Cee I have my anatomy final in (checks time) 6 hours, I wasted an entire WEEK to study for it and now I’m cramming hard 😞 does uni!yn have any study tips so I can STOP procrastinating the entire semester 😭😭
"You know what, procrastination happens to the best of us so there's no need to beat yourself up over it! I've definitely crammed for an exam-"
"You are such a liar, we all know you've never crammed for an exam in your life, you're just saying that to make Anon feel better- Here are some study tips from someone who's actually had to cram for exams: [clears throat] so basically you're gonna wanna unpeel the label from a water bottle, write down all the important stuff in really teeny tiny font, and-"
"Do not do that! Don't- okay, don't listen to him, what you should actually do is use flash cards and like, rapid-fire quiz yourself-"
"-You can also roll up a teeny slip of paper and shove it underneath your fingernail and then when the professor isn't looking you can unroll it-"
“This is dumb.” You grumble from your seat beside your best friend. “This chair is unusually warm for such a cold gym.”
“Calm down Y/N. They had a practice before this and we’re right in the front, one of the coaches probably sat there before you.” She rolls her eyes, watching the empty court.
She had started seeing a guy recently which wasn’t at all unusual for her, she went on dates all the time. She was basically a dating app professional user. She’d never dragged you along though and of course the first time she does its attending said guys basketball game. Your sports knowledge was very limited, meaning you could tell which hall went to what game but then you were lost.
“Why did I need to come with you again?” You ask, realizing she never gave you a reason. She just told you she payed for your seat and that the game was that night. She gave you no time to prepare or ask questions before she was ushering you out the door with a puppy dog look.
“Hwan...he said he wasn’t opposed to taking me back to his place tonight if things go well during the game and I need someone to take my car home.” She murmurs sheepishly, cheeks a blooming red and shy eyes glued to the glossed floor.
“You’re gross.” You laugh, shoving her slightly. “You made me your valet for the night if your booty call works out?”
“When you say it like that it sounds bad...” She pouts, hiding the mischievous smile. “Plus I’ll owe you one.”
“You’ll owe me two.” You correct her. She shakes her head.
“Why two? This is one favor.”
“No, this is two. The first one was me coming with you. The second one is me taking your car back home.” You explain, snatching her keys off her lap since you already knew she was going to be preoccupied tonight whether it was with Hwan or someone else. You loved her but she got around and she proudly owned the slut title.
She whined and tilted her head back against the plastic seats but poured with a nod. “Fine. Two favors. But I’m not cleaning the bathroom!”
“After the mess you made last time that I had to clean up? I wouldn’t ask you to.” You assured her, shivering at the memory of the spilt cleaning supplies well...everywhere.
People slowly began to fill the empty seats, crowding you and Areum. To your misfortune the seat beside you was claimed by a middle aged man who clearly had new heard of personal space or deodorant. You scowled at the girl beside you and she silently apologized when she realized what had made you so sour. “Three favors.”
The teams made it onto the court and you grew curious. Both the team Hwan was on and the opposing team had reasonably attractive players, making you think maybe tonight wouldn’t be a total waste. But the cheerful oaf next to you quickly reminded you how badly you wanted to shrivel up and die when he raised his arms yet again.
“Which one is Hwan?” You ask over the sound of people shouting around you.
“Mmm” She hums, eyes scanning the men running in every direction around the court. “Oh! Right there, the silver hair!”
He was easy to spot out, being the only one on the court with said hair color and for the fact that he spotted Areum at the same time and sent her a not so subtle lip bite. Yeah...you were home alone tonight.
They kept making goo goo eyes at one another for a good thirty seconds before one of his teammates was shoving him and bringing him out of his muddy thoughts. You laughed, watching the blonde scold his friend, not being quite sure of what he was saying but knowing it was something pertaining to his flirting since he couldn’t look back in her direction without red cheeks.
“Cock block.” Areum pouts, shooting daggers at the blonde who threw his hands up in defense when he noticed her pointed glare. You laughed once again, gaining a smile and what you could have mistaken for a wink from him.
You tried your best to look interested in the game playing out before you but it was no use, the only thing you could find yourself paying any attention to was the blonde running back and forth. You still weren’t entirely sure what was going on but you knew you needed to find him when the game was said and done. If Areum got to have fun tonight why couldn’t you?
The man beside you mumbled something about the bathroom as he got up but your senses at ease once he was gone. But the vacant seat didn’t last long when someone jumped over the back of it, claiming it once more. You fully expected a child with the way they had leaped over but you were met with yet another handsome guy. This university was just spitting them out left and right.
He was intently watching the court with a grin when he finally noticed your eyes on him and turned his head to look at you. “That guy sitting here before wasn’t your boyfriend was he?” He asks over the noise, knowing full well it was not.
You rolled your eyes at his teasing and looked back on the court, intentions set on finding the blonde again. Areums eyes were following Hwan, she was done for, there was no point in trying to start a conversation anymore.
“I’m Hoseok.” He yells, a bit closer this time. “My friends and hookups call me Hobi.”
“Hoseok it is then.” You laugh dryly, giving him the hint that you were not going anywhere with him tonight. You liked confident guys, no cocky ones.
“And what should I call you?” He asks, still as close as he once was, ignoring your attempt at shutting him down. “Because right now I’m thinking sweet ass.”
“You can’t even see my ass.” You mock, referring to the fact that you were sitting down.
“I’d like to.”
That earned him a punch to the arm but he kept laughing and shook his head. “I’m teasing, I already have something lined up for me tonight.”
“Congratulations.” You roll your eyes again.
Before he could come up with another vulgar response the crowd erupted in cheers around you, even Areum was jumping up from her seat. You looked out toward the court and noticed the University’s team was jumping with joy, smacking each other around. You never did understand straight guys and their desire to practically beat the shit out of each other when excited.
“Yeah! That’s my boy! Yoongi!!” Hoseok cheers loudly, cupping his hands around his mouth to make it even louder. He was joined a few seconds later by three others, all holding onto each other and jerking around, shouting Yoongi at the top of their lungs. Whoever that was.
It didn’t take long for Areum to find your hand and pull you outside to wait for Hwan to meet the two of you outside. She was giddy with excitement, bouncing on her heels and looking in every direction so she wouldn’t miss him.
“So did they win?” You question, still confused by the excitement bubbling within the people around you. She nodded, big grin painted on her face.
One by one the team started to pour our, showered and changed into after game clothes. You waited outside the door with Areum, noticing Hoseok and his friends coming up laughing amongst eachother.
Areum squealed and left your side when Hwan finally made his appearance, the blond from earlier behind him in track pants and a black sweatshirt with his bag hung off his shoulder. He looked toward you probably trying to figure out where the excited squeal was coming from. A smile graced his lips and he sent a small wave, looking as if he was going to walk over until a hand on his shoulder pulled him back.
Hoseok.
“Dude you killed that!” He laughs while the others greeted him with similar praises and pats on the back. “I say we celebrate. Pia wanted me to come by tonight but I’m all for bailing on her.”
“You have got to stop messing with that poor girl.” The tallest of the group shakes his head in disapproval.
Hoseok rolled his eyes but turned back to the blonde. “Fine, I won’t bail. I’ll invite her out with us and go home with her after.”
He still didn’t look like he approved but he stayed quiet anyway, exchanging looks with the darker haired one beside him who looked like he felt the same way about their friends decisions.
“I don’t know, I’m pretty beat. I just wanna head back to my room and relax.” The blonde yawns, running his hand through the long wet locks hanging over his eyes.
“Pia has a friend not doing anything tonight, I can send her over to help with your relaxation.” He offers and now you audibly scoff. It caught Hoseoks attention too.
“Still mad at me?” He asks, now they were all looking at you, the cute blonde too.
“You’d like that, wouldn’t you?” You snark.
“I don’t even know your name and you already know me so well babe.” He winks playfully. It only annoyed you further. Deciding not to start any banter you turned to tell Areum by and to be safe but she already had her tongue down Hwans throat.
“Okay, by Areum see you back home.” You waved even though she didn’t hear you, turning on your heel to make your way to where she parked her car.
