yeah so uh ,,, i quit my job.
i hadn’t even been hired for two weeks yet, but i literally couldn’t handle it. yesterday i had a panic attack in the middle of it all and the day before i almost had one - not to mention the *other two* prior that only occurred after i was hired. my mental health is one thing and the awful training environment was another (i was being left alone at the front desk on several occassions, sometimes completely alone and sometimes with other newbies, it was very stressful) but i called out for today before quitting.
it wouldve been a great first step but it turns out service for the face of a hotel just simply isn’t for me, no matter how sociable i was back in highschool. mentally i’m still not 100% - i probably won’t be for a bit since i’m gunna be going back into therapy after a rest period. this’ll be my first appointment in almost four years and i think it’s overdue.
i’ll try to be here where i can - probably a lot more than i was this past week. i don’t think ill push myself with another fulltime job like that for a LONG time. i genuinely wasn’t happy and i was still in training - no need to stay there.
i know this isn’t much but i wanted to keep it under a readmore so i didnt clog dash doing an update. thanks for reading you guys, i love you all so very much.