#ven.t

[thornheartfelt]

Horribly vulnerable and uncomfortable, want to hide under fictional dad's coat please

[gurogalz]

havig on and off freakouts is hhorrible why cant i feel good for once

im sick ofbeig in someoneelses skin i want to be me buti dont knw who that is anymore andi have nobodu but myselfto blame i hatw myself so fuckig much i want *so desperately* to jusf turnthe lightsoff and end itbut im alwys scared

[thornheartfelt]

Me 🤝 Ror.schach

Being glad that our mothers are dead and therefore cannot hurt us more

[thornheartfelt]

I think that Mor.din wrapping a blanket around me, holding me and just letting me cry it out would fix me

[thornheartfelt]

Accidentally started overthinking and convinced myself everyone hates me because I'm annoying. I want to hide in the te.ch lab with Mor.din to avoid people and get some reassurance.

[thornheartfelt]

I am not very well, exhausted and cannot get back to sleep

Would like Na.da just to hold me please

[thornheartfelt]

Abandonment issues acting up and I want to say that I'd like to be held and comforted by Na.da, but the avoidant part of the fearful-avoidant/disorganised attachment says I shouldn't want that. It would not do to bother Na.da at all like that lest any chance of comfort be ripped away from me, as has been inevitable. If it was even given at all. My mind says that I've gotten too soft and need to get back to not deriving a sense of fulfillment from social interaction. That I shouldn't have social needs even if I am a member of a social species, because I am broken in a way that does not fit anywhere but by myself.

[thornheartfelt]

"You're not easy to deal with."

I'm aware, but it's your fault that I exist. Wish my fictional dad was not fictional because then I'd have family whose care would be less insincere.