Halfway there you heard someone quickly approaching you. You expected it to be Hoseok, here for another round of sexual innuendos.
“You’re fast. You ever think about joining the team?” An unfamiliar voice asks, finally catching up and panting behind you. Definitely not Hoseok.
You stopped to turn around and noticed the blonde had caught up to you and was giving you a tired smile. He was cute, there no doubt. But so was Hoseoks his friend and he was...a dick to say the least. Don’t socks flock together or something like that?
“I’ve never even though about understanding the game.” You respond honestly, crossing your arms over your chest and raising your brow at him.
“I wanted to apologize for Hobi. He can come off a little strong.” He says, playing with the silver hoop dangling from his earlobe, something that wasn’t there during the game...you would have noticed.
“You shouldn’t have to apologize for him.” You remind him.
“And you shouldn’t compare me to him.”
“I wasn’t—“ You begin but cut yourself off because that’s exactly what you were doing. “I’m sorry. I’ve met too many guys whose friends are just different versions of the same asshole.”
“Well then let me prove to you that I’m not another version of Jung Hoseok.” He offers, confidence suddenly blooming as he stuffed his hands in the pockets of his track pants.
“I’m not sleeping with you.” You blurt out quickly.
He laughed and shook his head. “I wasn’t talking about that. I’m starving and I’ve never been a fan of eating in my car so would you be interested in coming to eat with me somewhere?”
You thought it over for a moment. What’s the worse that could happen? He ends up being worse than his friend and you pour your drink on him? Not such a bad way to end your night.
“I’ll even pay and you can drive yourself there if you want to. But the offer to pay, drive you and bring you back here is on the table.”
Yoy squinted questionably at him for moment. “No Hoseok?”
“No Hoseok.” He confirms with amusement. “Just me and you.”
“Fine. But I’m driving myself.” You point out and he nods.
“Fine by me, as long as I get to pay.”
“No arguments there.” You assure him.
“Good. I’m going to go and get my car and I’ll come back and lead the way.” He explains, fishing his keys from his bag. “Oh, what’s your name by the way?”
“Y/N.” You answer, giving him a soft smile. The least you could do was be nice and give him a chance. He seemed to be genuine and have a good head on his shoulders.
“I’m Yoongi. Nice to meet you Y/N.”
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Might write a short part two where they go out to eat. I don’t know though.
Confronting your fears for a final grade sounds unappealing but, with Yoongi as your partner, things might not be so bad.
Summary: You’re in your final semester at University when your Abnormal Psychology professor assigns you a partnered project surrounding your greatest fears. Lucky for you, your partner just so happens to be a cute boy named Min Yoongi.
A/N: please scream along with me as I drown in a pile of emotion. I’m sorry the last three chapters have been so emotional, yoongi is a complicated boi and, needs roughly 25k to get out all of his feelings. ALSO, the next chapter will finally feature Jimin’s showcase, please send him love and good luck. Not like he needs it lmao
I LOVE YOU
Warnings for this Chapter: moderate angst, SMUT (oh my god its alot), mentions of anxiety and hardship, language, too many feelings.
Warnings for the Fic: mentions characters confronting their fears, characters in uncomfortable situations, emotional moments between characters, mentions of bad parenting, explicit language throughout the fic, moderate angst, and very explicit smut later in the story.
Chapter 14: Angels and Angels
“Jimin, if you move again, I’m going to shove this needle into your perfectly sculpted butt cheek…” You mutter, pinching Jimin’s ass, the sweat on your brow growing significantly.
This causes a giggle to erupt from your best friend, who is currently contorting his body so that he can stare at himself in the mirror.
“Yah! Do you miss your little boyfriend that much that you have to take your sexual frustration out on me?” Jimin wiggles his ass in your face and, you admonish him with a smack to his hip as you try your best to finish sewing his costume.
Jimin called you that morning in a panic after he had ripped his showcase outfit during rehearsal so, you had quickly rushed over after your morning classes to resolve his crisis.
“He’s not my boyfriend…” You counter, a smile threatening your mouth, “I do miss him though…”
Jimin stalls his movements, allowing you to finish up, “You really like him don’t you?”
The smile comes in full force but, thankfully Jimin is facing away from you when it does.
“Maybe…”
He rolls his eyes but, allows your vague response, turning slightly to examine your handy work, “You should invite him tomorrow, I still haven’t met him…”
There is a flutter in your stomach at Jimin’s suggestion. You know that Jimin gets extra credit for the number of people that attend and, having Yoongi there would fill an extra seat.
All the more reason to invite him…
“I mean, it’s a big night for you Minnie, if you’re ok with him being there then, I’ll see if he’s free.” You attempt to keep your tone casual but, you’re slightly nervous at the thought of Yoongi being there as your date.
Professor James cancelled Tuesday’s lecture due to illness and, Yoongi texted you Thursday morning that he wouldn’t be in class that day. Not seeing him for an entire week didn’t exactly sit well with you but, you were determined to not read too much into his absence.
Jimin smirks, smoothing his hands over his hips, head tilting side to side in the mirror, “It’s my fourth showcase Y/N, it’s not that big of a deal…”
A scoff leaves your lips, “Um??? It’s your senior showcase, you’re the reigning champion and, you’re about to make history as the only collegiate dancer to win the showcase four years in a row; of course it’s a big deal!”
He giggles as you shove him playfully, a bit of nervousness creeping into his gaze, “You really think I’m going to win again?”
“Jimin,” You turn him towards you, holding each of his wrists in your hands, “I know you’re going to win again.”
His beautiful smile graces his lips as he thrusts himself in your arms, the white sequins scratching against your skin. You hold him anyway though, you know he needs it.
“Thank you…” He mumbles into your hair, “I don’t know what I’d do without you…”
You smile into his neck, the warmth of Jimin’s words filling your heart, “Oh Jimin….I don’t know what you’d do either…”
He pinches your side, “YAH! Don’t be mean! I would survive…maybe…”
Squirming out of his hold, you giggle, patting his hip gently, “I don’t know what I’d do without you either Park Fairy. I’d probably die…”
He points at you,” Exactly, don’t be a brat…” His tone his firm but, the smile on his lips is hard to miss. Jimin turns his attention back towards his full length mirror again to examine his costume.
It’s a beautiful piece, skintight, covered in white sequins and, thin pearlescent lycra that hug Jimin’s body perfectly. You wondered if this was his entire costume as Jimin was known for quite an elaborate set up.
“I love this costume by the way, it’s beautiful,” You marvel, putting all of your sewing tools back in their box, “Is the theme still a surprise or can you end my suffering and tell me?”
Jimin smirks, eyes carefully scanning over his backside,” It’s still a surprise, my leotard is only the base piece, I have a lot more in store…”
“RIP my mascara…” You lament, snapping your sewing kit shut before grabbing your phone off of the coffee table, “Should I text him now?”
He giggles, amusement coloring his face as he turns to you, “Why do you look so nervous?”
“I’m not nervous.” You grumble, thumbs tapping away at your screen to get to your message thread with the dreamiest rapper on Earth aka Min Yoongi.
The last message that you sent him was wishing him luck on the rest of his composition, which he has been working tirelessly at for the last half of the semester. He only responded with a thumbs up emoji and, that was yesterday at 7:49pm.
Suddenly, as your fingers hover over the keys, you feel slightly insecure at the lack of communication between the two of you. Last weekend had been amazing and, Yoongi made sure that you arrived back at your apartment safely and during the week he had said something to the effect of ‘I miss you’ without actually saying it.
Jimin notices your hesitation, “What’s wrong?”
Your teeth find purchase on your lip but, you avoid his gaze and focus in on your phone.
“Nothing…I just_” A sigh leaves your lips as you tap the screen to keep it from going black, “ I don’t know… Yoongi and I had a really good time last weekend and, I’m used to not really hearing from him but, I kind of thought after everything that happened between us, there would be a little more communication. I don’t expect him to text me all day or anything but, we both agreed that we liked each other….a lot so, I thought he’d…”
“Act like a boyfriend?” Jimin offers, a bit of his playfulness diminishing, focusing in on your emotions.
