#tw.selfharm

[woesoftheirwretched-if]

how wwould the ros react if they walked in to the mcs room, only to find that they finally gave up - their wrists sliced open and mc already slipping into unconsciousness. maybe mc can offer them a one last smile before their eyes close for good.

if u feel like it, maybe we could also get secret ros and flings (bc ceres) and evenesme, emil and mom too why not?

(i was feeling angst and also sae that lucy likes when mc cries - well jokes on u pookie they've gone past crying!)

of course! Be warned, some of the characters are shitty and just like dgaf about it :D (I did say that theyre horrible:3) -- secret ros are not here because its like boring because it would be one word so sorry ^^

ROS

Micela : She would be surprised when she finds MC in that state, her eyes would be widened really huge as she pukes, she can't handle blood that well, she would cry and probably would scream, her hands would be shaky for a long time.

Luceydell : He would just stare at MC and tilt his head; he feels anger, sadness, curiosity. He wouldn't cry but he would kick MC's dead body, he would then laugh at and coo at MC's body and would wish the blood off, they still look very pretty in his eyes.

Fayette : She would let out a sigh and go over to MC, she would look at the cuts and know that she can't help MC so she would wash her hands and wash off her dna on MC's wrist and then she would leave. She would give a sign secretly for a servant to go to MC's room.

Pandora : He would cough and puke, he would scream but nothing would come out; he then would calm himself down and just look at MC's body, he would leave the room and say nothing about it.

Sally : He would be surprised and scared when he finds MC like that, he would be shuddering in fear as he pukes. He's crying but he would leave to go tell a servant about it or a knight, scared for his entire life.

Aden : They would stare at MC's body as they just laugh then they would throw things around in MC's room due to their anger, they would then calm down and cry for MC then leave, telling Leif about it.

Emmy : They would be ashamed of themselves, they are the protector of MC and they failed, they would shake their head and kiss MC's hand and pray to Wraith for MC then leave and tell Leif about it. They would feel guilty for a long time.

Marryjoy : They would stare at MC's body then just look around to see the selfharm done and if there was anything else that killed MC, they would then take MC's dna and tell Leif about it, perhaps by magic they could bring MC back; baby formed or a monster. It's a experiment to them.

FLINGS

Ceres : Would go to MC's body and kneel it, hes sad and he would cry for a moment and stare at MC, he feels sad but he gets up but before he does, he says a prayer then leaves.

Yuki : She would be surprised at the sight, she feels sad that her toy is dead then she would kick at MC's body, thinking it was a joke then she would leave and continue her life like normal.

Coyote : He would be staring at MC's dead boy, he would kiss them and smile as he takes some stuff, he loved their time together but he knows that MC was a simple fling, he was to move on. He does feel sad about it but he leaves and makes sure that his dna isnt anywhere.

Aenor : She would stare at the body, shaking her head and would try to make sure that MC is actually dead or almost since shes a nurse, she checks everything then leaves once she knows that MC is gone for good.

FAMILY

Esme : He would be scared and shaking as he cries, hes scared for MC but mostly for himself. He was only allowed to be alive thanks to MC now he doesn't know what is going to happen to him. Hes scared.

Mother : She would just stare at MC, she would sit down next to them and mumble to herself as she plays with MC's fingers, she would confess how she feels towards MC(how she loves but also hates them), she would leave and not tell anyone about it.

Emil : He would be crying and screaming, he can't believe. He probably would destory MC's body(kicking, punching it) since he cant believe it, he would be so destoryed, would always think about MC after that.

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Regressor Alhaitham & CG Kaveh

Hurt/Minimal Comfort, Angst

—> Warning, this is incredibly sad and deals with serious topics (self-harm & suicide) do not read if regressed or those trigger you!! I wrote this purely for my own comfort and to cope.

The pristine counter warped under Alhaitham’s fingertips. The porcelain was cold and seemed to center him onto the world, tethered his mind back into his body rather than thousand of miles away.

Was he really going to do this?

The bottles bright plastic smeared in his vision - smeared like the blood on the tiles, his hands infecting everything it touches with his body. Leaving traces of him behind to haunt Kaveh, molecules can’t be easily cleaned off.

No. No, it’ll be fine. He taped his letter to the door and wrote to not come in. He said to call the cops, his last wish for the blond to not see him in the condition he will be. Live with the memories of him alive and healthy.

He’s the last person who cares, archons he hopes Kaveh can just do this for him.

Wiping the blurring tears from his eyes, Alhaitham reached out and grabbed the orange bottles - pill bottles. They were prescribed a while back, from a time Kaveh got injured on the job. They were never finished off cause the boy recovered faster than expected so they’ve just been sitting in the medicinal cabinet.

Well, they finally have a purpose again. Isn’t that laughable? They’re purpose now being to end rather than mend.

Alhaitham carefully pressed and twisted the cap, having to fight against the childproofing with his shaking hands. Anxiety was made to keep people alive and normally, in every rational situation, Alhaitham would know that means he needs to quit and let instincts take over.

