#ventish post

[k1kky-sb-d0odlz]

||✶ sometimes I think of how neurotipicals downplayed the word hyperfixiation because I am literally crying and freaking out off the thought of getting bored of my own hyperfixiation

[r0tten-meat-eater]

🌸 I haven't had the best mental health lately... I've barely wanted to get out of bed this morning, and I barely feel like doing anything. My mind is just a mess of negative thoughts and emotions, and I need constant reminders to take care of myself. I honestly just want to sleep in my bed all day.. Cause I feel like that'll be the only thing that'll make me feel the slightest bit better. 🌸

🌸 I also want to apologize if I haven't been the greatest friend lately, or that it seems like I have been ignoring any of you.. I don't know, I just feel like I can be a horrible friend at times. 🌸

🌸 I might take a break.. So I'll be a bit slow when it comes to responding to dms from here, TikTok or Discord. Have a lovely day, my flowers 🌸

[chil-aglia]

loooove dealing with drama when I wake up that it throws off my whole day-

like omfg can’t even SLEEP in peace without something happening

Anyway, magma weekly here I come

[astronovalite-irl]

Vent-ish post

I feel like I'm annoying people by constantly posting about my ocs :(

And if that's the case, then I'm sorry. I didn't mean to annoy you...

[queenoforeos]

i wont be upset if you guys leave me btw in case you wanted to take the offer rq

[vincenttheman]

Me because I'm about to flip my shit and Idk why >/////<

I want to diee33e3e3eeeeeee

૮꒰ ྀི >⸝⸝⸝< ྀི꒱ა

>:CCCCCCC I FREAKING HAAT333333333333 THIS

I feel ill and like I want to cry and want to bleed again but only to eat it because I feel like if I eat my blood I wont gain or loose any thing so its a safe food... >//////< I don't think blood is edible but idrc ;|||

Im normal i promise [puts you in a trance with fish]

[kitchenaidmixer02]

do you guys ever get excited yapping about your ocs and then get anxious that everyone is annoying at hearing about them

or

or are you normal

[macrotiis]

I'm getting weird & brave coz I'm learning to just kinda accept myself & stop worrying about ppls bad faith interpretations of me.

Being open about sexuality & kink is rly hard for me after growing up in an environment that violently suppressed that in me before I could even understand who I was. I managed to get out before I realized I was bi & trans which was lucky, tho that doesn't undo my early childhood experience, full of homophobia, transphobia, misogyny, weirdest ideas about sex & SA. Then a bit of autism to just top it all off & all the social bullshit that comes with that. It imposes a very deep shame in yourself that is hard to escape.

This isn't to say I have kinks coz of trauma, that's an awful way of thinking. I'm trying to explain the real problem is the fact that I've always felt so stifled my whole life & a lot of that is self imposed. I'm always worried about some imaginary person hating me for being who I am, or that I'm secretly a really terrible & inherently bad person.

But then I know who I am & I have my own set of morals that I think are pretty good. I'm not a perfect person, but I do try to be responsible & account for the well-being of those around me.

Idk, I'm rambling now. Basically I'm learning how to just be myself & that includes accepting being a weird,horny adult & being mindful about it.

You'd think I'd be over this since I'm a furry but nah XD