#vent post thing

[persephifucks]

Had a good night chatting with a girl but now the girl she was talking to before apparently un-ghosted her? Idk

My stomach hurts now

[controlledhues]

//So I have been pretty, uh... what’s the word? I’ve recently lost interest in rping. 

But I know it’s my own fault though; not being able to reply some (many) threads and not answering asks. But... I don’t know??? It has been a year since I started but it isn’t the same as it was before??? For many days I have been thinking about my role as a mun in this place; sometimes the only thing I want to do is draw commissions and memes, but other times I just feel like some people just interact with me because of that: because I often give art for free. It is also my fault and it’s not my obligation and I know I should stop doing that but aaAA I somehow feel like it’s the only way to get attention. 

The other issue that I always have is that because English is not my first language and I haven’t mastered it yet, sometimes my head literally hurts when I try to compose a single sentence and it obviously makes me want to write less and less everyday. And lately, I’ve seen that my grammar hasn’t improved at all.  

I wouldn’t like to talk about my actual personal issues, but just to let you know, I’m getting better in those aspects :’) everything is going fine aaA <3 

So yeah, I wish I could learn how to manage more my time, my effort, my creativity towards this blog. I would like to thank you guys for always being here because you are the ones who inspire me in one or another way.  

[persephifucks]

Thinking about the time my ex friend told me he didn't believe I was bi cause the only people I had been interested within the year of knowing him were men/men presenting and how he said our entire friend group was thinking the same thing. Also thinking about how now I haven't let myself like any men/go after any he/him baddies because I don't wanna prove him right. Also also thinking about how pathetic I am for that

[faindri]

"why don't you try to date"

my gender is confusing to everyone around me bc i don't pass as a man 98% of the time and idk what to do since I can't medically transition or be out and i'm almost exclusively attracted to women so i am assumed to be a lesbian but that feels like unintended cultural appropriation and i am also sometimes attracted to men so i'm technically bi but the only ppl who have ever been interested in me are cis men and id rather vomit than date a cis man

im sure there's a very nice woman out there who would gladly date me at all stages of my transition HOWEVER, that also requires effort and going out to socialize, and i am too autistic for that.

not knowing i was trans fucked up my sense of self for so long I thought I wasn't attracted to anyone so I identified as aro/ace to cope with my dysphoria that i didn't realize was dysphoria. now when i think about trying to date im like oh.....i have missed a critical point in development. like I didnt realize i liked women until 2021....came to terms w/ being a trans man in 2023....

i'm pissed about that! im pissed i couldn't embrace myself until i was 28 years old !!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[persephifucks]

I wish I could crawl inside your head and just know

[persephifucks]

It's kinda insane how strongly I can feel. Like not to be Emily the uwu empath but. I love so hard and feel so strong. I guess that's my downfall as well.

[home-of-the-ascended]

Any Help for an XBox Player?

Is there any way to deal with Koga? At all? I get that he’s new and Hi-Rez likes making newer champions pretty busted as is, but Koga’s giving me a hard time in public games.

Playing a support and seeing an enemy Koga rush you like that just hurts, there’s no way to get away from him and he deals so much damage that getting Lv. 3 Haven barely does anything to the damage he puts out. And he’s more than likely to be pumping Cauterize into the dirt, so you can forget getting any healing.

I’ve seen every legendary Koga’s used, the most annoying ones to deal with being Dragon Fangs and Master of Arms. I genuinely don’t know how to deal with him, and there’s a Koga practically in every game now.

If you guys have any tips to ease the pain, at least a little - they don’t even need to be game breaking - it would help a lot more than you think. I’m just really fed up with Koga at this point and needed to say something about it.

And to those of you who plan on maining Koga, you’re doing your job, as flanks are supposed to take down supports and whatnot. Don’t take this post as anything bad, I’ve just had some really bad matches recently. Keep doing what you guys are doing; he is a fun champion to deal with when it’s an enjoyable game, he just becomes frustrating to deal with after a few matches.