#venting stuff

[patchestpk]

i should have gone to sleep like an hour or two ago but nooo i just have to lie awake listening to emamouse and venting about my problems on tumblr like an idiot

[chibifox2002]

CAN PORN BLOGS STOP LIKING MY SHIT PLEASE?! I DON'T WANT YOU HERE!!

[drawingkiddosatnight]

Hello Virgil somehow got on the skateboard for his add version while in the background Patton cheering him on for getting on the skateboard and not falling a thousand times again and Roman being impatient about when’s his next turn sense he’s been waiting for a while...But besides some small story this was a kind of a small vent to be honest I was kind of doing a small fun comic while feeling kind a blue but at least I had fun with this comic!

[faerrest]

Time to isolate isolate isolate and try not to hurt myself. I already feel empty as hell, but between all the pandemic news and worry, event cancellations, missing my friends due to future event cancellations, and being bombarded with everyone having acnh to take joy in and im too broke for it/a switch... im just really numb inside. I dont even have the capacity to cry or feel sad rn. So im just gonna take some time away from social media. Or at least if i reblog anything itll just be stuff in interest tags

[patchestpk]

i overthink my online friendships too much. am i being annoying am i being clingy am i being a deadbeat for not talking to them for x amount of time is this thing im doing for them just for my own personal gain do i treat my relationships with them as transactional am i a horrible person for having intrusive thoughts involving them over and over why do i feel so disconnected are they ignoring me am i treating them bad am i a bad friend do they secretly hate me but are keeping on a polite facade for my sake

[patchestpk]

i dont know if i’ll ever be able to belong anywhere or connect with anyone

[patchestpk]

its kind of a cruel irony how i feel disconnected from everyone sround me including my irl friends and the people i do feel connected to for once are thousands of miles away from me so there’s no way i can talk to or do anything with them irl. maybe it’s god’s way of telling me that i’ve gone so crazy that i’ll never really find any real connections like i want so desperately