#tw:si

[leaveherwildliketheflowers]

I’m the same as you, SI & thoughts are always in my mind. The way I once explained it to my therapist was, it is always going to be an option my brain goes to and considers. But I know it’s a problem when i don’t straight away think “I’m being dramatic” or other ways I could respond. That’s how I distinguish from whether this is something that is ‘normal’ for me and what is something I should be concerned about.

I have an issue with the word normal because it’s so subjective. What’s normal for one person won’t be the same for an other. It is by no means healthy and indicates an abnormality with brain functioning. But, I think that line between carefree and concern is also subjective and only you can know the answer to that question for you. I agree that the concept of not having SI is baffling. For me it started when I was a young teen so in a way was wired into my brain as it developed and I can’t think of how it could be any different

You make a good point that "normal" is subjective. I think it gets tough when I don't trust my own judgment of my behavior. It makes it challenging to know when things are going too far, because in my head it is all ok.

[imawar]

sharp objects was a great book and I am digging the show but both have been incredibly triggering for me 🙃🙃🙃

[fuglification]

I am doing unwell enough that I feel like going medical is Turning Myself In, which probably means I super should. I did last time. But I am stuck in oregon for at least another 6 days and so I am just sitting here doing terribly unless I go to an urgent care, which would be terrible in a different way.

basically, ugh, ugh, ugh. ugh,

[organized-chaotic-disaster]

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[mentalillnessmouse]

Do you have to tell your doctor that you cut yourself when you go to the apt. To be evaluated?

You’re not required or obligated to tell the doctor anything you don’t want to. Remember that the more you let them know though, the more they can accurately evaluate you and help treat you.

Best wishes!

-Safet

[pennyln]

SECRETS - 1 THE DEEP STUFF - 1 AND 3

Secrets  1. when did you last cry? Thursday night. I had a bit of a breakdown aver missing my friend Patrick, and well missing our friendship really. we haven’t been as close since he got with his girl.

the Deep Stuff

1. Do you think you were raised well? I do, despite not having a terribly close relationship with my parents, I was raised morally and even without some of the moral low-ground of my parents. the only thing i dislike about my raising is the self image/ diet issue i got from watching and being diet controlled by my mother (she was constantly on diets and hated gaining weight) and oh look now i’m fat.

3. How do you handle stress?  well, in the past (and unfortunately still if its bad enough) I had a pretty serious cutting/self injury problem. I drink. I cry. I kind of shut down. all of which is probably not healthy.