#tw. rant

[sluttsumu]

Hi guys! This is the last post I will make about this.

Stella, your victim complex is frightening. 

Stella, If you saw my post (which clearly you did) you would realize that your post informs people about the exact same information in a way that paints you as a damsel in distress.

 I did not DM you privately because I know that you did not create that banner as I’ve seen it on other blogs, therefore there is no need to message you privately about something that does not belong to you.

I’m going to bold this so you can understand, you’re not the only one using that banner. I reached out to my other mutual because my overall theme was inspired by her original creativity. I went out of my way with kindness to acknowledge you, I didn’t have to do that. And honestly? I wish I didn’t because if I hadn’t been nice enough to inform you, you would’ve never known! Had you spoken with me I would’ve understood your discomfort and would’ve even offered to change my theme.

You express that “the mods and Kierra had a conversation behind my back.” Stella you said you didn’t want to speak with me? (seen in the picture below) You also claimed that I didn’t follow server rules by “not messaging you privately” because I never opened up that discussion to you with the expectation of it starting a problem. This problem didn’t start with me approaching you, it started when you took this to dash, which me and Bria expressed to you.

As for my message to you, I will not apologize. I don’t sub post. When I feel something towards someone I will inform them and I did just that, how you take it is your business. I was direct and forward with you. Yes, my response to your passive aggressiveness was passive aggressive. I can rightfully admit that, unlike you who chose to gloss over it after Bria and I both discussed that with you.

Stella, I’m no longer explaining myself further, your post painted you to be a victim in a way mature adults will see past. Thank you for saving me that time since I don’t need to explain myself much further after your post!

I am a creator as much as I am human, I open my space to all who shall be welcome! This incident was meaningless, and I’m sorry that it even got this far.

I wish Stella nothing but the best, and please do not send her any hateful or harmful messages, I’m sure your next theme will be just as beautiful as the one that caused all of this juvenile trouble :)

Thank you,

Kierra

[rulerofspace134]

Cw: Rant, swearing, Mcyt

Oh my fuckin God i hate how twitter can find me here. I hate it so much. People will dig to find old ass shit to "cancel" someone by sending death threats. I was just looking from a mineblr account nothing to fucking do with mcyt and oh dreams a trump supporter apparently. Despite the fact that has been disproven, apologized for etc etc.

For fucking christ every privileged person wants to cancel for performative activistism. While marginalized groups have seen it and said "hey this has been dealt with stop bringing it up". Please just...shut the fuck up.

You are allowed to hate dream. I dont fucking care. You can hate mcyt. Some people enjoy it . Its you fucks who go on your cancelation tours who say hey theyre famous they should have strong opinions. somETIMES PEOPLE CAN ENTERTAIN WITHOUT GIVING US THEIR POLITCAL BELIEF. Oh my fucking god i want to strangle performative activists.

You want an informed streamer? FOLLOW THEM. WATCH TEDTALKS AND SHIT.

Again i am not saying you gotta love dream. You are allowed to dislike him, but christ just stop bringing him up just for the sake of your "im the perfect activist" ego.

[chocolateeclair]

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[jaceconfuzed]

Does it ever feel like you’re just never gonna escape it?

Sometimes I just wanna deactivate from my life. At least for a little while.

And that’s probably another way those assholes fucked me up. Because that sounds perfectly reasonable, to an extent. Just an extension of the salvation doctrine. “Shall not perish but recieveth everlasting life.”

I just want to be done with them. But I don’t want to hurt my sister. But every time my mother opens her mouth it’s all she says. And I don’t want to lose her either.

Did I go through this phase? Who did I talk to? Anyone? Probably not. Maybe the Brown Brothers a little. Coworkers? Probably. Idk.

And I don’t want to deal with their shit. But idk if I want to ditch my friend. And my mother. And the town I live in. My grandparents and my sisters live here. She’s going through their shit. But she may never get out of their shit. I’ve known her since I was 6. I held her when her father left. And she held me when Jojo cut me from contact. And we held each other through the pain of her sister leaving. And she didn’t snitch on or abandon me when I started getting angry about all of the damnable things they started in the last couple years. She let me rant. My own mother wouldn’t hear me. My father and grandmother only had “I told you so”s

And it hurts. It hurts that they all placed solid blame on me. This time I am Not Guilty. I didn’t do this shit. I understand it’s a deflection. Because the self-named Shepard over my soul and his two little demon toys can obviously never be at fault. And the 4 and Big Momma buy into it. What did I do????? Adopt you into my life as family? Want to talk to you and please you and make you happy? Sorry I’m so fucked up

And they expect people to snitch to them in everything. For the salvation of their souls.

And I told her. I told her. I told her he didn’t want to hear what she had to say.

How much of anything I say circles back around? But at least I have this small insurance: in talking to me, anything she learns from me she can’t report back without damning herself.

But my demons corrupted everyone who left. Of course I planted seeds. Root of bitterness all that bullshit. Because all the people who have been grown-ass-fucking-adults and only ever looked at me as a nuisance most the time could be swayed by a word I say. Makes perfect fucking sense. Guess God doesn’t give wisdom to the one who asks.

And to top it all off, Mama decided she’s giving away her dog. I mean, yeah, sometimes I hate the little shit-for-brains, but we’ve had her for like 9 years. And she ain’t gonna know what’s going on. We’re just abandoning her to someone. And what if she misses us? What if she stops eating and gets depressed? What if it doesn’t phase her at all?

I’m glad I decided not to do this semester. I couldn’t deal with this shit AND a crazy drug addict for a chemistry professor.