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just failed two exams. now repeatedly flip flopping between these two:
i know i’m starting to recover a little from burning out because i’ve only taken one (1) nap today AND i’m able to look at max pictures and start stimming which are both very good signs 🙂↕️🙂↕️💗💗💗 it’s shaping up to be a maxtism summer as soon as i have handed in this paper~ 🥰☀️🌷🌈
Is it true the first year of college usually doesn’t matter? And that I won’t miss much if I magically shift to the course I actually want?
Because huhuhuuuu my mom, she wants me to experience the uni life even if it meant going to a course I FUCKING HATE, IT SOUNDS SO BORING like no offense, I know it’s probably hard to manage people BUT THAT’S EXACTLY THE REASON WHY I DON’T WANNA GO THERE eighhhhhuuhhhh
On the other hand though, I have another school I can go to where it actually gives me the course I want :D the downside though, it’s online classes only annddd :) that sounds so depressinggg . Can I even join clubs when I’m taking an online course
Eine tatsächliche slide in meiner online Vorlesung😭
handed in my assignment finally
one thing i found extremely weird this semester is how many people at uni seem to have no basic understanding of the things they want to study and refuse to question their opinions to learn. since september, i’ve heard my classmates (undergraduates in classics) say things like "myths are not true / are lies", "Zeus is so awful and there’s no reason for him to be the king", "i love reading modern romance retellings of Persephone and Hades and i don’t think they’re really historically inaccurate", "x god did this really bad thing in myth so they probably weren’t worshipped much because why would the Greeks honor them ?", "greek mythology is mythology because it’s false, modern religions don’t have myths", "but if they’re gods why can’t they have kids without having sex ?" (we had studied the beginning of the Theogony the day before and had talked about parthogenesis…), "Hera and Zeus hated each other", "greek gods weren’t really gods since they were constantly being tricked" and "Poseidon and Athena were ennemies, they were probably never worshipped together lmao". like please. are you kids who have just finished reading Percy Jackson or are you teenagers/adults who want to study Ancient Greece ?? why are you here ??
not knowing things is normal, i’ve been learning a lot of basic things on antiquity that i had no idea about, and i had never studied ancient languages before september. but some people act so weirdly i don’t know why they’re here at all ?
I finished my first freshman year of college 🎉
i've started writing my BA thesis this week and i'm so exited but i'm also so unsure if i'm on the right track or if this is even something worth exploring (it is, i'm just making myself unnecessarily worried and insecure). i know the feeling will pass as soon as i actually start for real but its still frustrating