.
Woke up with a fever today. It sucked so bad. I still feel kind of bad. My boyfriend is bringing home medicine. I've been in and out of sleep. Really didn't want to miss work today. So I'm disappointed about that. Lately I have been trying to diet. It's very hard. Wish I were born naturally skinny. I'm using this app called my fitness pal. I am only allowed 1280 calories a day which is next to nothing. I go to the gym and burn off some of those. So I usually wind up under that. I def don't get to go to the gym as much as I'd like to. Sometimes I cheat a little bit. But as long as its within my calorie limit. Not sure if that's really cheating. I really need to figure out better meals. To make me not starting eating thousands of calories a day again. I've struggled all my life with weight. But I am so uncomfortable with my body. I really like the whole body positivity movement. I wish that I could jump on board.