But he wants it to stop. Every fiber of his being wants to fight against the survival instinct in this moment (archons he wants to live) and to end the constant shaking. End the whispers. End the fear. End the questions. End it.

So he dumps the bottle into his palm, there isn’t too many, just enough to hopefully overwhelm his system and cause a shut down.

Tears begin to brim, Alhaitham’s hands shake, and in a swift movement he drops the handful into his mouth and swallows (why why why).

And there’s nothing. For a moment Alhaitham feels normal besides the coughs that shake his rib cage and double him over - he’s never been good at taking medicine dry. It feels as though his brain was on jet lag with how it cycles through the events that happened slowly, replaying every decision he made.

And why did he do that?

Panic courses through his veins and Alhaitham wants nothing more than to sob. He’s always prided himself on being calm and rational, someone who thought through everything before he ever decided to act. This proves he isn’t.

Alhaitham is going to die, and it’s all his fault. He’s going to perish, Kaveh will find him, he will be traumatized, and have a subpar note as Alhaithams last words.

Before even Alhaitham processes where his mind is, he’s shakingly typing in Kavehs name, correcting the errors to the best of his ability. (oh god his fingers are numbing - or is it placebo?)

Much to Alhaithams luck, Kaveh answers within the first couple of rings. “Hey, what’s happening. You know I’m at work right?” He’s annoyed. Of course Kaveh would be, Alhaitham called him while he’s on site and he never does that.

But of course, a rapidly deteriorating and regressing mind cannot comprehend that. So, Alhaitham begins to cry. His tongue feels heavy and he just wants his dada. “Kavie..home, did mess up. Call..help? Dunno.”

Words feel like they’re vanishing and archons, Alhaitham is so so scared. “Goose? Hey hey, what’s going on. I’ll call help but first I need to know what happened.” Kaveh sounded so genuinely terrified, it made Alhaitham want to run because Dada never sounded like that.

“Was big, an’ felt so icky. Took, um, meds’in an’ lots of it.” A muffled sob played through the speaker. (oh Kaveh was crying over him). “Kavie..mm scared.”

Right now, Kaveh was also downright terrified but of course he’d never tell his little boy. There was nothing else he could do besides swallowing his fear and hoping, “Thats okay lovebug. I’m gonna have to put you on hold so Kavie can call help though okay?” Kaveh tried his best to breathe, but panic strangled his lungs and forced his body to exhale. “I’ll be right back. While I’m gone I want you to count the tiles for me, tell me how many there are when I’m back.”

That was something Alhaitham could do! He always loved counting the panels and tiles but right now, he was so tired. Alas he hummed and told his dada he would. Slowly he listed off the numbers in his head, trying to fight the droop in his eyelids and swallow back the saliva that pooled in his mouth.

15, that was the number Alhaitham made it to before his dada came back. Words muffled through quiet sobs as he asked if Alhaitham was still there. Not fully understanding the situation Alhaitham hummed, reporting back the number - he always had to tell Kavie.

“That’s amazing sweetie, when I get home we can finish okay? I’m on my way now.” Alhaitham hummed, energy feeling as though it was zapped out. “Hey bud, before I get there some scary men might come in okay? They’re safe, they’re gonna help you. I promise I’ll be there as soon as possible though.”

[atinyladybug-daydreams]

Fucked around with ink today. It was so fun honestly. I should draw more with it.

[woesoftheirwretched-if]

( tw self harm) In a AU where Bellemy was still alive how would she Jasmine and the ROs react if they enters MC chambers only to find them attempting to brutally mutilate themselves and if asked why MC would tearfully say

“I thought if I made myself hideous then he wouldn’t touch me anymore” ( referring to Leif)

Bellamy : would just be quiet, shes staring and leaves. She used to do the same but stopped when Albert came around. Mc can deal with it.

Jasmine : shes worried and tells mc to stop, she would look at the scars and sigh, shes worried for mc.

Micela : shes scared and probably screams and passes out, she wouldnt know what to do afterwards with mc.

Luceydell : he lowkey finds it hot but also wonders about mc, he probably tells leif to leave mc alone for like a week which leif listens.

Fayette : shes staring and kneels to help mc clean it up, shes dealt with scars or her fellow workers doing it.

Pandora : hes a bit scared but teases mc like youre so weak and youre so dumb but hes worried, probably has an servant to grab medicine, herbs, and banadages to drop off at mc's room.

Sally : hes like wow and isnt sure what to do in that moment, he pats mc and tries to comfort them the best way he can.

Aden : theyre just staring mc down, they come close but dont say a word as they look at the cuts, they smile and comfort mc.

Emmy : they shake their head and get rid of items that are sharp, can break and cleans up mcs cuts, they babyproof the room afterwards.

Marryjoy : they laugh and sit down near mc as they create an hallucation of rainbows appearing on mc's cuts while marryjoy cleans it up, trying to make it better.

[inlovewithcoconuts]

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got ragebaited so hard I didnt even get mad, i just picked up the razor and started cutting again omg

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