Beneath the sky (pt.1)
A/N: This part is about Tuktirey, because she deserves to be a badass character, too. :) It is a part of my Starcrossed headcanon & it takes place approximately three years after where I left off here. Beneath the sky will have 2/3 chapters, which I will hopefully deliver soon.
Tuktirey was livid.
How come that literally everyone, all her siblings and even Tsireya, Aonung and Spider, who asked if they could join their family for the journey to the High Camp for the occasion – and were given permission by Tonowari just like that –, were about to undergo the Uniltaron in just a few days, but not her?
There was to be a feast, a celebration. Not only all Tuk’s close ones (Spider has already tamed a tsurak and Tsireya was about to finally become the Metkayina tsahìk officially), but also every other young person in the Omaticaya clan that was of age and feeling ready was about to be important for the day. They were about to get the chance to see a message from the ancestors, or - if they’re lucky - their spirit animal.
Literally everyone that Tuk knew was to be included as a participant.
Everyone except her.
And maybe she would be ok with it - if only she didn’t feel like the biggest loser of all time. To illustrate her frustration: when she caught Kiri and Tsireya discussing glow worms and tried to ask about them, Kiri told her that she has no business to care and basically ignored her until she left. When she wanted to help Lo’ak with perfecting his bow for the ritual, he told her that it’s the kind of work a warrior has to do alone. Nobody, not even Spider, who was secretly weaving some kind of a ritual plaid for Kiri, had time to play with her. And it sucked.
It wasn’t fair.
She’s asked the adults about the reason of why she can’t participate too, of course she has.
Mo’at has said that she’s too little for it. Just as mother. And father. (Tuk tried to ask each of them, separately, that’s a sure thing). But when she wasn’t successful in getting the answer she longed for, not from any of them, not even after she tried to argue and reminded them of the fact that she has survived through several battles with the Sky People already, which must have made her more experienced than other kids her age at least a bit in her eyes, grandma caressed her hair gently and whispered: “More the reason not to hurry anywhere, little one, you were robbed of your childhood”; mother told her, with a weird look on her face, to not remind her of those horrible moments; and father snapped at her that she hasn’t yet even tamed an ikran, which means she has no right to insist on this anymore, definitely not according to the Omaticaya rules, if the fact that he said so isn’t enough for her.
All the three interactions were rather intense, to say the truth: Grandma acted oddly un-tsahìk like, just patting her head mindlessly, not even taking her seriously (which was unlike her, honestly). Mother cried (Tuk saw it, even though Neytiri tried to quickly mask it).
But the words her father said... they stung, somehow. And lingered.
...
“Eywa!” Neytiri exclaimed with concern once she saw her daughter, quickly pacing towards her.
“Where were you?!” she demanded, maybe a bit too harshly, but Tuktirey only shrugged and tried to smile innocently (which didn’t work), maybe to make her mother see that she was fine, even though – at the first glance – it probably didn’t seem that way.
She had her hair dishevelled, leaves and dirt stuck in her unravelling braids. She had smears of mud on her body and face, and her lip was freshly torn, a little swollen. There was soil under her nails. And while there were also relatively deep scratches from thorns and sharp rock edges on her calves, the thing that caught Neytiri’s attention the most were Tuk’s quite large scabs on her elbows and knees.
“What happened to you, Tuktirey?!” Neytiri stepped closer to her, reaching to lift her arm carefully, letting her fingers hover above Tuk’s worst wounds carefully.
“It’s nothing,” Tuktirey tried to soften the impact of her embarrassing clumsiness, trying to tug her limb out of her mother’s hold.
“Nothing?!” Neytiri lifted Tuk’s other arm for a change, letting only her look to express her clear lack of conviction. “Do you take me for a fool?”
Tuktirey bit her bloody lip not to let any sound of discomfort or pain escape her throat as Neytiri softly pressed on the bruises.
“You weren’t in the camp for three whole days!” Neytiri reprimanded her daughter, but Tuktirey threw an upset look at her mother in reaction to that. It was like that reproach ignited some suffocated anger in her, that she couldn’t keep in any longer now, due to kind of an unfair handling of the situation by Neytiri.
“I’ve told you that I needed to take a break from everything going on here,” Tuk snapped. “I’ve told you! You said you understood!”
Neytiri scoffed, a hint of disbelieve mirroring in her face. “Yes! But I haven’t expected for you to disappear completely for days, Tuk! Me and father were so concerned! ...And then, as if it wasn’t enough, you show up like this and... what? Expect me not to care?!”
“Aw,” Tuk made a sarcastic grimace. “So you care now? Even though I can’t wear the ritual braids that nobody has time to show me how to make anyways?!” Tuk’s eyes dangerously glowed with vicious satisfaction when what was behind Neytiri’s look changed from frustrated fury to regretting guilt.
“Lovely,” Tuktirey uttered mockingly.
Neytiri’s nostrils flared. “Where were you, Tuk?”
Tuktirey didn’t even blink. “What does it matter, anyway? When I was here, you were sending me to play. I only listened to you.”
Neytiri didn’t really see it before, when she waved Tuk away every time she was curious about traditions tied to Uniltaron, reasoning it by her being too little to know. But now, she realized that she probably made a mistake and didn’t have any right to pry on where her daughter went to sulk, so she just tightened her jaw in restraint and took a deep breath. “Is there any possibility that RDA could have tracked you somehow?”
“No.”
There was a moment of silence, their looks wrestling in determination not to dart away “...Are you absolutely sure?”
Tuktirey knew that Neytiri had to ask. In a way, she understood. But that didn’t change a thing about the way her pride inflated her insides as she smirked with absolute certainty. “Yes.”
“Well, then,” Neytiri uttered sharply, “go make yourself presentable, then. The ritual is taking place tomorrow.”
Tuktirey took the chance to leave.
(read part 2 here)









