this one night when she forgets her phone at work.

- She forces them to go home and rest.

- They go home for about fifteen minutes before going back to work.

- Eventually she starts staying with them

- Because hey

- If you can't beat 'em, join 'em!

- At least that way she's making sure they're drinking water and taking naps.

I love PEIP

[emiefaunwrites]

Leon adhd hcs? 👉👈 you don’t have to hehe

Hey anon!

Sure absolutely! I've no problems writing it at all. I just wanted not to rush the topic since it could come across as disrespectful to those that have ADHD you know?

But yeah. Leon strikes me as a guy that could easily have ADHD (especially from what I experienced until I was 6 and then watching my family member). So lets get thinking!

Thanks so much for your ask and sorry for the delay! Hope this was worth the wait!

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• Leon struggled quite a lot as a small child.

• From a young age, he always found it hard to sit still and concentrate on anything unless it really interested him.

• He would often fidget quite a lot - jiggling his feet up and down, spin something in his fingers or tap a surface constantly.

• Getting him to do homework? Forget it.

• Unless it was sports or music, Leon didn't care.

• But he was pretty well behaved most of the time - polite and friendly and very very VERY talkative.

• It was when his parents caught him running along high walls with zero sense of danger that they started worrying and took him for a diagnosis.

• He was given meds to help him cope - but they ended up making him lose his appetite to the point he started losing weight.

• But what choice did his parents have? At school they weren't there to help and his teachers didn't understand and the doctors insisted that he needed them.

• He started to learn how to control his thinking, focus on his school work and be generally more sensible.

• But as he became a teenager, he started resenting the meds and refused to take them.

• He was already bullied by his teammates and after the Ken incident, he didn't want anyone to know he had to take childish medication.

• And of course once he stopped, all his symptoms came back.

• Now the well behaved boy became a nuisance.- mouthing off at teachers because he thought it would make him look cool.

• Homework would never get done and he was pretty much failing at everything.

• He knew it was bad, he knew it was upsetting his parents.

• But he had to keep up appearances and his ADHD just helped his charisma.

• And with charisma came the ladies - picking up and dropping them when it got too serious.

• Although his temper was worse now that he was older and got him into plenty of trouble.

• Unable to control his emotions, he would find himself defending his friends without hesitating and often came home battered and bruised.

• It was a saving grace that Hope's Peak recruited him because his parents were at end of their rope.

• They just wanted their little boy back - the one before the incident (of which they had no idea).

• It was after he turned 17 that they started seeing changes.

• Sure he still had mood swings, but he seemed happier in general and wanted to spend time with them again.

• Sure, he still struggled to concentrate, but he worked REALLY HARD on a project one holiday and came home pleased at the B he managed to get.

• Sure, he still struggled to keep still but he could sit downstairs for hours, hooked to his phone, smiling as his foot jiggled excitedly.

• SOMEONE was making Leon want to change.

• And he was working really hard to make sure he learnt to control his impulses.

• Sure there were bad days. Everyone has bad days.

• But there was more good than bad and that's all that mattered.

[jimkirkachu]

Quick question for anybody who knows: is RSD specific/exclusive to ADHD, or is it its own thing that anybody can have?

[msmkcreates]

My brain when I'm trying to sleep:

My brain when I'm trying to be productive:

[casliyn]

‘For Once in My Life’ Chapter 5 ✨

An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works

Deciding to take matters into his own hands, Dan sets up brand meetings and interviews for Ben without Amy’s knowledge.

And Amelia steps in to help Ben with his failing French grade.

slight trigger warning: brief mention of ADHD