The word sends butterflies through your stomach but, you shove them out, trying not to drown in your emotions.
“No…I mean yeah but, like we aren’t together yet so, I can’t expect him to…I don’t know…” Articulating your emotions is not always your strong suit and, for whatever reason, you seem to become especially impaired when Yoongi is involved.
“Jagi…” Jimin begins, sitting beside you, the sequins scratching your skin as he wraps an arm around your shoulders. “…you’re allowed to want his attention regardless of whether or not you both have a title. Titles are nice but, the feelings are much more important…”
You deflate a little bit, leaning into Jimin, your teeth still working against your lip, “I really like him…like I want to wake up next to him and, make him breakfast and do cute shit with him and, I’m not used to feeling like this and, I want to crawl into a hole and, never come out…”
Your pink fairy giggles, pressing a kiss to your head “Yah, you’re not allowed to crawl into a hole, my showcase is tomorrow…”
“Can I do it after your showcase?” You mutter against his leotard, your thumb tapping your screen again to ensure that it doesn’t go black.
Jimin scoffs, “I literally just told you that I can’t live without you, do you want me to die?”
His brows are raised in playful accusation and, you try your best not to get to distracted by how adorable he is.
“No...” You grumble, lips fixed in a firm pout
He chuckles now, nudging your hand towards your phone, “Okay then, text him.”
With a roll of your eyes, you unlock your phone for the third time and, begin typing your message.
You: Hey, I’m not sure what you’re up to tomorrow, I know you’ve been working on your composition but, my best friend is performing in a dance showcase in the main theater. Do you want to come? I figured we could carpool and, maybe get dinner afterwards or something? Let me know when you get a chance!
By the end of your message, you feel your heart doing somersaults beneath your sternum. Why the hell were you so nervous? Shouldn’t you be passed this by now?
“See? I knew you could do it...” Jimin cheers, kissing your head once more before moving to carefully take off his costume.
“Yes, now I just have to endure a slow painful death while waiting for him to respond...” A sickly sweet smile is on your mouth which causes Jimin to throw his head back in laughter.
“Aren’t I supposed to be the dramatic one in this friendship?”
“No Jimin, you’re the beautiful and talented main character and, I...”You gesture to your chest, “...am your socially inept, quirky side kick...”
This earns another boisterous round of laughter from your best friend who is currently checking out his nearly naked body in the mirror.
“Okay, first of all, thank you for calling me beautiful. Second of all, you’re can’t possibly be the sidekick...”
Your eyes narrow, “Why not?”
Jimin whips around in your direction, bubblegum hair a disheveled mess ontop of his head, a brilliant smile on his pretty lips,
“Because you’re my hero...”
With a mouth parted in shock, you process just how ridiculous your best friend is. At your expression,
Jimin rushed into another fit of laughter as you respond.
“Alexa, play Hate That I Love You by Rihanna...”
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After Jimin leaves, you wait approximately 5 hours before getting a response from Yoongi. The response does nothing to aid in soothing your nerves:
Yoongi: Hey sorry it took me so long to respond. I’ve been working, I think I may be able to go but, I was wondering what you were doing right now. I’m having some trouble sorting through something, I know it’s late though, so I understand if you’re sleeping.
Your brow furrows. His message seems odd but, you don’t want to pass up an opportunity to see him. Plus, you definitely wouldn’t be able to sleep knowing that he’s having an issue.
You: I can come by, what’s the address? Are you ok?
5 more minutes pass before another message comes in,
Yoongi: I just want to hang out, this week has been kind of rough.
Yoongi: 8294 Han Road. I’m in the 4th studio space. Just ring the front and, tell them you’re here for me, they should let you through. Sorry it’s so late.
You frown at his admission, wanting nothing more than to be with him now that you know your suspicion is correct.
You: Don’t be sorry, I’ll be there as soon as I can.
His message comes through within seconds and, you can’t help but feel a little nervous at seeing him in his studio. There’s also this feeling; a feeling that indicates that something is wrong. Yoongi has never asked you to come see him and, that paired with his odd behavior this past week has your stomach in knots.
What if he didn’t want to see you anymore?
You both agreed that you liked eachother but, life was busy for the both of you. The conversation on the Ferris wheel inches its way back to the forefront of your mind. Yoongi said that you two getting together would be a bad idea, was he returning to that conclusion?
He never explained why he felt that way in the first place.
The Uber ride to Yoongi’s studio costs you $9.78. You didn’t realize how close he was to your apartment and, as the car pulls up to the faded brick building, you feel your heartbeat grow to an alarming level.
“Thank you, have a good night…”
“No problem, have a good one.”
The exchange with the driver is short and, given that he didn’t talk to you the entire car ride, you decide to rate him 5 stars.
As you approach the front entrance, you notice the soft blue neon sign hanging off of the door that reads: SoundCrowd.
Clever.
You’re definitely in the right place.
The door swings open effortlessly and, you’re met with an empty lobby. Tables, chairs and, various flyers containing the studios information are the only things that greet you when you walk in. The clear glass that separates the lobby from the reception desk make the whole place feel like some sort of medical clinic; it’s not exactly a beacon of creative energy. You hope Yoongi’s studio space was less clinical.
“Can I help you?” A deep but, friendly voice calls from behind the glass.
The receptionist is an older guy, maybe in his mid-30s, wearing what looks to be a ghost busters pajama set.
“Yeah, I was looking for Yoongi? He said he was in the 4th studio space…”
The man smirks knowingly, “You’re here for Min huh? Tell you what, I’ll let you through but, you have to promise me you’ll try to get him to go home. The dude’s been here for like four days straight…”
Your brow furrows, “Four days? Are you serious, he hasn’t gone home or anything?”
The man clicks his tongue, “I live upstairs, and his car’s been here since Monday. He used my shower about an hour ago but, other than that, I don’t even think he’s left the room…”
A sigh leaves your lips at the information, “Jesus.”
“Are you his girlfriend?”
The word makes your heart go fuzzy and, your first instinct is to say yes but, the last thing you need is for Yoongi to find out that you made your relationship official without him.
“Uh no, we’re just_” You trail off, searching for the right word, “we’re dating but, he’s been a friend of mine for quite a while…”
He smirks, waving you over to him, “No need to explain, I’m just happy Min is getting some sort of human interaction. He’s been a god tier introvert ever since I’ve known him. I’m Sejin by the way…”
A hand is extended through the opening in the glass and, you accept it graciously, bowing your head.
“Y/N,” You smile, “it’s really good to meet you. How long have you guys known each other?”
Sejin squints his eyes for a moment, tilting his head in thought, “Oh geez uh, let’s see, Yoongi’s 25 this year…uh…ten years maybe?”
Your brows go up, “Oh wow, are you from Daegu too?”
At your seemingly normal question, Sejin grows visibly uncomfortable, as if a realization just crossed his brain. You fear you may be asking too many questions but before you can amend, Sejin speaks up again.
“Uh, Yoongi’s never mentioned me has he?”
“No, he hasn’t, I’m sorry…” You smile looking towards the buzzer near Seijin’s hand, wishing you would have just asked him to buzz you in.
“Oh don’t be sorry at all,” A soft smile is sent your way as he sees that you may have gotten the wrong impression. Sejin nods toward the door, “Yoongi lived with me for a while when he first came to the city, I’m a friend of his older brother. I’m sure he’ll tell you more about it if you ask; Here let me buzz you in, he’ll be straight down the hall to your right.”
Confusion swirls in the forefront of your mind but, you smile nonetheless, turning towards the door, “Thank you so much, it was nice meeting you.”
He bows his head, offering a small smile, “Nice meeting you too.”
There are rooms lining either side of the long hallway, some of which emit a low hum of music through their barriers. Yoongi certainly isn’t the only night owl plugging away in the building.
Turning right at the end of the hall, you’re met with a black door boasting a sign that read “#4.” The irregular heartbeat is back as you raise your hand to knock at the door but, your desire to finally see Yoongi after nearly a week overruns the nervousness that you feel.
“Come in.” You hear his voice through the door and, quickly, you turn the knob and, let yourself in.
