party 4 u (Inupi seishu)
Happy Halloween! I’m back from the dead! So here’s a story! Someone new! It’s party 4 u by Charlie xcx you know the song don’t you!
Lover boy <3
'Yes I promise I'll be there'
Sent 9:34 pm
That what he said. Yet I'm here wearing my dress waiting in an unfamiliar place. Looking down to my phone to see no messages. I don't even know where I am at. I just knew this was his favorite place. Yet with unfamiliar place the anxiety was raising up slowly. It was 10pm. And I was in the crowd, in the center of everything having a clear vision at the door. Everyone was drinking. Everyone was dancing. Why couldn't I see him. The lights weren't blinding to me. The time was changing as if in a movie going slower. I could hear the steps, the laughter, the make-out of couples and the singing . The minutes felt to slow down, now it was just seconds. Everything slowed down the dances around me. This party wasn't even for me.
The balloons were now bouncing everywhere but still he wasn't here. Only 2 minutes have passes as I decided to call him. One ring... Two rings.. Three rings. No answer. I only threw this party for him. I invited the people he knew. And everyone was having fun. Still why wasn't he here. The champagne now were popping spreading everywhere. Yet I stood playing with my finger. Calling him now would just go to voicemail.
An hour pass. He still wasn't there. The face I memorized so many times. The face I kissed so much. The scar that made his eyes popped. His voice. Why isn't he here?
Now it midnight, the's guest I invited were out and another crowd was in. Dancing and Drinking. Would he still come? After everything together. Would he just leave? The tears started to fall out from my eyes to my phone. Would he kissed me if he saw my tears? The tears that were because of him? This wasn't the first time something like this happened. So why stay with him? I love him..but does he love me?
So without a second thought, I walked to the bar getting a drink. Even if the tears filled my eyes, i shouldn't think too much of this. Slowly finding my way back to the dance floor, with the dance and the drinks flowing through my body. I danced more with every single song change I would take another shot. By the end, it was all a blur. Figure's dancing close and around me. The lights were now blinding me, feeling like a euphoria state.
Still there was no call. No text. I through this party for him. That what's was repeated as I looked to the ceiling with the lights flashing.
As if the time slowed I looked towards the door. I notice his blue eyes, and his sunflower blonde hair. Then looking towards the side to notice kokonoi. The feeling I thought left two or three hours ago were back. My eyes were just on his as my glass I had was slowly going to my side.
Why did he come?
He didn't walk and Nether did I. While kokonoi left his side to get them drink. The lights were flashing between him than at myself as if the universe wanted us together. But why? He promised this yet he wasn't here when I wanted him to be. He only came when kokonoi did. So why is that?
Why couldn't he come with me? I threw him a party...why? I only threw this party for him. So why?
The people around me dance more, shouted the lyrics while I was in my own world. A world with just inui. Without eyes connected till the lights turn off I make my way back in the crowd leaving the bar from the back while people were now close against me. The only difference was that I heard him calling for me. Why was he calling me? Why?
Before he can catch up to me. Before he can say anything. I was out in the back of the bar walking away into god knows where.
By the time the lights turned on inui stayed in his spot while where I stood once before was missing. The crowd started to move and danced were I once was. It was as if I was never there. Not in that spot he once saw me in. The feeling he had was there still lingering. I mean what was he supposed to feel. He never moved not even kokonoi called him. I think he knew in that moment he lost. But he didn't know what that meant. Tomorrow he will fill it I hoped. But the two..they never spoke again.















