#uaaaaaaagh

[gunpowder-tim]

i love not being able to get a job and having no money. i love being stressed abt having no money.

[juiceboxkickycan]

i do well when i can be emotionally honest with people. i front-load my feelings and let that open expressiveness be the barometer for the conversation. (some people have used .... " uwu culture " (i hate calling it that.....) and been incredibly toxic and bad people to be around so. like. It's a Poisoned well to begin with... )

And part of that involves using cute little (ง ื▿ ื)ว faces like these to emote. and something [ or someone? |ω･)ﾉ (≧◡≦) ]

And, as someone who spectates a Shared Brain..... the consistent vibe is be super anxious about all of this 🙃

[windingway]

oh it's been a while since my brain felt it necessary to validate whether or not i was traumatized by an event that definitely gave me trauma symptoms

the urge to feel like i made up all these years of reacting in the ways i have and all the progress I've made unpacking and reprocessing my frameworks for things..... all because i haven't seen anyone else like me

my brain, bouncing between either i made it all up/overreacted to something harmless or that something worse Must have happened (in addition to what i do remember) in order for me to have reacted this way

it's crazy-making and i would like my brain to please stop

i will love and heal myself no matter what did or did not happen. i will take care of myself and find healthy coping strategies, no matter how bad it was or could have been.

my brain is seeking support in one of the ways it knows how -- finding people with similar experiences. just because i can't find written confirmation that my exact experiences were traumatic does not mean that it did not traumatize me. the years of avoidance and fixation and identity confusion and flashbacks and dissociation were not playing pretend. denial and minimization are strategies to cope - i am noticing my inclination for them at present and remaining mindful.

[wacky-nameless-inventor-24]

Hihi! for the touches ask game, hand-holding 19 and/or touching 24 with beakheron please ^^!!! (If you want, ofc)

ohhhh you are on to something

19. playing with each other’s fingers

Only a moment after they sat next to each other Beakley lifted Black Heron's right arm in her hand, feeling the weight of the metal. Running her fingers along the seams, sure there were gadgets hidden inside she hadn't discovered yet.

Eventually she moved on to the metal hand, testing how sharp the end of her fingers were before studying the knuckle joints, running her fingers over them. Heron's hand twitched a few times.

At last, the director slowly turned to glare at her. "I can feel that, you know. It tickles."

"I'm aware." Beakley didn't look up.

Heron rolled her eyes, looking back at the book she was holding with one hand. "Find any of my secret weapons?"

"Not yet," Beakley replied, lifting Heron's prosthetic so it caught the light better. "But I did find this," the spy slowly and lightly ran her finger down the middle of Heron's palm.

Her hand spasmed, and Heron yanked it out of Beakley's reach. "Hey! Do that again and these fingers will end up in your throat."

Beakley chuckled, reaching for Heron's hand once more. "Is that a challenge?"

24. whispering in their ear, lips touching the skin

"Found the target," Black Heron murmured as she held out a hand toward her temporary partner.

22 took it, rising from her seat as Heron tugged her up. "You're sure?"

The director nodded, leading her to the edge of the dance floor. Her other hand slid to 22's waist. "The little sparrow in the navy dress. Their dress slipped- they have the markings."

22 leaned in close, talking discreetly in Heron's ear as they stepped back and forth in time with the music. "We'll need to lead them away before things get... unpleasant."

"Shall I leave that to you?" Heron asked, swaying slightly in 22's arms.

"No, I need to be here." 22 pointed out. "You should get them, that shouldn't be too hard."

22's beak was so close to Heron's ear she could feel her breath, her mouth against her feathers. "In this outfit you're irresistible."

Black Heron shivered, and took in a sharp breath when she heard 22 chuckle, the sound vibrating in her chest against Heron's. It took the director a moment to collect herself.

"That- that sounds like a plan."

[shiningoak]

for the chara ask..my best boi Kanata enstars

PUKA PUKA!

What is your opinion of this character? If you like, explain why you like him/her.

Reading Aquarium then Meteor Impact hurt me. So much. I am a sucker for characters with restricted childhoods getting to explore the wider world/cinderella plots, and I am a sucker for the isolation of the divine and empathizing with the monster so MAN. MAN. MAN.

 Is he/she important to the general plot?

You have to define what "general plot" means here, but... nnnnnno? He is more like a heavy lore hidden in sidequest chara

 Can you relate to this character at all? Does he/she grip you emotionally?

the beginning of aquarium where he said he always identified more with the monster in a sentai show. also the second question

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 Do you ship this character with any other character? Or, are you particularly intrigued by his/her relationship with any other character(s)? (romance-wise or platonic)

chia...kana...

 Is there anything about the character you would change?

not really? admittedly I haven't checked up Everything, but I am happy with what I saw so far

 If you were in the fandom with this character or knew this character in real life, how would you see yourself interacting with him/her?

I would probably be... creeped out. Sorry Kanata, I didn't learn anything /j

Does this character make the cut as one of your all time favorites (if you like) or least favorites?

Not all time favorite due to competition but On God, thinking about him too much makes me cryscream so ranking may be subject to change

Would you hype up this character (if you like) or warn about this character (if you dislike) to someone new to fandom?

Read Meteor Impact

 Is this character popular with the fanbase? 

I think he is midlevel popular? Mid-low? no idea. but no one is disliked in EnStars, at least