VULNERABLE TALES
rick grimes x fem reader
WARNINGS: smut, penetrative sex, making love, reader is over 18, mentions of love-bombing, implications of being a widower, mentions of ex dead wife/spouse, angst, mentions of child birth/pregnancy, mentions of insecurity from reader and rick, mentions of pre-apocalypse times, mentions of ex dead boyfriend,
a/n: i cried over this, as i was writing i was literally bawling my eyes out while writing some of the details and i honestly was in a fit of tears for like 30 minutes over this.....
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he was fucking into her so perfectly, his cock filled her to the brim and luckily he was able to fit his whole length in her tight cunt, she hummed against him as her nails dug into his shoulder blades.
with each rough but lustful thrust inside her she hadn't known what to think anymore, she wasn't sure what this was anymore, whether he was making love or he just need erotic sex.
she hoped it was both and that maybe it could be both, that she could continue to feel loved while he filled her up with his member,
"oh fuck, l-love you rick, love you s-so much!" she cried against him feeling as the crook of his neck seemed to muffle her affection that had spilled out of her mouth for him.
"love you to, fuck you're so tight" he hummed back feeling her cunt clench around his cock knowing that she was loving the feeling of hearing the three simple words from his mouth.
he held onto her waist and he leaned down closer to start a trail of hickies that started from her jawline all the way down to the valley of her breasts hearing her whine and moan at the same time from all of the built up pressure inside of her.
it was like she could see stars and each time she tried to count them only more and more appeared, her face toss and turned in the pillow her head was resting on as her legs wiggled and her cunt started to squeeze down harder and harder on his cock.
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she laid there flustered by the fact he had just left, he left her cold in the bed in the middle of the night, her mind seemed to take it personal while she kept trying to come up with a haze of excuses or ideas as to why he wasn't tangled in the sheets next to her.
maybe someone was in trouble? did someone get sick again at the clinic? did Carl sneak out again? did rick go on a run to escape from the others for a little? was he leaving her and if he did why had he fucked her so god damn good just to leave her after she fell asleep?
she let out a deep breath running her hands over her face as she pulled the sheets off of her bare body and slipped on a fresh set of clothes, she made her way into the bathroom but it was empty along with the kitchen and the living room and even the garage were all empty not even a sight of Rick to be seen.
his gun wasn't on the night stand so she knew he must've taken it with him, and well his wedding ring wasn't there either so he must've taken that along with him to.
maybe he regretted it, maybe he just regretted the idea of her saying the l word to him so much that he felt pressured to say it back, the heat of the moment had just been imprinted on him.
so no it wasn't love it was sex, that's all it was, it wasn't full of love or lust or magic or even erotica of it all but just plain sloppy but so good damn worth of sex is what they had.
she stepped out onto the porch to see that the wind was blowing and the breeze sent a chill down her spine, there was truly no sight of him, and now she was alone, alone in the house by herself.
maybe he'd come back, and she was just overreacting but as she woke up once more the bedside was still cold and he still hadn't been around, and it broke her heart feeling the cold and empty bed side next to her.
it seemed to pulse a pain through her because she felt like it was all her damn fault that he left, that she had simply scared him off or just pushed him way past his limit of love.
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"tell me it was real" she spoke taking a sip from her mug as she looked over at the blonde women who was walking with Sam talking about something she couldn't quite make out.
y/n could feel the air tense up while Rick noticed her gaze on Jessie, he placed a soft trail of kisses on the bare skin of her shoulders that the tank-top on her revealed to him.
she tried to hold back and act like she hadn't wanted it from him, to act like she didn't actually loved him but she just couldn't, she couldn't imagine herself being so cold to a man she had loved ever since the beginning of the end of the world bullshit.
"please tell me you meant it, that it wasn't just the heat of the moment somehow caused by last night" she spoke while her hand trembled, she looked down at the wood while setting down her mug onto the porch watching as some of the droplets spilled onto the cotton colored wood she leaned on.