You’re met with a confusing sight.
The studio space was dimly lit with a low hanging turquoise fixture that sends a calming wave of light throughout the small room. The walls contain various speakers and, electrical equipment and, along with a work desk, you notice a giant monitor, nearly the size of a flat screen and, every production tool that any musician could ever dream of. However, there was also several indicators that Sejin was right about Yoongi never leaving this room. There’s a black pull out couch on the right side of the room that looks like he hasn’t been slept in, a few pieces of Yoongi’s clothes scattered on the floor and, perhaps the most disturbing thing is the overflowing trashcan in the far corner of the room containing nothing but empty coffee cups. From what you can tell, there isn't a single take out box so, that either means that Yoongi has been taking his food trash out or, that he hasn’t been eating at all.
And then there’s Yoongi, who’s just turned to look at whoever just came through his door. He’s sitting in the black desk chair, dressed in a pair of torn up black jeans and a grey hoodie, his formerly platinum hair is a faded brown now and damp from his shower. He musters a small smile for you, his normally cat like eyes are sunken in, clearly from a lack of sleep and, his lips are chapped, another indicator that he hasn’t been taking care of himself.
“Hey you…” You smile, setting your purse down by the door, trying to gauge what’s going through his mind.
“Hi…um thank you for coming…” He rasps, his eyes shifting nervously over you, fingers itching to reach out for you.
You shake your head, “Of course, is everything ok?”
Yoongi opens his mouth immediately as if he’s already has an answer prepared but, he deflates soon after, looking at you helplessly, “No, not really I-“
He takes a deep breath, looking away from you, trying to keep it together. You don’t say a word as you close the space between you, moving to stand in front of his seated figure. Instantly, you pull him into a warm hug, holding him tightly, not needing him to explain just yet.
Yoongi feels so much of the tension melt away from his body as he feels your embrace, his arms coming up to reciprocate, burying his face into your hip.
The two of you don’t speak for a few seconds but, you feel Yoongi shake silently, not daring to untuck his face from you as he lets the tears spill over his eyes.
This causes your heart to shatter but, you don’t break the silence yet, allowing him to process his pain how he needs to. You keep him close though and, rub his back soothingly as he collects himself.
“I’m sorry…” He mumbles into your yellow sweatshirt, regretting that he’s staining the material with tears, “I should have texted you more, I just…this week’s been really hard.”
You shake your head, holding him tighter, “Don’t be sorry, I knew you were working on your project this week, it’s completely ok…”
This is said for his benefit of course, you didn’t want him to worry about your fear that he had lost interest when he clearly had something much more pressing going on.
“I wanted to text you…the first night I got like this but-“ He cuts himself off to sniffle, still not releasing you from his grip. “I didn’t want to bother you, or freak you out or anything…”
“Hey-“ You tilt his face towards yours, thumbing away one of the tears that is attempting to roll down his face, “-you’re never a bother to me, especially if something is wrong…”
He turns his face to place a gentle kiss against your thumb before sighing out shakily against your skin, “I can’t get this fucking song right Y/N. I’ve been at this for 5 months now and, it always comes out wrong, I’ve rewritten it like 10 different times and, I can’t do it. It’s shitty. I’m not cut out for this, I’m not good enough to go pro, I should’ve_”
He trails off, his eyes reddening as the tears collect once more at the corners of his eyes, “ I should’ve listened to my father, he told me to major in business, he said this would happen and, he was fucking right.”
His words create a deep ache within your heart.
How could someone so talented, doubt their abilities so much?
It’s not the first time you’ve seen it but, you’ve yet to understand it.
“I know you’re upset, I know that this seems impossible right now and, you’re unbelievably frustrated but, Yoongi…” You tilt his head back towards yours, your gaze growing firmer, “You were born to do this. You are the most talented musician I’ve ever known and, the quality of your stuff? The way you write, the way you think, it’s a sign. It’s a sign that this is what you’re meant to do. You’re not meant to be in a suit, slaving away at a corporate job you don’t even like, that’s what everyone else is doing. Yes, it may be more stable, it may provide a steady income and, give your parents something to brag about but, it isn’t you. Your happiness is in music, I can see that. You light up when you talk about it, you lit up on that fucking stage, and had half the city eating out of the palm of your hands. You are so incredible, you have no idea…”
Yoongi feels his heart swell in his chest, no one has ever spoken to him about his music like this, not with this much passion. But then again, Yoongi’s never known another person like you, he’s never known another that can make him feel so good.
“But jagi…the song…it’s not coming together, my professor is going to hate it…” He urges, anxiety still squirming around in his stomach. He wraps his arms around you tighter though, feeling a bit of comfort at your words.
“Did you think the crowd at Glacier was going to hate your song too?” You point out and, as you do, he bites his lip, sniffling again.
“Yeah…I did…”
A hand is carded gently through his damp hair as you smile down at him, “And look what happened Agust D, you became the city’s champion underground rapper. Did you lock yourself up in this studio and live off of Americanos for weeks on end then too?”
A smile threatens his lips, “You remembered my order…” he sighs, nodding reluctantly at your question, “I do this a lot…”
A breath is released through your nose as you smile gently at his observation but, the frown between your brows remains, “I don’t want to tell you how to live your life Yoongi but, you can’t do this to yourself. I know self-doubt can be borderline parasitic sometimes but, you have to try and cut yourself some slack. I know how hard anxiety can be, I know it can make you feel like the world is coming to an end but, please know that you are so much more capable than you realize. Sometimes it helps to step away from something and, revisit it when you’ve had time to clear your head. I have to do that with my proposals all the time…”
Yoongi moves back slightly to wipe a hand over his face, taking a deep breath as he nods in consideration of your words, “You’re right…I know you’re right. It’s just hard for me not to fall into this cycle sometimes. I got help when I started school, for my anxiety and, it helped but, old habits die hard you know? I just start overthinking everything…I can never get rid of that part.”
You lean down to press a kiss to his forehead before slowly helping him to his feet. “You might not ever get rid of that, you’re only human. Overthinking is my first reaction too but, over the years, I’ve slowly learned to not trust every crazy scenario my brain comes up with.”
He smiles and, this time you see it reach his eyes, the sight calms you significantly. “You’re…”
Yoongi shakes his head, “I knew you’d say the right thing, you always do…”
“Come here.” You smile, pulling him into a hug, tucking your face into his neck, “I’m sorry you’ve been going through this…try to reach out earlier next time ok? So this doesn’t go on so long, you know I’m here for you.”
He nods sagely, rubbing his hands on your lower back, “ I will, I promise…”
Roughly an hour later, after you’ve gotten Yoongi to eat a good meal, the two of you start indulging in one another, the lack of contact starting to get to both of you.
Your lips peck against Yoongi’s gently, just as a means to soothe him, your hands placed firmly on his shoulders.
“I just...” He whispers against your mouth, attempting to melt away against your touch.
He needs it, now more than ever.
“Hm?” You hum gently, combing your fingers through his hair, nails scratching tenderly at his scalp.
“I just don’t want to think anymore.” He breathes, responding more and more to the kisses placed against his lips.
The column of his throat is eagerly arching towards your lips in a silent invitation. At the sight of his swallow, tender flesh, you frown at the lack of color there.
“Your marks are gone.” You murmur, kissing the corner of his mouth
Yoongi swears he wants to cry. He's kept his distance all week, trying to make sense of his emotions, trying to perfect his composition. But now, with you here, touching him, loving on him, he realizes how desperate he is for you; for relief.
“Make new ones please...I just want to stop thinking...help me.” He practically keens his response but, he keeps it in check for the most part, not wanting you to consent for the wrong reasons.
You bring your eyes to his, holding his desperate gaze, a smirk beginning to play on your lips.
“How do you want me to help you?” You tease, encouraging him to articulate his desires.
His cheeks flush even more, his Adams apple bobbing as he attempts to swallow back his nerves.
He doesn’t know what’s come over him but, your tone compels him to his knees and, as his jean clad limbs touch the tile, he speaks, “You know...you know me, you know how to take care of me...”
