“Finally came to the realization after self-blaming and wondering where I went wrong with us, that losing you wasn’t exactly a loss but rather a gain: A blessing in disguise by the God Almighty. I lost myself and my self-respect trying to restore the trust of a hurt man from his past relationships. I took it as my responsibility because I loved him so much. I wanted nothing more than to show him true love, care and affection. But all he was doing to me was taking, taking, and hurting. Trying to save a man I loved made me lose myself. Nothing I ever did for him was enough; I was never enough. He always saw people and life in a negative light.. no matter how beautiful a person may have been. He was insecure and always jealous. No amount of reassurance could help him out. Something was always wrong with others and he was.. always perfect. Losing him burnt because I’ve spent so many days and time and effort trying to keep us happily together. But one sided effort never takes you far. A relationship is a two person responsibility. And even though it hurts still, I’ve come to love myself more. Now I know just how capable I am loving someone whether they are right or wrong. I’ve come out stronger than ever. Instead of you healing, you went off to harm another innocent woman. Instead of healing from your problems, you’ve moved on to a rebound relationship. Instead of crashing down from loving you, I have been teaching myself to heal before I find another. My healing process is my own duty. My hurt will never be another man’s responsibility.”
Rezwana Ahmed