SUMMARY: Imagine working in a place where you constantly have to be in the most prim and proper mood - then go home to Bucky.
WARNINGS: Some language
Nothing really in the smut or angst genre…mostly just mush
You slumped down into your rolling chair that did very little to support your back. The world around you seeming to fade into oblivion. Surely this wasn’t actually happening. You blinked silently at your keyboard as if it held the answers to every question ever asked.
“Hey!”
You raised your head to meet the person across from your desk with an artificial smile. There was no sense in anything less than a smile. Showing my actual emotions would do no good – not here, at least.
“Hey Joyce, what can I help you with today?”
The rest of your day was filled with mundane, nothingness. Tasks that would make no difference if they were completed or forgotten. Someone would always be there to get them finished. But the worse part of all, I finished everything with a smile.
Every conversation had a plastered smile.
Every walk down the hall accompanied by delicately positioned lips.
Every phone call lead with the voice of a smiling woman from your end of the line.
It was all you could do to get through the day. Until that blasted 4:59 rolled over to 5:00 o’clock. Where you were permitted to gather your things and display yet another amusing expression for your walk to the car.
You clicked that freaking unlock button. Opened the back car door and threw your bag in. Launching yourself in the driver’s seat and turned the key.
Immediately, the soft hum of the news filled your ears. This morning’s solum ride in just wouldn’t do. You crushed the first preset on your radio in a desperate search for music. Nothin – commercials. The second setting. Music met your dying heart.
You pulled the volume up to a roar that brought the first sincere smile to your lips in hours. The entire drive home you pulled the volume up at a relentless pace. Making sure that it was always louder than your own voice.
Pulling into your driveway, you threw the car in park. For the first time since you started your car 29 minuets ago, you turned the volume down. Your ears filled with a quiet hum – that hum after you’ve listened to something too loud for too long. Flipping the key towards yourself.
Finally convincing yourself to peel out of the seat and go into your cramped apartment, you started your journey up the walkway. Sliding the key in the lock, you twisted and opened the door.
“Babe!” Bucky met you at the door to greet you with an arm thrown around your shoulders and an enthusiastic kiss to the side of your temple.
“Hey.” You mustered with yet another fake smile – albeit faint.
“Aww, what’s the deal?” he pulled back to look at you, “Bad day at work?”
“Nothing really” beginning to walk out of his embrace, “just a long day.”
“Oh no, no, no!” he caught your wrist as you tried to walk away, “I don’t think so. What’s up?”
“Bucky, I don’t have the energy for this.”
“For what?”
“Whatever your ‘bout to try!” you screamed. Far more snippy, loud, and sharp that you intended to be. His eyes grew larger and drew his head back to examine you more closely. With your free hand, you brought your fingertips to your eyebrow and shook your head,
“I’m sorry.” Placing your hand out at your side to signal your confusion, “I don’t know what –“ your voice cracked.
Bucky seen your eyes gloss and pulled you into a consuming hug “It’s okay.”
“I just –“ taking a deep breath and feeling his chest flex under your palm covered face. “I am a smiley, happy freaking joy robot all day long. I can’t not be. If I don’t smile and I’m not peppy then I’ll just be fired. It’s part of the flipping job and anything less that ecstatic all day long is not acceptable!”
“What?” barely a whisper.
You pulled yourself barely off of his chest, “At work. I’m always the one who fixes all the problems and councils through all the drama. And I can’t ever have even one bad second because apparently,” your tone became more frustrated, “if I can’t keep myself together, I can’t fix everyone else’s problems.” You turned and walked away hands on your hips in frustration.
“And then, I get home with you.” You turned to look at a taken back Bucky; obviously confused by your statement, “You do nothing wrong! You meet me at the door and you always smile because you want to.” You shook your head, “It ticks me off!”
Bucky took a step forward, mouth open ready to say something. Your hand flew up, “I’m not done yet.” Surprised he stopped his forward maneuver.
“I need to come home and be allowed to be more than just. . .” you thought for a second, “more than just happy!”
He laughed, “So, you want me to make you mad?”
“No!” raising your hand to your head. When had this conversation become so confusing? “I just want to be frustrated. Just sit in my out annoyance. Like today.”
“What about today?”
“Today I wanted to come home and complain and whine and. . .”
“And?”
“And just be a bitch for no damn reason!”
Bucky’s face. . .was that confusion or amusement? “First of all,” he took a step forward, “I didn’t ask you to come home and be happy.” He closed the gap between you – you could feel his breath against your ear as he whispered, “And second, I think Bitchy Y/n would be kinda hot.”
You laughed and turned to walk away. But he caught your wrist once again and smiled, “Oh common!” Your laughter roared as you tried to pull away,
“Buck, Babe, let me go change.”
He let you go and as you walked down the hall you heard him yell, “I can take it – bring on the bitch. I bet that bitch is fuckin’ kinky!”
Ah... Valentines Day... The day when love is in the air. Everyone is out and about, holding hands and exchanging heart-shaped anything and everything. But what about us single ladies? Here are some ideas and things that I would enjoy.
#1 AVOID MAKING ANY PLANS AT ALL! Wake up in the morning and simply do whatever you want, but take it up a notch. Order the largest coffee or espresso from your favorite coffee shop using a delivery service, and just go with the flow. Turn on Netflix and watch The Walking Dead while cooking some steak and your favorite veggies for breakfast. You might decide you want some flowers, go out and buy some! You don't have to visit a fancy floral shop—head to a nearby store or supermarket. After dodging fights over roses, you might return home feeling a bit tired. Find an interesting conspiracy video on YouTube and take the best nap of your life. Wake up and embark on the next adventure of the day. The possibilities are endless!
#2 SOLO DATE NIGHT! Take yourself out to a place you wouldn't normally visit. Indulge in a giant steak, lobster tail, or whatever else you desire. Personally, I would bring a book I'm currently reading to enjoy while dining. You might attract some stares and odd looks, but that's simply because people are envious that you are truly living your best life. Cast aside any feelings of guilt, worry, or shame; you don't need to concern yourself with the cost the other person will have to pay for or splitting a bill. Also, buy yourself to an extra dessert to savor while binge-watching Grey's Anatomy with a drink at the end of the night.
#3 SUPER QUICK GETAWAY! If money and time are not an issue, or if you have specific connections and have done a bit of planning, wake up super early, catch a plane, and head to NYC for the day, or any other destination your heart desires. Then, at the end of the day, catch a plane back and be able to crash in your own bed. Some might wonder who the hell would do this and why. Well, I once woke up at 2am, boarded a plane with my sister, traveled from Oklahoma to NYC, spent the day in Times Square, flew back home, and was in my own bed by 10pm. (I'll definitely need do a storytime!) By the way, this was planned just 2 days prior. And let me tell you, I will never be able to fully explain how enjoyable that day was! It was FULL with adventure! If you seek an exhilarating and unforgettable Valentine's Day, that's the way to do it.
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