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[momomarjijo]

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i spend most of my time drawing, for work and the other 30% for fun (my free time coincides with work), so sometimes i wish i could come here, see the fyp, and not find the same twenty posts about the same thing. I understand you've run out of ideas, that you like a particular theme, could you, idk, explore it in more diverse ways and not repeat the word "rape" every four words?

i like noncon/dubcon, and i'd be lying if i said i haven't seen it several times under the wincest tag; it's not a guilty pleasure, i don't feel bad enjoying it along with pornography without a plot, BUT, CAN'T YOU EXPLOIT IT IN A MORE CREATIVE WAY?! you can, and it's not that i read you, since i hate the dynamic you've created, but at least your readers will have something better to read, and maybe then you'll stop complaining about the lack of content (you don't lack content, you lack VARIATY)

i want to tell all my followers that if I ever become too repetitive with my content, you have every right to comment: "the same thing again? either do something new or delete your account". That's all. I just needed to vent

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So Scream was making a weird noise this morning and it ended up being a huge hairball but now she's making it again and like curling up really bad and I'm waiting at the emergency vet but I S2G if this cat has anything bad happen to her I will McFucking lose it.

[fenrirblue]

[castielsan]

[thegayfushimi]

Damn. I’m really having a low moment tonight..aren’t I?

[iamthetiredemily]

i wish i liked myself

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Deleted my last post because I was trying to be positive but lmao 😌🔫 urgent care has become a trip to the ER. I hate hospitals but I gotta be good for Will 🥴

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My work bestie, lets be honest she's my bestie in general too, all but put in her notice on Friday and my job has been in crisis mode. Two of our peers were recently promoted to fill the role of our director who's retiring. It's weird they split is role but whatever I guess the organization is looking to expand.

However my friend asked months ago to be removed from our team so she could explicitly focus on membership since she maintains 30,000 member records mainly all by herself. The company got her a coordinater instead and said "here we got you help now train this person!" When she's expressed many times before this that that isn't helpful and that when it was originally suggested that if that was the solution she would have to politely decline and leave.

Spoiler alert! She all but put in her notice on Friday after people kept congratulating her on her new role only to come to find out there are a lot of people that didn't realize she and I have been managers for the last year and a half. Some of those people are in our organization's executive cabinet.

Yesterday I got sat down by one of my new bosses and our new VP of operations to have the "once things are settled we promise they'll change" and it was all very... Like it was nice but there was no clear direction to where shit was going. So I just nodded and was like "ok :)" then spent the rest of my shift trying to figure out how to maintain status quo for the rest of the summer when making the schedule. Also spoiler alert a lot of our staff are either getting promoted to other departments or are leaving to go back to school since college starts soon.

Anyway I get home and I get this text from one of my once peers now my director but we've also been friends for a long time.

And I was real with her about like "haha no I haven't been good, I'm exhausted and this job fills me with dread and I don't think it's ever going to get better the way things are going" in so few woeds. Only to receive this message next.

And eventually have her call me and I know she's panicking and cried a lot before she called me because she doesn't want me to quit either but like? At what point is enough enough? I have 230+ hours of vacation because any time I try to take time off it's this huge to do and I was in training hell with new staff for MONTHS longer than I was supposed to be? Like?

LMAO sorry I needed to get this all out somewhere. Anyway I love what my job is however my organization isn't always the best and at some point loving what I do isn't enough I don't think.

Also still going to work today because I'm too stressed to not because I don't want to explain to the other director (my friend's peer) why I so suddenly didn't come in for my shift. Like whoopsie everyone I am able to power through things better than I am to abruptly stop. It's just part of my trauma brain 🥴🫠