The response goes straight between your thighs; his small voice, his display of respect, you can tell this is something he’s had on his mind or awhile and, after the week he’s endured, you conclude that he needs to let loose.
A finger is curled under his chin, directing his cat-like eyes up towards your own. You can tell he’s nervous but, the way he shifts eagerly on the floor tells you he’s more than ready for you.
“You think so?” You coo, thumbing over his chin, smirking down at him
He nods eagerly at the conclusion of your first sentence but, continues to nod throughout your teasing.
“Use your words...” You urge, tightening your grip on his chin, admiring how beautiful he is on his knees.
“Ye--...” His voice is already shot so, he clears his throat attempting to speak clearer, “Yes...”
Your teeth press into your bottom lip, as your hand moves from his chin to push his faded brown hair away from his forehead.
“You want me to call the shots so you don’t have to?” You’re taking your time to rile him up, knowing it will pay off for him in the end.
Another eager nod comes from Yoongi as he pushes against your hand, his doll-like lips going dry from his heavy breathing.
“Yeah...I trust you; I’ll be so good for you, I promise.” He vows, lips brushing against your wrist, his dark eyes never once leaving yours. “Please…”
You tug on his hair then, drawing a whimper deep from within his chest. Yoongi feels his nipples harden as the pain pricks deliciously against his scalp.
“You like this right? When I pull on it?”
“Yes.” He breathes, shivering as your fingers brush across his lips and, down over his neck.
“And...” You whisper, keeping your tone gentle as your hand wraps around Yoongi’s throat.
This causes him to exhale shakily, his cautious eyes widening like saucers as he stares up at you.
“Wh-…"
You attempt to finish your sentence but, Yoongi’s shaky voice beats you to it, his request tumbling clumsily past his lips.
“Fuck...please choke me...”
He sounds so weak and, yet so sure of himself at the same time. You two had just begun breaching your sexual interests but, stepping into true dominant/submissive roles is something you’ve yet to do.
Whatever is about to happen, is going to be completely new territory for the both of you.
The tightening around Yoongi’s throat makes him see stars; he feels like one of those cartoon characters that’s just been hit with a ton of bricks. Its intoxicating.
“Oh-” Yoongi’s voice is raspier underneath your grip, his dick plumping up painfully against the zipper of his jeans.
“You like when I choke you?” You coo, still holding his throat but, decreasing the pressure slightly.
He nods, gasping as you tighten your grip again, testing the waters. Yoongi can already feel the dampness in his jeans but, he doesn’t care, he wants so much more tonight; he wants you to ruin him.
“Use your words...” You remind him gently, urging him to open up as your free hand combs back through his hair.
He exhales shakily once again, “Yes...”
A fond smile is on your face then as you take a moment to run your fingers through his chestnut locks. You slowly urge him towards you so that he’s close enough to rest his chin against the center of your stomach. Yoongi stares up eagerly, awaiting instructions, his breathing uneven and, you take the small moment of silence to tug on his hair again. This causes his hands to come up and grip your outer thighs in desperation and, if he wasn’t already suffering in his jeans before, he definitely is now.
With a salacious smirk you slowly bend at the waist so you can brush your lips against Yoongi’s, holding his gaze all the while, “I need a safe word from you...can you think of one for me?”
Yoongi can’t think of anything aside from you at the moment along with his painfully hard dick threatening to bust out of his jeans but, he tries his best to wrack his brain for a suitable answer.
“Dragon.”
He scans your face for approval, hoping his choice was sufficient and, if you weren’t fulfilling the role of caretaker, you would be melting onto the floor right now.
“Dragon it is...” You smile, combing a hand through his hair again, resisting the urge to tug on it, “You use that word anytime you need to ok? And we’ll stop...”
Yoongi returns your smile, exhaling at the touch of your fingers, “Ok...”
“Good boy.” The words are spoken into his hair when you lean over to kiss the top of his head. His hands haven’t moved from the outside of your thighs and, at the touch of your lips, he squeezes them again, “Stand up for me.”
At your request, you move away from him, offering your hands as support. Yoongi looks at them tentatively before interlocking his fingers with yours and, slowly moving to his feet. Through the holes in his jeans, you can see how red his knees got from kneeling on the floor.
You want the rest of him to match...
“Come here...” You practically coo at him, curling a finger in your direction, beckoning him towards you. Yoongi never takes his eyes off of you as he takes the three steps necessary to reach you. As he stands before you, you keep his eye contact and, curl your fingers underneath the hem of his grey hoodie.
“Arms up.”
He obliges immediately, raising them high above his head, allowing you to slowly pull the material off of his body. Yoongi feels the hairs on his arms stand at attention as the cooler air of the studio hits his exposed skin. Without instruction you hook a finger underneath his chin and, silently bring his lips to yours. The two of you kiss, slow and sweet, taking time to lull deeper into one another. Your tongue slips in first, laving against Yoongi’s timid but eager mouth, as your hands begin slowly moving up the sides of his torso. A smirk is pushed into the kiss when Yoongi shivers at your touch, his whole body on fire for you.
“You trust me to take care of you right?” You murmur into his mouth and, not two seconds go by before he’s nodding. “You’re gonna be good for me?”
A half of a whimper slips out of Yoongi’s swollen lips, his hands come out to touch your waist as he nods again.
“Yes, I’ll be good...”
You smirk again, deciding that one of your goals tonight is to get Yoongi to feel more comfortable talking dirty to you. It’s a quality he possesses and, you can tell it’s something he’s into but, it takes a certain level of lust to send him there.
“Why are you gonna be good for me?” The question is spoken between a few kisses and, you can’t express the delight you feel when he’s cheeks go red again.
“Because-” His words are cut off as you slowly start to tickle your fingers over his ribs, the pads of your thumbs inching toward his erect nipples. “…. you deserve my respect. You deserve my obedience...”
Good answer.
“What makes me so deserving hm?” You coo against his neck, sucking gently against the sweet spot at the juncture of his collar bone. Before he can answer, you swipe your thumbs over his nipples. Yoongi swears he already feels like he’s going to pass out but, he does his best to answer coherently.
“All women deserve my respect but, you...” He breathes, his head falling back on his shoulders, exposing his skin to you,, his hips rutting forward as you continue brushing your thumbs over his nipples, “you’re the best woman I know...you always take care of me, you’re always so nice to me. I wanna give you everything I can, so I’m worthy for you.”
Yoongi is more than worthy enough for you but, given his history with insecurity, you can’t say his answer surprises you. However, if you weren’t melting into the floor before, you certainly are now.
“You are worthy angel, come here...” The whispered command brings Yoongi’s mouth back onto yours as he swears he could cry at the particular pet name you just chose.
Do you really think he’s an angel?
He can’t imagine why...
With your bodies pressed together and, your lips delicately tending to his, you speak again, initiating the rest of your plan, “Are you ready to play Yoongi?”
Another nod comes from the angel in question, his nose nudging against yours as he does,
“Mhm...”
God, you didn’t know you’d be this into his submission but, here you are, completely drenched and he hasn’t even touched you yet.
“Sit down on the chair for me, hands on the arm rests.”
He follows orders, sitting down on his desk chair, spreading his legs to accommodate the throbbing erection pushing against his zipper. His long fingers curl over the edges of the arm rests as his chest rises and falls with his increasing heartrate.
You watch him carefully, mulling over multiple options that will hopefully make him cum so hard he can’t think straight. The first move you make is removing your hoodie, baring your black lacy bra to him: an article of clothing you chose specifically because you knew he liked it.
The thing is though, Yoongi is no ordinary man. When he’s truly submitting, he does nothing without permission, not even look at you. Even as you step in front of him, Yoongi’s eyes stay glued to the floor but, the ever increasing motion of his chest gives away his reaction.
“Didn’t you miss me Yoongi? Why aren’t you looking at me?” You grin, knowing the answer already
He shakes his head, not wanting you to misunderstand him, “I missed you, so much, I just hadn’t asked permission to look at you yet. May I look at you?”
“You may.”
He doesn’t need further coaxing. He immediately brings his eyes up to your body, scanning over you eagerly, wincing as he feels his dick twitch in his jeans.
