#ugh............

[mrsducky]

[aniraklova]

Idk here we go again about nasty cc creators topic and their paywall shit they can't live without, it fucking won't stop, never... After so much time like? Why keep supporting someone who wants just money and not make something for this community or interact with their fans or whatever. Honestly, this kills me and my motivation once again to keep up and share my cc, guys it's for free and it's something I once made for myself and decided to share, here for everyone...

P.S. and it'll stay for free though

[unproduciblesmackdown]

like dude my heart........highlights include a) will truly looks like some fifteen year old wandered in b) i can’t swear one of them didn’t forget to sing “messed up” instead of “effed up” at the end c) michael’s little victory dance during “now we’re stuck on a level” d) will saying “good job” to george e) also him being the shortest one there apparently and f) dude my heart....

[cyberpunklesbian]

[trans angst]

...

i do not identify as nonbinary at this point and i feel rather strongly about it.

like, i want to be able to be a woman who doesn’t wear makeup or have the most feminine attire or presentation, and not be treated as somehow less of a woman because of it. it’s not really a butch/femme thing; my ideal gender presentation is basically a slob of a woman, and i feel like trans women are excluded from that possibility; laziness in presentation is a privilege denied to us. in some ways it’s almost easier to say that im nonbinary, because it offers cis people an out; they can think, oh i don’t have to pretend to that this ******-looking thing is a real woman thank god. and i absolutely do not want cis people to have that comfort. even though realistically i’d end up accepting that shit anyways.

the impetus behind this was while talking to a trans woman i knew, before i left for home three weeks ago. she didn’t even know that i’d been on hormones for 6 months, or even that i was, like, a girl now or whatever. and it was disappointing, because i thought i changed a lot. and she was like, you have androgynous or nonbinary vibes. and i did not vibe with that at all.

anyway this is pointless and futile i need to stop thinking about useless stuff like this

and of course this may change; one day i might decide that i’m totally fine with being some sort of non-gendered thing.

also! all this means that the part of the discourse that posits “binary” and “non-binary” trans women as two distinct groups is totally incoherent. i basically identify as “binary” but like, in practice i don’t really have anything in common with a “binary” post-op, passing, conventionally attractive white trans woman in terms of how i move through this society we live in. “passing” vs “non-passing” makes much more difference in practice.

[adigeon]

i somehow J U S T realized that in garak & bashir’s last scene, bashir puts his hand on garak’s shoulder, and garak immediately shrugs it off & it’s what snaps garak out of his mourning and back into the glib “oh, it’s quite alright, Doctor...you’ve been SUCH a good friend” persona

[enchantas]

Nothing quite as sweet and call me beep me have similar energy mainly cuz lance is Cat Whisperer in both-🦀

BIG BIG BIG NODDING

[nietr]

I'm kinda annoyed Sony has all the better games because with Sony, its not like when the new games come out you can just play them on the PC when they're released...

Like, it's absurd how much better Sony is with grabbing exclusives... or even timed exclusives. I have very little money for shit like video games these days, and I now have no consoles, and I don't even have a valid desktop to game on, so, I want to put my money into making a budget build if i'm gonna drop around 300-750$ on something that will run games. My last build lasted me around 13 years and I could have easily just bought a new GPU, upgraded the main hard drive from mech to SSD and got some new RAM and it wouldn't have cost me much at all... Sadly, I lost the whole rig...

But, fuck, I want to play Silent Hil 2 and the next part of FF7 when it comes out. I don't want to wait fucking 2-3 years...

I'm just going to budget build and hopefully, get lucky and somehow wind up with a ps5 at some point in the near future...