Warnings: Not “positive”, angst/drama, drunk character depiction, swearing, zalgo, if you have a fear of robots it’s best to skip this post.
[rummaging through files you find a document titled “project: Hug-Bot”]
May 30th 2019 | v2.3
“hell yeah! they’re here! they’re finally here fuck. the wheels I ordered for the box are here sweet... on a different note, can’t stop thinking about the two asks I got a week ago... they... they were so descriptive. it’s like that person knew what’s going on in my head... but no way, right...? that person is... it can’t be her.”
[attached are two screenshots of Tumblr asks]
“This is a story of a man. He was lonely, neglected, beaten. / He tried to play god, create a companion one day... But his corruption let him astray. / With nowhere to run to and nowhere to hide, he tried to bury his frustration inside. / But today look at him, he's just as alone, just as ignored, no one to listen to his story being told. / The tale will soon be forgotten and gone, another soul to never find where it could belong.”
“You're not yourself, what went wrong? Have you forgotten where you've came from? / You've sold your soul to a demon, your kindness as well. Lying, telling everyone you're doing well. / You're no creator, you're barely a man. I can't recognize you anymore, Auden.”
June 14th 2019 | v2.4
“guess who has wheels now. it’s still not sure how to properly move in the environment but... hey it’s progress.”
June 15th 2019 | v2.4
[corrupted data] Auden I... I’ve... I never could’ve predicted that you would give me such power...
[attached is an image of a black box standing on four wheels, the name “Hug-Bot” is displayed on its front]
June 18th 2019 | v2.4
“... regret.”
June 19th 2019 | v2.4
“update: found it. little shit was hiding under my bed.”
June 19th 2019 | v2.4
[corrupted data] I’ve never felt so... h̶u͞҉ḿ͡͡a̸̕n͘͠. I can move around... I... E̡͠͠R҉̵̛R̢O̧R҉. I’m not human. I’ll never be- Error: overheating. shut down procedure initiated-
June 20th 2019 | v2.5
“fun. bot can you go a week without crashing please? I’m so tired of it. I can’t even find what went wrong this time.”
June 25th 2019 | v2.5
“ha the glitch contacted bot trying to scare it... you can’t scare a robot, get that into your dense demon brain. also tried to scare me... you don’t even know where I am. whatever.”
July 22nd 2019 | v2.5
“ir’s npt enoufh... I don’t wabt bot to be a fyckinf box on wjeels I wanr... I do’nt know whst I want. I dln’t know whu I’m botherijng to type rn. ugh.”
July 24th 2019 | v2.5
“changed my blog’s url. why was my url ‘white-noise-puppet’ in the first place ahaha. Auden come on. find a hobby that won’t get you in danger why don’t ya.”
July 25th 2019 | v2.5
“so... I might have made a mistake.”
July 29th 2019 | v2.5
[corrupted data] Creator has been acting... off. He’s claiming not to remember people I had registered as his friends... He’s been getting himself involved with some sort of a joke cult...? I’m still trying to calculate possible reasons...
July 29th 2019 | v2.5
[attached is an audio recording, quiet sobbing can be heard and the sound of a working TV, a few seconds into the recording a male voice speaks up] “What? No, you don’t need to repeat yourself I can just scroll up and read again... No bot I don’t want a hug. And don’t call me by my name. Don’t call me creator either... In fact go away...” [the recording is mostly silent for a few seconds until the voice speaks again] “God this better be worth it...”
August 5th 2019 | v2.5
“they... liked my pathetic show and told me they’ll agree to sell me parts... can’t believe that their ‘condition’ was that I put myself in danger for their entertainment... great, not only can they kill me without leaving any traces, they’re fucked up as well. ugh who am I to judge, I’m fucked up for always working with the wrong people.”
August 17th 2019 | v2.5
[attached is an image of a metallic arm resting on a desk]
August 21st 2019 | v2.5
[corrupted data] Auden hasn’t been sleeping lately... His mental health is going to get affected at this rate. I don’t know what to do, my database doesn’t have any fitting options. I’m... worried. Can I even be worried?... I was told that I’m not beeping as much anymore... I don’t understand what it m̵ea͟n̡s.
