#undertalethingem writes

[undertalethingems]

ok genuinely gaster saying that he knows sans almost gave up on everything goes so hard. im going to (platonically) make out with you (if its ok) because i love this entire thing so much. i will happily wait literal years for one page, i can be very patient!! so dont rush!!!! ok?

i'll accept a mutual handshake, how about that XD

but listen. i am not immune to sans angst (or skelebros angst in general). so here, take this.

imagine being gaster.

you can only watch.

Your children are suffering. You aren't sure when the last time one of them moved is. He hasn't been eating, and he loves to eat. He loves to joke, but hasn't been speaking. His brother is terrified but paralyzed, afraid the slightest mention of the accident will be the final straw that costs him his remaining family. he already blames himself for the disaster, and you know he will blame himself if his brother is lost as well. you do not know what he will do beyond that.

sometimes, none of this peril registers. your own heart is too scattered, your consciousness spread thin. you are barely aware of your own suffering. your eyes are open but do not see.

you snap into sudden clarity, and all the pain that comes with it tears at every atom of you. you want to scream, call their names, but with what voice, with what air? you want to reach out and embrace them both, and never let go again--but with what arms? what body?

you are less than a ghost, even denied a chance to haunt the narrative. reality actively rejects your memory. maybe it's better that way. you have no one to blame for this hell but yourself, after all. you reached for something forbidden to you and now you will never hold anything again. but the consequences of your actions stretch beyond you, catching your sons in their claws.

your eldest has all but given up on his life. you destroyed everything he's ever worked towards, and he has no future he can trust. the futility crushes him. he despairs, and this is the despair that kills monsters. you've always worried he'd be more susceptible to it than most. you never worried that. you weren't worried until he laid down on that couch one day and hasn't moved since. you don't know how to reconcile these conflicting memories. you worry.

your youngest buries his fears, hides himself within, plasters over the cracks with a loud voice and bright smile. he refuses sleep, keeping mind and body occupied or else be consumed by the fear that your fate will also befall him. the longer he goes on without anyone to balance him out, the harder he pushes himself. the closer he comes to a breaking point. you wonder if he will ever collapse. you wonder if anyone will be there to pick him up. you worry.

you can only watch.

and when you have the capacity for it, you hope.

[undertalethingems]

guess who discovered they accidentally left out a huge chunk of a chapter of one of their old fics, and just spent the last 2 hours editing it so it could finally go up on Ao3 as intended~!

[undertalethingems]

Do you have a list of the different things you’ve written?

I feel like I’ve seen some of them tho I can’t ever seam to find them again

I don't have a list, but i try to tag all my fics and fic-related stuff with "undertalethingem writes"; hopefully that's what you're looking for, anon :>

[undertalethingems]

I have a 12 hour flight tomorrow and I was wondering if you had any papyrus angst/character study and/or skelebros stories you might recommend to fill the time? Digging through the Undertale tag on Ao3 is…daunting

hey, i feel ya; as much as i'd love to have a ton of recs for anyone who asks, trying to sort through everything--even with tags filtered--is a huge undertaking. i've gotten discouraged more than once... such that it's never really been something i've been able to do myself.

Of course, i can always suggest my own works; a good chunk of what i write is skelebros-focused, and for Papyrus angst/character exploration in particular, I've got the Papyrus Bingo Prompts series and Burning at Both Ends.

those are all pretty short though, so i'm sure i have several followers who can help out with suggestions too, and give you plenty to choose from :>

[undertalethingems]

Hold on you write fanfiction too?? On top of being a comic artist ?? Drop your ao3 account , i GOT to check it out!!

here, have fun :>

it's funny, because i sometimes think of myself as more of a fic writer--unexpected guests was originally planned to only be a fic until i decided to convert it into a fancomic; i at least feel like i've written more fics than i've posted completed pieces of fanart. i'm just. real bad at promoting the fact i have a bunch of fics people can read XD

i do have my fics set up so that you need an Ao3 account to read them, but i appreciate anyone who takes the time to check them out ^^

[undertalethingems]

A few folks already know, but I posted a new chapter to 'But it [Re]Fused' last night! I have my account set up so only people with Ao3 accounts can read, and that makes linking tricky--but I can still post a non-link URL that can be copy and pasted in:

archiveofourown.org/works/33922237/chapters/84353626

Sorry about the hassle, but check it out if you can, and I'll have the character art and profile up soon!

[undertalethingems]

probably no one remembers that i once mentioned i had an angsty idea for why papyrus has so much energy

but if that sounds like fun I have just the fic for you :>

[undertalethingems]

hey there! if you have an Ao3 account, I have a new fic for you, and it's not angst this time! in fact, it is pretty much the opposite of angst!

have fun!