#ugh weight

[pumkinpie579]

I really hope the scale at my gym is wrong bc if I GAINED 10lbs since starting my new job- I'm gunna cry.

[flowercrowns-and-daydreams-blog]

Shameless selfie.

[osointricate-oldblog-blog]

I'M A BIG GIRL.

I AM OVERWEIGHT.

I AM UNHEALTHY.

YES, I'M TRYING TO LOSE WEIGHT, BUT IT'S A BATTLE I'VE BEEN FIGHTING FOR A LONG TIME.  DON'T TELL ME I SHOULDN'T BE LOSING WEIGHT.  YOU AREN'T ME.  YOU DON'T HAVE MY BODY.  DON'T TELL ME TO BE HAPPY WITH THE BODY THAT I HAVE.  IF THE BODY I HAVE IS MAKING ME UNHEALTHY, I'M GOING TO TRY TO DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT.

I'M GOING TO LOSE THAT WEIGHT UNTIL I FEEL GOOD AGAIN.

AND NO, I'M NOT TALKING ABOUT GETTING DOWN TO A SIZE 0 THAT IS UNREALISTIC FOR ME.  A SIZE 10, HOWEVER?  REALISTIC.  BUT IF I GET TO MY GOAL WEIGHT BEFORE I HIT A SIZE 10?  HELL I'LL STOP AT A SIZE 14 IF IT MEANS BEING AT MY GOAL WEIGHT.

NOW, ONCE I FINALLY (IF EVER) GET TO THAT GOAL WEIGHT, (WHICH - BY THE WAY - IS STILL OVERWEIGHT FOR MANY WOMEN) TELL ME THAT I'M FAT AND UNHEALTHY.  I WON'T GIVE A FUCK ABOUT WHAT PEOPLE SAY ABOUT ME THEN BECAUSE I'LL BE HEALTHY AND HAPPY.

WE GOOD?

WE GOOD.