“So pretty...” He murmurs, eyes full of adoration, “thank you for letting me see you...”
“Don’t look away.” You demand softly, smirking in his direction as you slowly unclip your bra, revealing your breasts to him. As the cool air of the studio hits your sensitive chest, your nipples harden causing Yoongi to finally lick his lips.
He wants them in his mouth so badly but, he wouldn’t dare question your plan. He knows you’re going to do right by him.
“Jagi...” Yoongi pulls in another deep breath to calm himself, resisting the urge to gawk at you, “you’re so beautiful...”
You’ve moved in closer to him, standing between his thighs in just your leggings before dipping down to kneel on the floor.
As your nails slowly slide up his legs, you respond, “I wish you knew how beautiful I think you are...maybe then you’d be able to see what I see.”
Yoongi’s lips part in awe of what you just said, feeling very overwhelmed before the two of you have even started.
“You think_” He exhales, eyes fluttering with the sensation of your fingers inching closer to the inseam of his jeans, “…you think I’m beautiful?”
Your fingers tickle over his inner thighs before crawling over his unstable hips and towards his zipper. As you reach his erection, your eyes travel to his, catching a glimpse of his fucked out expression. His pupils are dilated, his lips are swollen, cheeks pink and puffy like fresh cherry blossoms, his fingers twitch on the arm rests; he’s growing desperate with anticipation.
“You are the most beautiful man I’ve ever seen Min Yoongi. I wouldn’t be caught dead on my knees for any other man…” You whisper, holding his gaze as you yank down his zipper, the motion causing a gasp to leave his lips. The relief is minimal but, Yoongi is grateful that his swollen dick finally has the room fully stand at attention.
You deserve his full attention.
“You’re beautiful…” Is all he manages, his ability to form coherent sentences slowly slipping away.
His hips are lifted at your instructions as you pull his jeans and boxers from his hips, leaving him completely exposed to you. Yoongi feels a little insecure, his got a bit of a tummy on him as he’s been skipping the gym and, eating nothing but takeout the past few months. He didn’t shave either and, he’s waiting for some sort of negative reaction from you but, instead he feels the sharp pull of arousal in his stomach as you start kissing up his thighs.
“I should punish you for the way you’ve treated yourself this past week…” You admonish before taking the tender flesh of his inner thigh between your teeth, sucking hard enough to make him squirm.
Yoongi’s breath catches as he winces from the pain, his thigh jumping away from the sensation, “I’m sorry…I’m really sorry.”
Your tongue laves over the battered flesh before you make your way to the other thigh, taking time to blow cool air over his engorged dick. He shivers whilst thinking of what he would give to be in your mouth right now but, he won’t beg. He won’t try and sway you in any direction; he wants your full control.
“I told you last weekend not to talk shit to yourself didn’t I? So you can imagine my surprise when I come in here tonight and, you’re doing just that…you don’t want to disobey me do you?” You coo, pouting your lips before sucking his skin back between your teeth, creating an identical mark on his right thigh.
“Ah-“ He whimpers, squeezing his eyes shut, feeling rather tipsy at the sensation of pain, “No…of course not. I want to listen…”
A dark chuckle leaves your lips as you start placing kisses up his thigh, a wicked sense of delight coursing when his dick twitches towards your mouth, “Oh he wants to listen now does he? Is it because my lips are so close to your dick?”
Yoongi grips the arm rests, his fingers slipping off due to the sweat created by his palms. Despite the cool temperature of the room, he feels like he’s on fire, he doesn’t think his ever been this turned on in his life.
“No, that’s not the only reason…” His hips jerk along with his stomach trembling when he feels your nails tickle their way over his hips, “I want to be good for you.”
As your nails conclude their teasing over his lower stomach, you let them rest against his hip bones as you ask your next question, “Mm, then you’ll sit there like a good boy while I have my way with you then won’t you?”
Before he can answer your question, a ragged whimper leaves his throat when you scratch your nails harshly across his soft pale skin, leaving aggravated lines of red as you do.
“Oh my fucking god…” He mumbles, eyes watering when his dick does the impossible and swells further, “I’d sit here like a good boy no matter what you wanted to do to me…”
He confesses, his faded chestnut hair sticking to his forehead, his eyes completely blown out with lust.
You prepare your nails to scratch him again and tickle them up the sides of his body, taking a moment to brush your fingertips over his pert nipples. Yoongi’s body is really sensitive but, his chest in particular always garnishes a special reaction from him. Your nails settle right where his heart is and, you can actually feel it pounding against his chest, “I want you to touch yourself for me…can you do that?”
Yoongi lets out a shaky breath and, once again you interrupt his answer by dragging your nails across his chest, digging in harder this time.
He actually feels his dick leaking at the sensation whilst his body arches off the desk chair, craving more of your touch.
“I have to go slow…I’m so hard right now, I don’t know how I’m gonna last….” He warns, his eyes shifting in uncertainty and, you take the time to admire how utterly innocent he looks.
Yoongi may be intimidating to those who don’t know him but, to you, with you, he is the softest man you’ve ever known.
But now isn’t the time for tenderness, you know what he needs.
He needs to be ruined.
So you’ll do just that…
Your hand comes out to wrap around his neck which elicits another gasp from his pink lips, his body going limp at your touch. You squeeze gently, just enough to slow the air circulation and lean in so your lips can brush against his.
“You’ll last because I tell you to last, because this dick belongs to me doesn’t it?”
Yoongi’s face is weak with pleasure as he nods eagerly, a small whimper leaving his lips, “Uh huh…”
A smirk forms on your lips as you squeeze his throat a little tighter, his dick jumping in response, “Say it…”
“My…my dick is yours jagi…” He gasps when you use your free hand to brush gently over his aching nipples, the sensation a huge contrast from what you’re doing to his throat.
“Your cum is mine…” You egg him on, dragging the pad of your thumb gently over either of his nipples.
“Ugh fuck…” He curses, his eyes locking onto yours and lull in and out of focus, “My cum is yours…everything is yours…”
Licking your lips, you loosen your grip slightly, giggling wickedly as he tries to reach for your lips, “You want me to hurt you while you jack off baby?”
Yoongi swears you must be sent from heaven, or maybe hell, either way, he’s dancing on the edges of euphoria at the moment. It’s like you know exactly what he’s thinking, he’s never known anyone who can anticipate his desires so well.
“Mhm…” He hums, the sound edging very close to a coo.
There is something that crosses your mind, something you hadn’t thought of before this began: was Yoongi capable of going into subspace? Because the glossy eyed expression, the yearning look, the pliant posture and slack jaw, everything about him looks like he’s heading in that direction.
“Yeah? You want me to hurt you really good?”
His mouth falls open as soon as you slide your cupped hand up his throat, your thumb brushing tenderly against his lips, “Yeah…please hurt me…”
Oh fuck, he’s right there…
“Suck…” You command gently, staring into his eyes, which have started to glaze over at your touch. He takes your thumb in his mouth, sucking eagerly, holding your eyes for approval, laving his tongue against the tip of it. “show me how you touch yourself baby…”
He nods, still sucking on your thumb before removing his sweaty hand down to his aching length. Yoongi’s eyes squeeze shut as he slowly curves a fist around himself, and, his leg twitches when he starts stroking his dick.
The relief is instant and, you feel the vibrations of his moans against your thumb. As he works himself up, you move away from him to kneel back between his knees.
His breathing is heavier, his toes are fidgeting against the floor but, his eyes refuse to leave yours, even as they threaten to close from pleasure.
You slowly tease your nails down his chest, over his ribs and hips, dangerously close to his dick, over his now bruised inner thighs and, all the way down to his ankles.
He brushes his thumb over his tip, a small whimper leaving his lips as his eyes squeeze close at the sensation. He’s already close, you’ve been winding him up for the past 45 minutes but, he holds on desperately, not wanting this to end.
“What do you think about when you touch yourself Yoongi?”
