So I waited til I was finished with my midterm paper to write this. Wedding Planning is coming along but let me fill you in. My dad was showing his ass. Now he's not. This is what happened a couple of weeks ago I went home to see my family, pick up my courthouse wedding dress, and send off invites. Well I went to my dads house to give him invites and get addresses for his side of the family. He was rude to me. We argued and he told me that he didn't want to be at my wedding. This is the second time he said he didnt want to be there. Pissed I called my sister Alicia, crying. She called him and let him have it.She told him that she shared not wanting to invite all of the extended family because theyre no shows to all of our events because we live so far. My dad called all of his siblings and let them know exactly how we felt. Phone calls came in with apologies... and oh facebook messages. My sister and I are the only grandchildren in the family to have even furthered education post-undergraduate. My sister is in LAW school for heaven sakes. lol Nobody has come to anything. But they all promised to be there. So my daddy is now on board and says he will help pay for anything I want. Even a wedding planner!!!!! *praise God* Next saturday I am going to Raleigh, NC to go big wedding gown shopping with my mommy, sister, matron of honor and my sister in law. Im so excited I want Wednesday to hurry up and come so I can go home!!! On another note I texted my sister in law to see of she was still coming next saturday. She texted me back saying she would and I thought it would be a sweet heads up to let her know that we were getting married before the wedding. She txtd back and insisted on being there. Not only her. Her, her daughter, her child's father and her old roommate. Uh no. Were getting married on his birthday. A Friday. Her old roommate, the driver presumably, works for Progress Energy and works on Fridays. Were not changing it to a Saturday. Nope. There are things I want to do with him that day and weekend in general. I just dont feel like sharing him that day. I want to celebrate his birthday. Hang out. Consummate our marriage. Not have to be hosts to people who are coming from out of town. One of his friends is going to be a witness. My matron of honor is coming to be a witness and my mom will be there. Nobody else. I shared him enough. Selfish? I dont care. I was the only one to drop him off for deployment. I almost missed his homecoming going to pick up them ( yes the same people.) So Im already irritated from that. Nobody wanted to drop him off for deployment except me. So I thought I should be there alone. But that didnt happen. I shared his ass on our first anniversary. We did nothing as a couple to celebrate really. He has since apologized but I shared him. The day we got engaged everybody was around. I just want him by myself nobody else. Is that wrong? Im barely in NC as it is. I just want one day where I can hang out with him, celebrate him and chill... oh yeah and get married. I talked to him about it and he said they dont have to be there if I dont want ( which makes me feel horrible, like its on me.) But he was like as far as everybody else is concerned were getting married officially on 1/25/14 so no worries. I swear I love him!!!! Thats where I am at right now.