These are mostly notes for myself and (hopefully) of gratitude to some of the people I shared time with. This post is probably mostly indecipherable to anyone else.
As always, thanks to @beguiledcon concom and volunteers and everyone who worked to make con run smoothly! There's so much effort behind the scenes to create such a wonderful space. I appreciate you all.
Thank you to everyone who came to my Hypnoamory class! I think I might retire it now for a bit but- I really appreciated all of the thoughts, questions, and experiences shared. Someone in the Discord gave feedback about the space feeling safe to talk and- nothing could make me prouder or happier. Also thinking on something a participant shared about the nature of the community- how less people are joining in middle age with established monogamous relationships (like me) and more are joining younger with a pre-existing poly bent and lots of models on what different relationships can look like. I hope that equips them better to navigate these choppy emotional waters!
Now to the vague:
-Frontier is the worst airline. Do not fly Frontier.
- Snuggles and sleep- eventually
- Midnight video- was entirely exhausted but was nice to see you and extra nice to be included/thought of
-Robots are easy to store and good at finding creative ways to dispose of crumbs (but may need reminders to also fold the blankets)
-Back and forth story completion
-Delicious pepperoni pizza. Still working on you remembering to open EVERY door. ;)
-Directing your visual focus where you DON'T want it to be never gets old
-You're just too easy, cupcake.
-Doing a striptease by just unlacing my sneakers. You know how much you want it.
-Love manhandling you with cuddles whenever I can :)
- Just breathe. Just be. (So so appreciative to be taken care of in that way- I never feel like I can convey how much)
-Taking the tension off the muscles in my neck
-We didn't get to do a thing but I appreciate you messaging me and trying to make it happen! At a different con where my headspace/energy were better, I definitely would have loved to talk more and maybe even find some play.
-REALLY sorry we didn't get to do a thing and was happy to message a bit about your experiences shortly after con. You're so sweet and fun and I hope it will be epic when it happens.
- Being reassured on a Discord after con that I wasn't being rude to people I like (even though I really felt closed off and like I acted "off" all weekend)
-Didn't know I would get on my knees that fast -guess I was just eager
-Glad you appreciated the dress (and would love some further time for that appreciation in the future). Thank you for the headpets!
-Thank you for checking in on me in general
-Thank you for the headpet chain! (I really like you and talking to you and giving you head pets)
-Appreciate meeting you in person and being a mutual fan. :) Your comment pulled me out of my condrop and some con-related catastrophizing. Genuinely- thank you.
-I never told you this but- your class was great and fun and your rainbow shoes were most excellent
-Hypnoyoga is the secret best class at any con. Felt SO good and necessary
-Pushing someone into a wall has never been so hilariously fun. Thank you for noticing I was down and giving me some lovely arm decoration
-Topping is for Everyone is such a kind class. I appreciate how it gets different as you evolve as a top and in your relationships. Huge source of compersion (if I'm using that right)
-Being hypnotized as a first time subject. You know this but you're, like, really good.
-Also- I love hypnotizing you and just giving you all the affection. Where did time go?
-Horse hypnosis
-Also? Chicken hypnosis
-Massive hugs.
- Always grateful to have started this journey with you.
- @arihi has the coolest friend group. All hits, no misses
-I know being hypnotized sounds uncertain now but- you're genuinely an awesome person and I hope you have great early experiences with someone you can trust.
-Also? Great DJ.
-The white person wedding dance
-Room of queers singing Pink Pony Club
-Thank you for telling me about your sweet bimbo coworker and showing me your forearms. You get more amazing everytime I see you. I wish grad school-you could see you now.
-I don't ever read Read Only Mind, I just read Mcstories
-Bewitched convention
-Hobbyist Convention
-Reviewing some hypnotic patter tricks
-Delicious cookies, cool patches
-Desperate, horny, and desperately horny
-Being seduced right past my limits
-But at the end, I wanted it to just be you
-Scene so nice it went right past dinner
-Being an easy touch
-That means love, y'know? You saw my class
-Taking care of me through my nap/drop. You don't have to take care of me in that way and I'm so appreciative that you did and do
-Seeing so many incredible outfits and especially beautiful dresses. Admiration
-I'm sorry I missed your class but your presence is always so clear to me. Always happy to see you bloom and shine
-I'm glad things are better at work and with crafting +2 dungeon equipment- you seemed so centered and your energy is always my favorite. I already shared your advice about breakfast nuts today. A+++ great person, no notes.
-Dunkin bunnies
-Speaking of cool friend groups (which I did way above), oikos has the best extended polycule. Kind lovely folks I'm always happy to see.
-Your long braided hair is so beautiful and you're just so thoughtful and compassionate with the way you do things. Also- will always make me blush. I hope your ball experience with the puppies was everything you hoped it would be
- Missed you. Hope you could somehow feel us missing you wherever you are. I hope you were able to access the pictures and the music
-Missed you too- but pretty sure I'll see you at Charmed. Hope camp was great and looking forward to hopefully learning y'alls Sunday night card game
