Why would I ever want a girlfriend? Cause the one time I had one, it was perfect. I had never been so happy.. Like, do you even know what it feels like to be so relaxed and so.. happy?.. Like I never felt like I could be myself more than with her... The first time we hugged. Her laugh. Her smile. Hit me harder than I ever expected.. And yet my own fears got the best of me...
Good morning everyone. TW/Venting:
~Well I didn't expect to wake up this way.. You told me the dinner I made last night was shitty... I just woke up and you already have a rage in you like no other... My heart hurts.. When you've spent so many years with someone it seems hard to imagine life without them. So you keep going.. You keep going until that pretty little heart finally breaks and you can feel it... You would give up anything. You give every last bit of love you have to someone and yet its never enough... My heart hurts knowing I exposed my scariest secrets. My dreams. Everything. And you laughed in my face... I even told you my dream of having a family.. And you told your parents our engagement was a joke... I hold on everyday praying things will get better but they never do...
