#r ant

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UuuAAAAw I just want to be a silly little boy, a lil goof who only think of precious adventure :'(

[flameborne-a]

//mmm mmm i wanna IM a new blog i followed with my main but fuckin tumblr ain’t lettin me

//let m e unleash my heathen fox son unto people d amm it y ou putrid a ss s ite

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Science made me feel capable it give me purpose and I long for that,I was schearching for purpose my whole teenage years,now I arrived at my young adult life finding it in something I though was impossible for me,thinking that I was/am incapable of understanding it..man,I am so happy.

I have found the strenght inside of me,a burning or ice cold that it left a burning,feeling of passion. I have found something that was missing,one more pieces enveloping my core making this wall of skin thick.

Bulding myself and the body up and down and up for the rest of my life,feeling content of it and accepting it.

[unuhuuuurg]

I NEED to persist for my family and friends

It is all exploding inside what,where,when,who,how

I.Don't.Know

[unuhuuuurg]

I really really really deeply want to km

I am dying

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I don't recognize myself, I don't know what I want,do I want to take my transition to another level ? Is this about something other than my transness ? I try to ask and navigate. Tiptoeing is what I am doing rn because of my living situation,I feel like I don't have the space for that,I do not feel safe at all..

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What's up ?

For me,well nothing in particular,I've gain consciousness and am trying to inprove my life,spiraling and losing so many battles but I am still here,grateful is the word.

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So scared of having psychosis again,the episode I had back in 2019 for a whole year really affected me.

I still have some hallucination in my everyday life,little shadow people,some voices siging moslty and figures in the corner of my vision and that's okay,it does not bothers me,it make me a lil less alone and I'm used to that since I can remenber.

Whoever that monstruous episode with so many non-stop hallucination day,noon and night with this feeling of beeing constantly watch and heard,no thanks.