An open letter to Miss V.
I saw a letter bragging my name, the letter contains so many emotions and I can see her pain. But the thing is it's a one-sided letter. A blind, immature letter from one selfish woman.
You got my empathy but then again I don’t find it fair sa letter mo. Its all about you, pointing and blaming someone why you’re in that situation.
I read between each line, and yes I got your point.
Christmas of 2015 mo nalaman about sa babae ng hindi mo pinangalanan ang lalaking yun sa blog mo, why? kasi prinoproktektahan mo?
Then January nagtest ka and you found out na ano? confirmed but then ano ginawa mo? I saw and read everything girl, stop acting na aping api ka, kasi hindi lang ikaw ang niloko at naloko for how many times!
Nakatanggap ka ng masasakit at ma aanghang na salita mula sa akin?- You knew all along na nag eexist ako sa buhay nya, at kahit kelan hindi nya ako tinantanan, kahit pa sabihin nya sayo na nag hiwalay na kami, come on girl, wag mo ideny na hindi mo alam at hindi kita sinabihan.
When I knew that you're pregnant, what do you want me to feel? Tumalon sa tuwa? Maiyak that finally nakabuo kayo and you will be a family? Didn't I give you any choice? Hindi ba ako nagparaya? Hindi ba kita inintindi knowing your situation? Hindi ba ako nag adjust?
You know the answer girl, you know for yourself that I do accept your situation but then at the end ano napala ko?
Hindi ba kita pinag tanggol kay Chelly about her messaging your father?
You know from that start na hindi nya kayang panagutan ka sa paraan na gusto mo
Kung kilala mo na talaga sya, you will not say all of this. You know it from the start girl. He has his own way of showing support sa bata, at hindi kasama duon ang magpakasal at magpatali.
He still has his dreams na gusto nya i pursue, and on what you've said na hindi sya nag eeffort? Anong classification mo ng effort para sa bata? na kung sa twing mag memessage sya is all about your son at hindi na tungkol as inyo?
Have you asked yourself? Kulang ba sa effort sayo o sa anak mo? ikaw mismo umintindi sa sinabi mo " ala na talagang pag asa nun talaga between me and your papa. Nananahimik na ako, nagkaka chat parin but its cleared na its just for you nalang talaga"
But then... andyan c "kheng" which is me, na malaki ang insecurities ko sainyo? Wow! chelly ikaw ba yan? hindi ako maiinsecure sa iba dahil alam ko anong lugar ko, alam ko kung saan ako.
Kung talagang gusto nya mabuo kayo, he will make sacrifices. He will be with you, lalo na sa panganganak mo, mag papa ka father sya sa anak mo, magiging matured na sya at ikaw nalang magiging huling babae sa buhay nya.
But then again....
We respect your decision in life, alisin ang karapatan nya bilang ama sa anak mo at karapatan makita ng anak mo ang ama nya, pero huwag sana dumating ang panahon na kapag ng krus ang landas nila malalaman din nya kung bakit.
Vernie, Its not all about him, its not about his faults and short coming. Asked yourself kung ano ang kayang gawin pa ng isang ina kahit walang ama ang anak nya, Asked yourself what went wrong sainyo at kung bakit hindi nya kayo napanindigan.
At kahit nag eexist ako, kung kayo ang pipiliin kayo ang pipiliin. Sa love walang doubt, dapat pinag lalaban. If you are brave enough to stand on what you think you own, baka siguro hindi ka ganyan.
Kung gusto nya magbago, ginawa na nya yun, but you are forcing him to do what you want him to do, mag babago yan kahit hindi mo sabihin.
He will change for himself, hindi para sa ibang tao, he will do it first sa sarili nya.
Don’t force him na para lang mapag bigyan sya maging apelido nya ang dalhin ng anak mo, it doesnt me pwede mo na syang itali sa singit mo.
I gave you a chance to fight, but you choose not to, and in the end.. Ako pa ang nanakit, ikaw ang biktima.
Life is unfair, pero hindi duon natatapos ang buhay. Learn to accept things, learn to be open dahil minsan ang pagiging selfish naka mamatay.
Ang pagiging ina gagawin ang lahat para anak nya, wala kang ipagkakait kahit ano, walang ililihim na kahit na ano.
Ang pagiging ina ay malawak, pagiging buo para sa anak.
Mag move on na tayong lahat.