He takes another shaky breath and, does his best to swallow properly, despite his mouth being completely dry, “Lately, all I think about is you…I don’t even watch porn that often…”
Before you ask another question, you dig your nails into his calves and slowly begin dragging them up his legs. His whole body jerks in response, his hand faltering over his tip, he has to pull away for a moment, he almost came right there.
“ohmygod….” He keens, mostly to his self, his wide eyes looking away for a moment while he desperately tries to get a hold of himself.
“Oh but, you do watch porn? You’re cumming for other women then?” You tease and, Yoongi would panic that you’re actually upset but, the playful smirk on your face tells him that you’re just giving him a hard time.
“I don’t watch women…” He breathes, a ghost of smirk now playing on his own lips, “I watch men mostly, women in porn are annoying…they’re all annoying honestly…”
This makes you giggle but, you feel yourself growing wetter at the thought of Yoongi, getting off to men.
“So you think of me sometimes?” You’re still teasing him and, he knows you’re fishing but, he’s so into you he doesn’t care; he’d write a fucking thesis on you if he had the time.
He shakes his head, stifling a moan as you drag your nails over his hips when his hand reaches the tip of his dick; he really doesn’t know how he’s going to last.
“No…you don’t get it…” His breath is fucked and, his dick is so hard he wants to cry, it takes everything in him not to beg, “I think about you all the time…I’ve been thinking about you, ever since I came to your house that first time…”
Lust swirls deep in your panties; you don’t know how much longer you’re going to be able to do this either, his dick looks so good, hard, swollen and aching to be fucked. But you haven’t finished ruining him yet, you want him completely desperate before you give in.
“When I pulled your hair the first time?” You smirk, your hands travelling up his body once again as he nods, licking over his lips.
“Ye…yeah…that’s why I left so quickly, you made me hard…” He gasps again as your hand makes it back up to his neck, “…I…are you gonna choke me again?” His eyes look wary, almost frightened, the motions on his dick slowing again, “I don’t….jagi, I don’t know what to do…I don’t want to disappoint you but, if you…if you choke me again, I don’t…”
You smirk, tightening your hand around his neck before he can finish his sentence, “You’re gonna what baby?
“Oh fuck-“ He squeaks, his eyes starting to water when he squeezes over his tip, trying to halt his release, “Jagiya…I can’t…I can’t hold it, you have to stop…”
“Hold it, or I’ll tie you to this chair and leave you like this…” You hiss into his mouth, and his brow furrows in desperation but, his balls tighten further at your threat. The hand around his neck doesn’t cease its constriction and, his hand actually begins to move faster on his length.
His starting to learn…
“Good boy…don’t stop…” You kiss at his lips but, not long enough for him to respond to you, his whole body on fire and shivering at the same time.
Yoongi nods in determination, a shaky breath leaving his nose as he follows orders. He tenses however as you stand up, your left hand coming up to comb through his hair, which is matted against his forehead with sweat.
“Please…” He whimpers but, its not for permission to cum, you know exactly what it’s for.
Curling your fingers around the roots of his hair you tug hard enough to push his head back against the desk chair and, before he can even react, you use your other hand to tighten around his throat.
That’s it, that’s what breaks him.
Tears collect at the corner of his eyes as they widen like saucers, his mouth falling back open as he tries to cry out but, he’s too hoarse to do so.
“Y/N please…baby…baby please, pleasefuckme, pleasefuckme, I can’t…I need you...“ He’s completely lost it, he’s rambling, his eyes aren’t even in focus.
He isn’t even really looking at you but, you know you’ve got him, he’s made it there.
In less than ten seconds, he’s out of the desk chair and onto the pull out couch. He trembles beneath you; his hands reach up as if the lack of contact is painful.
Leaning down to him, you press a tender kiss to his lips to which he responds like a starving man.
“Please jagi…please I need you so bad, I’m sorry I need you, I need you…I really fucking need you…” He sounds like his about to cry and you nod, your tenderness returning just as quickly as it left, your panties pushed haphazardly off of your hips
“Hey…hey...I’m coming angel, I’m coming, just breath for me ok? I’m going to make it better…” You coo, pressing him gently into the squeaky mattress of the pull out couch, the cool sheets welcome against his hot skin.
He nods, not fully able to focus as he wraps his hands around your hips. You press another kiss to his lips before your final command is given, “As soon as I sink down onto you, I want you to cum ok? Can you do that for me?”
Yoongi’s bleary gaze finally locks onto your eyes, his body weakened with desire, “I’ll do anything for you…”
You can’t even recognize his voice, it’s so small, so weak and, so in…
You can’t say it.
Not yet.
But you can feel it, its bubbling right underneath the surface.
As soon as you sink down on him, you give him a few good strokes of your drenched heat before his whole body arches off the bed. Yoongi’s face is buried into your neck, his dull nails dig into your hips as he lets out a cry that shatters you.
You can feel how much he’s cumming as shot after shot of his release paints the inside of you. He’s cumming so hard that he starts crying, his silent whimpering enough to send you over the edge with him.
“don’t stop…don’t stop…” He cries into your neck, holding you so tight to him that it restricts your movements.
All you can do is nod as white hot pleasure takes over your senses, your orgasm just as intense given the events of the last hour.
Yoongi completely loses himself, he cums again, his hips glued to yours as he cries for you. Part of him would feel embarrassed but, he’s too fucked out to care. He’s too in…
Not yet.
He can’t say it, but it’s in his throat.
Its in his heart.
God, he’s never felt so good in his life, he never knew it could be this good.
“Y/N…” He croaks when your hips start settling down. His face doesn’t leave your neck but, he starts sucking gently on it, trying to ground himself.
He feels like he’s floating.
“Baby…” Yoongi practically coos, hands glued to your skin, still sniffling as his tears slowly come to a halt.
The smile that graces your face is brilliant and full of adoration. You slowly pull off of him, “I’m right here angel, I got you…”
You want to get him in a more comfortable position so you can hold him but when you try to pull away to do so, he panics, his glossy eyes widening in fear.
“No…no…” He tries to protest but, you kiss his forehead to reassure him
“Shh…I’m not going anywhere, I just want to hold you…come here for me…” You murmur, kissing his forehead again.
He’s suspicious, not thinking clearly but, he trusts you, not moving more than an inch away from your body as you shift the two of you to sit against the back of the couch. Yoongi scrambles to get closer to you, making himself smaller as he lays his upper half into your chest, tucking his face back into your neck.
“I got you baby boy, I got you…” You whisper, hoping the soft blue light in the studio will soothe him further along with gentle kisses pressed to his skin, “You did so good for me angel…”
Silent tears fall down his cheeks as he tucks further into you, “I did good?”
He checks again, feeling so vulnerable and, yet so safe at the same time.
You smile, pressing a kiss to his sweaty forehead, your nails gently combing his hair back, “You did amazing. You were so good for me.”
His small mouth curves in a dreamy smile, still trembling but, feeling slightly more grounded, “You keep calling me angel….you’re the angel…my angel.”
“You can’t steal my nickname…” You giggle, causing his small smile to turn into a gummier smile as he nuzzles your neck.
“So pretty…” Is all he can think of to say but, you know he’s talking about your laugh.
God, you feel like crying right now though, you could have never guessed that you could feel this strongly about another person.
When a comfortable silence falls over you, you take a moment to notice how banged up he really is. His body is decorated with pinks and purples, scratches, bites, a hicky or two; you really did a number on him and, you want to take care of his skin before it gets too uncomfortable.
“Yoongi? Baby, I need to put something on your scratches, I have cooling gel in my bag-“ You begin to say but, his eyes quickly widen again and, the same panicked look returns.
“Don’t…don’t go-“ He urges, holding you tighter.
You know it’s a symptom of him being in subspace, he doesn’t actually think your leaving but, a lack of contact with you makes him nervous.
“I’ll come right back, my bag is on the floor…” You assure him gently, pressing a kiss between his eyes.
His eyes flutter shut at your kiss and, his hands tighten on you one last time before, he kind of gets a grip on himself.
He knows he’s being a little unreasonable but, he’s never felt like this before, he feels intoxicated and so incredibly needy.
