#vent 4

[vent-into-the-void]

Dear Ms Void,

Keeping with the classics

How do you politely tell someone "I am having a panic attack because anxiety is not rational but if there is a singular person to blame why my irrational anxiety is piqueing right now, its you"

So let's just speed run the lead up and get to now

> have a fight with partner

> try to express my needs and how I dont feel like theyre being met

>him: but what about my needs

> him: I want to fly far away for my needs *doesn't specify needs*

> me: please dont till were all good, I cant handle that

> him: *books plane tickets, organizes with multiple other people, doesn't tell me till late next day like its casual*

>me: *panic*

>him: I'll do these things so you dont #panic#

>him: *doesn't do things*

>me: *panics*

So yeah, intuition and all that, got mad vibes he was off cheating last night and now he disappeared at like 4pm yesterday and hasn't contacted me and I am freaked out and I even have him on maps but I cant shake the vibe he left his phone at home and ive gone full crazy anxiety panic mode and im shaking and this is the only thing I can think to do to not keep obsessively checking to see when his location updates again or he checks his message because yknow idk if its anxiety or intuition yet but I am fucking panicked

I hate men why do they do this, its so not hard to be there for another person, I do it for goshdang everyone and you dont see me falling short like you'd think they could do it for their goddam partner at least especially when a partner is very specific and clear about their needs and concerns

Oh wait thats how/why he left in the first place ofc he isn't going to consider them while hes gone

Nm Ms Void, im being a silly goose and panicking because im just batshit insane and care about someone who i surely shouldn't care about but hey even this is better then the treatment I've had in the past so where do I draw the line exactly

I think i need serious help but I dont have friends I can reach out to at damn near 3am nor do I think 'ooh im panicking b/c my bf didnt say goodnight' is a good reason to call a helpline when other people need that shit way more

Am I feeling a Lil suicidal? Yes. But thats pretty fucking normal and im not gonna act on it. This is purely pure unbridled panic at the hands of a boy who says he cares but cant show me

Im gonna stop typing now because I've gone from violenty shaking to just aggressively trembling now and that seems like a win in my books so surely breathing properly will follow suit soon and I'll be back to crying in bed as I have the last few days

Bye bye Ms Void, appreciations for the listening ear, toodleoo, wish me luck, I want to die, have a lovely day, talk soon, unless im in a straight jacket, okay, leaving now for real, buhbye

[the-great-esccape]

I’d get up to follow them

You get back to the hub after a half hour of silently searching.

Escc looks sadly at the glowing '4' and slips into vent 2 without a word.

This one slopes further up. The room beyond appears to be a cafeteria. The walls and floor here are drenched with puddles of blood and gore, and some parts appear to have been melted away, the liquid stone mixing with the viscera.

[the-great-esccape]

I quickly turn to see if Eggs was still with us, and follow Escc

They are.

[the-great-esccape]

i’d walk around the room, looking around to see what i could look at or steal and fidgeting with the mask i have on, scanning the area aswell.

You don't find much else besides torn up and crumpled paper. Escc continues down the vent, the metal clanging loudly.

[the-great-esccape]

"Oi! I might have an egg on my head but im not an egg! I'm a rotting corpse that doesn't have insides! Also i lost my hat-" -Michael "Eggs Benedict" Afton

Escc silently gets up and walks back into the vent.

[the-great-esccape]

hmm, do you think they could be in a different bent? Maybe invisible or something?

"No, I just don't think we've found the right room yet..."

It's eerily silent. You move on. The next few rooms are empty as well. Around the corner is a grate. A few small bloodstains are further down the hall, and a larger one in front of the grate.

"Let's head back into the vents; try and find the teleporter."

They quickly slip into the vent.

[the-great-esccape]

“Alrighty, lets check out some of this area then”

Most of the rooms are completely empty. Nothing's broken, there's no blood. There's just nothing in them.

"I somehow like this less than the other two..."

[the-great-esccape]

“sounds good, hopefully this next one wont be as strong as that dude”

This vent slopes down for a bit. The hallway beyond is in much better condition and better lit than the other two areas. "Let's see if we can find any notes and find out what we're dealing with here."