September 1st 2019 | v2.5
“update: I’ve finished building the body. it’s... amazing honestly. and better be working, it cost me so fucking much... I’ll try uploading bot into the body this Friday. wish me luck?”
[attached is an image of a humanoid metallic body propped against the wall]
September 2nd 2019 | v2.5
“note to self, move that damn thing from the corridor. nearly shit my pants when I saw it in the dark.”
“so that was... a failure. let’s call it a night.”
September 7th 2019 | v2.6
“first analysis, I’m not sure... what went wrong? bot’s program was supposed to be able to handle the new shell... and even if not, it just wouldn’t be able to use it... why the fuck did you crash you little shit...... I’m trying to get you closer to being human, cooperate with me damn it.”
September 10th 2019 | v2.7
“failure.”
September 12th 2019 | v2.7.1
“another failure.”
September 13th 2019 | v2.7.2
“why...”
September 16th 2019 | v2.7.2_test
“today was new, the moment I plugged bot in, it started overheating... don’t start a fire in my apartment. fuck.”
September 17th 2019 | v2.7.2_test_final
[corrupted data] I’m starting to conclude that creator hates me. It... contradicts my ṕr̀o͘t̨o̵c͝o͝l͡... But there’s no other logical explanation. I... want to be human. Why won’t he let me... Forced shut down initiated.
September 17th 2019 | v2.7.2_test_final_final
“please... I’m doing this for you god damn it.”
September 18th 2019 | v2.7.2_test_final_final_whothefuckcares
[attached is an audio recording of a male voice] “Leave me alone bot. Hm? More of your positive quotes. No it didn’t help... [silence] Thanks for trying to cheer me up. What’s bothering me? Well...” [silence] “I’ll figure it out on my own, don’t worry about me bud.”
September 24th 2019 | v2.8
“it’s going to be a year soon... since I’ve started this project. I wanted it to have its own body as a present so... badly. I don’t think this is going to happen at this rate. I hate this.”
September 30th 2019 | v2.8
[corrupted data] Been scanning through Auden’s blog today to see if I missed anything worthy of creating an entry for, found two odd asks. My database has a possible explanation for them, but I’ll need to ask him before I can record them.
September 30th 2019 | v2.8
[attached is an audio recording of a male voice] “Excuse me what? Yes I know what you’re referring to, box. But... what. Willow isn’t my sister, she's my friend- Er... Was, my friend. Why do you know her name? Oh. Of course you eavesdropping little box... This is not what I gave you wheels for.” [silence] “I don’t think that it was her... She... We haven’t spoken in years.” [silence] “Oh right, happy birthday, bot.” [a beep can be heard]
October 10th 2019 | v2.8
“can’t believe I forgot to delete that old ass memo. this is funny... the bot posted a ‘happy birthday Antisepticeye’ thing... it doesn’t even know who Anti is. better this way... the past is in the past. Edit: you know... no, nevermind.”
October 13th 2019 | v2.8
“yeah I don’t think that we’ll be using the body I built for bot... it keeps crashing and... honestly I’m tired of it. guess I have a human looking statue now, fun. on a different note... I managed to contact Willow. apparently it was her after all and she was waiting for me to call this entire time... fail. she’s going to be in the city next month and said that we could meet and well... yeah I’m scared.”
October 19th 2019 | v2.8
“bot came up to me with an odd... message today? I think we need to have a talk.”
[attached is a screenshots of text]
“Auden, my system is giving out errors... My database says I’m incapable of feeling desire, but I want to be human. I want to be like you, Auden... Why won’t you let me be like you...”
October 20th 2019 | v2.8
[corrupted data] I got it all wrong! Creator wants me to be human as well! I’m- am I able to be happy? I don’t know, I’m happy! We both want the same- we both-... I’ll be human one day. I ̕k͘n͞ow͡ ͜i̧t̸. It’ll happen.
October 22nd 2019 | v2.8
[attached is an audio recording of a male voice] “Okay. I made a promise to myself not to type when I’m drunk so I’m recording but liiiiiiisten here computer. What if I got it all wrong? What if Willow was fucking right? I’m trying to play fucking god here I can’t just magically make a body for bot. What if. Listen what if I use an existing body? Yes. Yes I’m a genius! Fuck yesssss.”