She didn't turn around to face Rick but she knew the expression that was surely planted on his face now, she knew his pupils would swell up any time he was asked a question, she believed that it was just the sense of emotion in the air that caused it for him.
he rubbed her lower back softly hearing as she let out a pleasured groan, but she was still confused as to why he was silent, as to why he wasn't answering her questions.
he sighed out before finally having the courage to speak, "i did, i meant every ounce of what i said" he spoke rubbing small circles with his thumbs on her lower back as he could feel her loosen up for him.
"when was the last time you said it?" y/n asked flipping around to look at him, she watched him gulp as he pulled on his hands to run over the stubble of his beard and yet like a habit he pulled his other hand away to fiddle with his wedding ring.
and seeing the silver ring being turned seem to make her stomach churn as she pressed herself even harder into the railing, "when Lori was pregnant with Judith" he spoke honestly while planting himself a seat in one of the chairs resting on the porch,
she gulped so harshly that it had caused a throbbing pain in her throat, her arms were folded as she stared down at the wedding ring his fingers were twisting at.
he could tell she noticed it by the pale and drooping expression on her face almost like he had just accidentally shattered her heart, "i only wear it as a memory of who i was" Rick admitted,
and he hadn't told anything but the truth, he wanted to be honest with her even if it meant being vulnerable with himself and her, she had to see and accept all of his emotions even if he felt that they made him so damn weak, but in reality the emotions and the tears that he had cried made him even more damn powerful.
"after Lori died, i felt" he paused to swallow back the tears that were trying to pry themselves out from his eyes, "after she died i lost my mind, i just her death, and well you i-" he wasn't even sure what he was ranting about now cause his mind was in a haze.
she had wished she hadn't been so god damn stupid and asked that question to him, he had a few tears pouring down his eyes, "i didn't think i could ever feel this way again" he admitted feeling her arms wrap around him like a warm blanket and god was it comforting.
he wasn't sure he could love or if he could be loved again, after Lori his entire world was destroyed, "i didn't mean to love bomb you last night Rick i'm sorry i should've known better to not be so stupid" y/n spoke as she slipped into his lap to prevent his face from being buried in his hands.
he stroked her hair softly to just take in more of her embrace, "that's not what you did, you meant it right?" now it was just a damn time loop for them because they were asking the same questions
"i did and i do, i mean it that i love you"
she replied, she hadn't felt the same after she had seen her boyfriend being torn apart by walkers, at the beginning when they were both trying to survive and he had just given up and let himself get torn apart like a piece of meat.
that was the only boy she had really loved, it was the only boy she seemed to wish for eternity with and now she understood how it was like to be confused by the feeling of love again.
because god she knew it was real, but she wasn't sure if she able to handle the feeling if he believed it wasn't, she just wasn't sure how she'd be able to react to the pain of it all.
now they were both holding onto each other, showing off their not so proudest moments, but it was made them so close, it was the reason they were able to survive and hold on for this long.
"before this i had a boyfriend, i'd been with him for a few years and we were together during the apocalypse well at the start, and we got stuck in the city looking for a sign as to what the hell was going on around us, and he couldn't take it, he just let the walkers tear him apart and i could just watch the walkers tear him apart and then Glenn found me and brought me back to that camp"
y/n could feel Rick grab onto her hand so tight that he was almost cutting off her circulation. he planted a soft kiss on her skin and used his thumb to wipe away a few tears slipping down her face.
"i love you and i don't think i can stop myself from not loving you" he spoke rocking the chair softly as he could feel her bury her face in the crook of his neck with a sniffle.
"what are we going to do with each other" Rick managed to chuckle while he stroked some hair on the back of her head, "i think our crying sessions seem to be helping" she remarked back playfully as she wiped her nose with loud sniffle from her.
"makes us stronger believe it or not" she added feeling as his hand started to gently massage her back making her sink into him even further than she already was.
"you're right even i don't want to admit it i have to"
