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[miodaisgay]

I wish my dad didn't make me so filled with anxiety by using me as a stand in therapist

I'm so tired of being looked at as just

Emotional support for my parents when I told them I'm already in an awful state

[bloodysinkk]

that's- holy frigin' poggers dude !!! :DDD

[unuhuuuurg]

I really really really deeply want to km

I am dying

[miodaisgay]

Taking applications to date me

[miodaisgay]

If I have a third ear infection this year I'm going to have to destroy myself

I haven't had an ear infection in so long why give my three in such quick succession sobs

[miodaisgay]

One of the worst things about capitalism is that thinking about going to work makes me wanna die so bad and it's not cuz I hate my job, I don't mind my job it's fun sometimes

But it's the fact I Have To Go

It's the fact I'm Not Allowed to Sit when there are no customers around

It's the fact that if I have a mental breakdown completely out of my control I could get fuckin fired like someone at my job now apparently did like yesterday

Its the fact I have such a long fuckin commute and I can't just get ubers because I'll be spending all the money I got at said job and then I won't be able to pay rent or fucking eat

I don't care if it makes me sound lazy, working this much and having no fucking choice in the matter is absolutely killing my will to live and I'm scared that any more of this is actually gonna be fucking dangerous and I feel like I can't talk to anyone about this cuz I wanna die so much that it's just a fucking

Annoying side affect to being around me that I'll spread my negative hands all over the place

Hah.

[miodaisgay]

I don't wanna do this anymore it feels like nothing will ever fuckin improve no matter how long I hold on so why am I holding on so fuckin hard?

[miodaisgay]

How are y'all holding up I'm being hit with existential dread every two seconds to the point of feeling ill and idk how to move on from that