Anon Advice Asks - April 21
usaid anon, unconditional anon (new), panromantic anon, three hearts anon, willpower anon (new)
usaid anon
Hi its usaid anon. This is much more about me than the rest of the asks sorry. Its just my mom has a plan for if we get deported. So firstly that. Its been 3 months at this rate it feels like there is no way we're making it all 4 years without me getting deported some way or another which fucking sucks. Im constantky worrying bc my mom could lose her job any day and my life would just be completley turned fucking upside down.
Secondly, the actual plan. I was talking to my friend today because i wanted to know whether or not i would go to a public school and she wants to get citizenship to the UK. I literally want to cry. I miss my home town so much and the only reason i can afford college is bc i have residence in a US state so i'll have state tuition. And i'll have to move. Again. Start over completely. Again. Im so done. I dont want to do this anymore. I hate him. I hate him so much and i cant do fucking anything i cant even go to protests bc i live in fucking india. I hate this i hate everything. Whats the point anymore?
Hi <3
While I'm dealing with different things, I get the hopelessness you're feeling. It's awful and consuming and it's so hard to want to keep fighting. But remember that he WANTS you to give up. He wants to have complete power. So when you say 'what's the point?' the point is to not let him win. Don't give him that. Keep speaking out (in a way that's safe for you), no matter what happens, because he needs to know that he has people who despise him. I know how draining and hard that is, but it's so important. <3
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unconditional anon
I know my family loves me unconditional.
But I know if they knew I was queer they wouldn't talk to me.
One time my brother said my parents and they would love me even if I committed murder, but he would simply not talk to me because it's wrong and.
They view the lgbt same.
I know you probably don't understand their point, but as someone who was raised with their beliefs, I can't help but feel the same sometimes.
It just hurts.
It must feel really confusing and conflicting to see them love you so much, but know they have those beliefs. Like being pulled in two different directions. I can't even imagine how heartbreaking that is. Do you have any people irl that know/are supportive? I hope you know your being queer is okay and valid <3
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panromantic anon
Hi!
I feel like I remember you asking me to not post your asks in the past, so I'm not going to.
Yeah, I mean I can't decide your labels for you, but what you're saying about your feelings sounds like demi, and your gender, that sounds like something a genderfluid person could feel.
How did the class trip go? What did she say when you came out to her?
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three hearts anon
Ahhh I'm so glad you're going to the counselor! This makes me so happy, and I'm proud of you for doing that! I'm glad you're feeling better, too! But remember if there are times when you don't, keep going to the counselor, and inbox me if you need it!
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willpower anon
Hi hon! I don't have anything saved for that anon name, abut what I can say is that what you're describing isn't safe. This kind of thinking can easily turn into something even less safe, and I really think you need to try to get some help now. I know it's hard, especially when you're trying to look a certain way, but this isn't the way to do it. Could you talk to a trusted adult? Parent, family member, teacher, guidance counselor, doctor, etc?