2.9.2020 !!!nsfw!!!
after some less than mediocre penetration we lay around, him out of breath. I find no signs that he enjoyed what just happened and I don't know I did either. We could have stopped after the licking or better yet, after the black mirror episode
after we'd sat there and talked and had come to speak out that the situation is weird we i had planned this to be a sex date but I hadn't initiated anything and he had never had a sex date without an f before I empathized with the weirdness where he wanted me to take the reigns there was this point where I said we don't have to do this if we don't want to he said no, he wants to, and the did I hung in the air and I know it's on me that trotzig staying in the situation to live up to the promise was the root free will
i was not aroused it hurt I deemed it easier to bear I was not enthusiastic to move and be an active part of it i wanted him to come as a way for this to be over dafür hätte ich Geld verlangen sollen In that moment I gave you power over me. Geht das auch ohne?
