#undressmyfears

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Is undressmyfears. Just sayin.

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Trying to focus on you but I'm distracted by you as well.

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I had like five minutes where I felt every emotion of the spectrum. Now I feel nothing. Or, if I have to pinpoint it, I'm just done. I think I short-circuited because of you.

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Seriously though, let me express a legit fear to those of you who care. I'm terrified to start driving. I know that sounds odd, what teenager doesn't want to start driving? But see, I'm terrified of getting one of my episodes while I'm driving, and I'll just pull the steering wheel into a tree or over a bridge. What would stop me, really? There's no way anyone would be able to tell that it was anything other than an accident, so guilt-free for my friends and parents. That's the only reason I'm still here now. So yeah. And as sick as it is, I'm also ready to face that challenge. I'm ready to fail that challenge.

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I'm pretty sure that if I let myself cry right now I won't stop for a while. I need my mommy.