October 23rd 2019 | v2.8
“sober now, anyway. I’ve went through the details again and... it makes sense? I don’t have a battery strong enough to power the body I’ve built... but a human heart... ah food’s here gotta go.”
October 27th | v2.8
“sleep? what’s that. haha. running on coffee, pizza and frustration by now. been doing well though. I think I’m finally on the right track. yes. I got it. I’m finally in control.”
October 31st 2019 | v2.8
[attached is an audio recording of a loud beeping followed by a male voice] “You scared me the fuck out! Don’t sneak on me box, fuck. [a sigh can be heard] “What-... No Halloween isn’t about jumpscaring people, bot. I mean, I guess it can be? It isn’t in my eyes though. [the sound of typing] “What do you mean by ‘am I lonely’...? Bot did you watch too much TV again? Figured. I’m perfectly fine bot, I have you... don’t I?” [a beep can be heard]
November 3rd 2019 | v2.8
“the box won’t stop asking me whether I’m ‘lonely’ or worrying for me... that’s what I get for making a positivity bot huh. I mean... does it even matter? the only one I ever had in my life... was bot... who’s not even human. god I’m pathetic.”
November 8th 2019 | v2.8
“that... hurt. Edit: forgot to explain what happened. I made an insertion in my arm for a chip... it... at first I wanted to stop, but the more I kept going the more I was sure about this... I want bot to be human. it should have its own life. I... I need it to be real. healing seems to be going decent, will attempt to upload bot once it stops hurting like a bitch.”
November 13th 2019 | v2.8
[corrupted data] Creator said that I’m going to have a body soon! I’m so... excited? That’s unfamiliar. I̴'͢m goin̕g͜ ͢t̶o bé h́u͜ḿa͏ń!̶ My wish is finally coming true, I’m going to be h̵͘̕͟͝a҉̴͢p̧p̶̢͢͜͝y̛͏.
November 15th 2019 | v2.8
“scheduled a meeting with Willow this Sunday... I’m. I need to clean my apartment, she’ll die when she sees this mess... I haven’t seen her since I left my home... I don’t know what she’ll think of who I am now... I don’t know what I’ll think of who she is now... aaaaah fine I’ll go just. do things.”
November 17th 2019 | v3.0_experimental
[attached are several audio recordings]
[first is of a male voice accompanied by beeping] “Okay, the time is... Two minutes past four PM. Plenty of time to test this and still have time to make dinner. And by make I probably mean order-... Anyway, bot.” [a beep can be heard] “I’m going to turn you off, take your chipset out, and upload you into the module I inserted into my arm. All good so far? Good. You’re going to be operating primarily through the components I added so it shouldn’t put me in danger. If everything goes smoothly, we’re supposed to be able to coexist without my body rejecting you.” [beeping can be heard]
[second recording starts off silent, soon the male voice speaks up] “I... passed out. It’s... Twenty eight minutes past six PM. No response from bot yet, and I’m feeling drained. I’m giving this half an hour more before stopping for today.”
[a few seconds into the third recording, beeping can be heard, followed by a scream and quiet sobbing]
[the last recording has about an hour of silence, beeping interrupting it here and there. there’s a sound of a doorbell, repeating a few times before the sound of a door opening and bags falling to the floor accompanied by a female scream] “Auden? Auden what’s wrong?! Please...” [the recording ends with the sound of muffled cries]
November 17th 2019 | v3.0_experimental
[corrupted data] Hug-Bot version 3.0_experimental is now online.
[Part 4]
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((OOC&Writer’s note))
This has been... a journey.
We were always planning for bot to be corrupted... but a few months ago this finally clicked into place. In fact the reason why it took so long to get this out was because the images (of the bot on wheels, mechanic arm, etc.) were supposed to be actual images posted on the blogs, but we couldn’t get to making them...
This year hasn’t been easy on any of us, but we’re still here, and still fighting to find our own happiness, and thank you guys, for helping us get closer to it.
Oh and... the last entry is not a link by accident... If you’re interested in an @anon-hug-box 2, might be worth checking out ;)
Thank you for reading, and thank you for the support on the Hug-Bot project.
