hii i finally managed to get back into this account and i originally wasn’t going to do this because it feels ridiculous but the more i think about what is being said about me, it grosses me out.
before i address anything, i wanna say i will not be allowing anyone else to join the uc server. idk how to turn off invites or if that is even possible but if you join the server, you will be automatically banned. i’m tired of being infiltrated by people with ill intentions.
firstly, i want to remind y’all i am just a person. i am not a celebrity, influencer, or author (yet…). i’m not sure why i have this much power over people who can easily choose to ignore and block me. instead i have had multiple people infiltrate my server to find things to talk shit about. it’s completely unhinged.
i have been in the fandom since i was 15. there are certainly things i should probably apologize for. i was very much hot headed and loose lipped and spoke first without thinking about people’s feelings. i’m choosing to acknowledge that but i will not apologize for it. i have proven time and time again that every single “bullying” interaction i had was because people had chose to attack me first. i stand 10 toes down on my actions but when i call these people out, you guys choose to act as if you did not provoke me first or did not see me being provoked first simply because you dislike me. i am not a timid person and i am not afraid to stick up for myself.
second- i think yall have really built up the relationship i have with rotty. while i do consider him a friend, we are not as close as y’all try to act like we are. the last time i spoke to him one on one was when he took the series down. before that, it was years. again, i love him as an author and i consider him a friend for sure but i think he would agree we are just not that close. when it came to the jo x hades oneshot, i started jokingly tagging him to write one shots of random ships i had. it wasn’t just jo and hades. when he agreed to do so, that was HIS choice. i had no idea what he was going to write and i had no idea he was going to make it canon. i did not proof read it. it does not matter if you think hades would never act like that or jo would never blah blah blah- at the end of the day, these are rotty’s characters. rotty is the author. these characters do not belong to y’all. i am not rotty’s lapdog, i’m not his puppeteer or vice versa.
third- this is a small tidbit but ridley is an IRL of mine. when they came to visit, we decided to ask the (tarot) cards which characters would bottom for me. i want to remind yall these are fictional characters. i am not fucking them. you saying these characters would be disgusted by me in this context is absolutely fucking insane. they are not real! and to act like i’m preying on these characters because some of them have experienced SA- please shut up. these are fictional victims but even REAL victims are allowed to be sexually active. and they are. now on the topic of seven- i definitely fucked up there. when we got to him, i was running out of characters. he was the first to pop up into my head and i completely forgot the fact he’s a teenager.
fourth- telling me i need to take my meds or get on meds is EXTREMELY ableist. i am open about my struggle with my mental health but i hate to tell y’all- i am the most healthiest i’ve been in my life. i have friends i love, i see my family, i love my job, i live in my own apartment and pay my goddamn bills. trying to throw my mental health in my face is disgusting.
fifth - at this point, i’m running out of things to address so speed run: i don’t care if you don’t agree with my opinions- i have a whole channel dedicated to hot takes. i do not surround myself with people who agree with every single thought of mine. i do not have a rape fetish. rotty is not my minion, i am not theirs.
a lot of y’all act like you know me so definitively just because you’ve interacted with me twice. you guys do not know the first thing about me. please move on. having a blog centered around me (because yes…it is. i’m mentioned in almost every single post), is very absurd.