vibes (a. azumane x f!reader)
genre: fluff w/ a hint of angst
warnings: self doubting asahi, reader smokes cigarettes & mention of cheating ex-boyfriend
first oneshot in my chase atlantic series ! if you haven't heard this song already, you should totally listen to it if you want, its very good and i think it fits asahi perfectly !
when asahi left the gym, y/n was waiting by the door for him. just like she always was. she greeted him with a smile, like she always did, but asahi found his own smile didn't quite reach his eyes. y/n took his hand in her's and they started walking, but no conversations were started.
it was weird, asahi thought, how perfectly y/n's hand seemed to fit in his. like her's were made just to hold his. the weird part was how horrible asahi felt about their relationship. everyday, y/n waited for him so they could walk home after his practice. she deserved better than a boyfriend who she spent so long waiting on. but if she deserved so much better, why did asahi want her to stay with him so badly? why did her hand fit his so perfectly?
"how was practice?" y/n asked, her sweet voice cutting through asahi's dull thoughts.
he shrugged, "same as always. i don't really wanna talk about it, i'm thinking."
y/n frowned and stopped walked, "that's fine, what's on your mind?"
before he could think better of it, asahi replied, "your skin, like, you're hands. you feel so perfect for me, but i feel like you should be with someone better. someone who has enough time to see you."
"asahi, don't say that! you're so out of my league, i don't want anyone but you," y/n replied, sounding shocked that asahi would even suggest she deserved better.
he still wasn't convinced, but they finished their walk to her house in silence. normally, asahi would just drop y/n off and head back to his place, but once they arrived, he didn't want to leave her just yet.
"do you mind if i..." asahi trailed off, but y/n nodded, understanding what he was getting at.
they both walked inside quietly, careful not to wake up y/n's sleeping family. her room was upstairs, away from everyone else's, so they didn't have to worry about talking quietly in her room. her window was open just a crack, but the breeze from outside felt nice blowing through the room. asahi took a seat on her bed, and y/n climbed into his arms, a soft smile on her face, although he still felt troubled.
asahi trusted y/n completely, yet he couldn't help his doubts creeping in. what if he was too scary, or too busy, or the thousand other negative traits he applied to himself. y/n always reassured him that she wouldn't leave, but asahi knew quelling his doubts completely would take time.
he didn't want to dwell on that though. not when he had y/n wrapped in his arms, and her hands trailing up and down his back. tonight, he decided, his mind's only focus would be on y/n, and enjoying his time with her.
"this is nice. i like the vibes," y/n mumbled with a small giggle at her word choice.
asahi nodded, a soft smile on his face as he looked down at her. they spent the rest of the night like that, tangled in each other's arms. the next morning, they walked to school together, and despite all the teasing from suga about how they arrived together, asahi was happy.
y/n took a drag of her cigarette, unaware that asahi was approaching from behind. he knew about her habit, and had been trying to help her break it, but it was difficult for her. she got stressed so easily, especially after her ex-boyfriend, and smoking always helped her ease it.
he was the one who'd gotten her into smoking, and then he cheated on her and left. y/n always joked about how many issues she got from that relationship, with little to no positives. asahi had been nothing but supportive of her though, and it was more than y/n could ever ask for. she tried to avoid smoking in front of him, to make him feel better about it, but sometimes she did get caught.
asahi didn't say anything as he took a seat on the park bench next to her, but he did take the cigarette out of her hand and snuff it out. he draped an arm over her shoulders, and y/n leaned into his touch. her chest felt heavy with guilt, even though she knew asahi didn't think any less of her.
"you can tell me to go away if you want to be alone right now," asahi said softly, like he was scared y/n would be mad at him.
"never, i would never want you to go away."
"you're too good to me asahi," y/n said after a few moments of silence.
she knew asahi wouldn't agree with her, but she also knew it was true. he was so kind and loving, and she did nothing but worry him. they continued to sit together at the park, until asahi offered to walk her home. they reached her house, and as if it was an unspoken agreement, he walked in with her to stay the night.
like always, her window was cracked open and the nighttime air was blowing throughout the space. y/n collapsed into her bed, pulling asahi down with her. his arms circled around her, and they talked softly about their days, ignoring the problems weighing down on them.
y/n knew relationships took work, and so did asahi. they both had baggage coming into their's, but they both knew working through it all would take time. in that moment though, all they wanted to focus on was their arms around each other, and the light energy in the air.
"thank you asahi, i like when we do this. i feel a lot better now," y/n said, breaking apart the conversation they were having about asahi's english class that day.
asahi nodded, "good. that's all i want; for you to feel alright."
then, they fell asleep together, their mutual issues on their minds. they knew it would take time, but as long as they had each other, they could work through anything.
link to the song !