“Ok…” He reluctantly agrees
Another kiss is placed to his forehead before you move quickly to retrieve the gel from your purse. As soon as you sit back down with him, he immediately wraps himself around you, hiding away in your neck as you start to apply the gel to his skin. His breathing is beginning to even out as he melts into you, letting you take care of him.
Like you always do…
“How do you feel?” You whisper into his hair as you smooth the substance over his neck, which has reddened slightly.
“I feel high…” He muses, sounding a little bit more like himself.
His response causes you to giggle, “I’m that good huh?”
Yoongi smirks, kissing your neck slowly, “You invented sex…”
Another giggle bubbles over your lips, as you pull the sheet over Yoongi’s body, “Do you feel better then?”
“Mhm…” He hums into your neck, kissing up the length of it before finding your lips. A soft kiss is placed there before he speaks again, “I wish I could articulate better but, you fucked me stupid jagi…”
Smiling into the kiss, you comb a hand through his hair, scratching gently at the scalp, “Don’t worry about it, take your time, I’m right here if you need me…”
The two of you stay like this for quite some time, holding each other, as you slowly settle back down. Yoongi stays quiet for the most part, doing his best to center his thinking which proves to be quite easy as the only thing he can really think about is you.
A half an hour passes before he finally speaks up, feeling the need to explain something to you.
“I used to live here…” He murmurs, face still tucked into your chest
Your brow furrows at his statement, “Here? At the studio?”
He shakes his head, “It wasn’t always a studio, ten years ago it was a halfway house for troubled youth…”
The beating of your heart stalls but, as you open your mouth to respond, Yoongi continues, his voice stabilizing finally, “My parents are not supportive of what I do. When I was a teenager, we used to fight all the time about it. They tried to force me to stop but, I never listened. I snuck out to do music all the time and, started failing out of school. One night, my father came in and freaked out on me, he destroyed my lyric pages and, threw everything away. The next day, I came home from school and, they had kicked me out. My older brother tried to stop them but, they wouldn’t listen...”
Your chest feels tight as you try your hardest not to let your emotions overflow; you never knew how much Yoongi has endured.
“Sejin, the guy at the front desk, he’s a friend of my older brother,” He rasps, placing another kiss to your skin as a means to soothe himself, “he took me in with nothing but my old laptop and, the clothes on my back. My parents wouldn’t let me take anything. I finished school in the city and, ended up landing a scholarship at our university, that’s where I met Hobi and, reconnected with Namjoon. Once he found out what happened to me, he insisted I move in with him while I got my degree. The rest you already know…”
You hold him tighter, kissing his forehead for the 100th time, “I’m so sorry Yoongi, I didn’t know you went through all of that. You’re so strong for pushing towards your dreams despite everything being so hard for you…”
He smiles gently and the wise look has settled back into his eyes as he looks up at you, “You see why I get a little nervous sometimes now…I’m so worried that my parents are going to be right.”
Nodding, you thumb over his cheek, “I do but, please know that you’ve already proved your parents wrong. After everything you’ve endured, you still keep pushing and, as long as you keep dreaming, you’ll never fail…”
A sudden kiss is pressed to your lips then, which Yoongi turns slow and sweet.
Just like him…
“On my worst days, I tell myself that all of this will be worth it someday…” He whispers against your lips, continuing to kiss at them
“It will be, everything will pay off...”
“It’s already started to…ever since my classroom switched…” He smiles, brushing a piece of hair from your face.
Intense emotion blooms fully in your heart when he responds and, you have to shake your head to keep yourself from crying, “Does that mean you’ll be my date tomorrow then?”
He chuckles, his eyes brightening up significantly as he leans into your lips,
“Tomorrow and, any other time you’ll have me.”
if you let me, here’s what i’ll do: i’ll take care of you
yoongi really is thankful the cute girl in class woke him up that day, even if he won’t admit it
You had a chem lab together
It was 5 minutes before your lecture was supposed to begin, but he was the only one in the hall, sitting in the middle, off to the side
You’d never seen a blue head before, even though it was halfway through the semester, so you sat down a couple seats away from him in hopes of seeing his face
And he clearly didn’t want to be there, if his closed eyes said anything
Even when your professor started talking, you weren’t sure if he was awake or not
He hadn’t moved an inch since you sat down
The professor brought up the exam in a couple days, and you still couldn’t tell if he was sleeping
He really looked catatonic
So you reach over and poke him with your pencil, and the moment your eraser touches his arm, his eyes fly open
You pull your arm back because you didn’t expect him to respond that quickly
He’s cute
And he’s looking at you expectedly, so you close your mouth and murmur
“The professor’s talking about the exam, so I just wanted to see if you...wanted to hear...and I didn’t know if you were sleeping…”
You cut yourself off because you were starting to drag
He gave you a small smile though and nodded in acknowledgment
You didn’t look to your left for the rest of class because you didn’t want to make a fool of yourself again
But you saw the blue head moving around out of the corner of your eye, so he was awake now
You started sitting near each other every week
Sometimes he would be there first and other times he would come halfway through class
You didn’t talk too much, just gave each other little smiles
Both of you started to relax around each other
Slowly started sitting closer and closer
Until one day, BOOM
You were sitting next to each other
You started having drawing contests in the corner of your lab procedures
He always drew mustaches on everything
Even the zucchini he drew one time
And you began to notice little things about him
Like how he’s usually tapping along to something with his pen
Or how he always smells like laundry detergent and coffee
And that he likes his coffee black with one packet of sugar
And how attuned he is to how you’re feeling
You had had a rough week--four finals, one paper, one presentation
You ran out of toilet paper and your roommate refused to get more even though you were up to your eyeballs in work
Needless to say, you came into class pretty dead that day
You hadn’t told Yoongi how much work you had because you knew he was stressed too
But when you trudged into class, you saw your favorite drink and a banana nut muffin sitting at your seat
You almost cried when you saw it, which made him panic a bit
“Oh god, are you okay? I--here” shoving the muffin up to you because he knew food always made you feel better
You distracted yourself from crying by munching on the muffin
When he saw you with your hair all over the place, crumbs sticking to your lips, he swore he’d never seen anyone cuter
And has also never wanted to kiss someone more
“Yoongi, you really didn’t have to do this. This was so sweet”
“No, it wasn’t a big deal. I was getting one for myself anyway and there was this deal at the cafe--”
Going on study dates to pretty libraries, fighting to find a seat next to each other.
On discord listening to them go through a powerpoint the night before their big presentation.
The Arts/Humanities one proof-reading the STEM one's motivation letters/long emails.
Reading through interesting research in bed together, sharing the one phone screen.
Alternating between who is the one making tea for the study session. (Bonus: matching study mugs)
Study breaks include marveling over some super niche knowledge acquired during the study session.
Emailing an article as a pdf, and titling the email "I thought you'd find this interesting :-)"
Celebrating together when a big assignment gets done. Setting a timer for a cuddle break when the assignment work gets too overwhelming."
By @learnelle
Cee, this reminds me of uni yoongi and uni yn, i can imangine uni yoongi doing this to cheer yn up ^^
"'Emailing an article as a PDF-' [snorts] Hah! Please, you would never catch me looking up dorky ass articles because Y/N reads enough of them in her own time-"
"Okay, Mr. Tough Guy, lie to everyone as if you didn't send me the link to an article on love and dopamine-"
uni!yoongi's y/n i have no clue what career i want in life do you perhaps have any advice <///3 (also i miss them sobsobsobs how are they doing)
"Have you considered visiting the academic advisors in the office? They're very helpful, they even help clean up resumes and edit cover letters-"
"Have you considered not being a nerd-"
"And also just remember that you're in a completely normal part of the process, there was a time that I wasn't sure what I wanted to do-"
"I know what I'd like to do if she would stop yapping for a second-"
"But I would say that when applying for jobs to apply to as many as you can, even ones you think that you wouldn't necessarily pick first! It's good to have a range of options and then you can eventually whittle it down and- Yoongi, stop trying to distract me, I'm in the middle of answering someone's question-"
"Wha- we were literally in the middle of having sex when the question popped in- you have no shorts on-"
"-And hopefully you'll find something that you love to do!"
