Man, talk about a heavy hitting question – and if Cloud were really paying attention, he probably would’ve seen the former SOLDIER’s characteristic bright and confident smile falter at that, too. Zack had always been the one to step up and take charge. He’d done that in SOLDIER, he’d done that in Nibelheim, he even tried to do that now. Zack was just a natural guardian to those he considered his friends-
But who took care of the hero when he was the one needing help? That’d be the question that’d have Zack shaking his head back at Cloud with a light, carefree laugh.
“ I’m sure someone would if I needed it…but, hey! When you put it like that, you make it sound like I’m actually gonna need the help soon! But being on my own’s not been too rough on me so far! I mean, you’re liking the freedom, too, right? ” Cloud was just worrying too much…wasn’t he? At least, Zack could only hope so.
He knows that Zack doesn’t necessarily think himself as any kind of Atlas... nor does he doubt that Zack would shirk the responsibility if ever the mantle is given. The blond purses his lips, unconvinced by the SOLDIER’s perky facade yet unwilling to provoke distress for calling out the charade.
“It’s not funny,” Cloud grumbles. His face softens as he looks through the smudged windowpane beside him and into the heart of Midgar’s slums. He can see people below, trudging out their slanted doorways with their cigarette plumes and steaming coffee. Gone to work, if they were lucky enough to earn a living. Four years later and everything about this damn city still looks the same. Why did they come back here? Escaping one terrible place and back into another...his dreams were no longer anchored here, but to Zack. Where his friend went, Cloud knew he would follow without question. Shinra and SOLDIER...those things meant nothing to him now.
Fully recovered from Zack’s outburst of laughter, Cloud turns around and plants himself in front of the other man with his arms folded. A convincing picture of stubbornness. “I mean it. It’s just...” He trails off, struggling to find the right words when Zack had already spent the better part of the year taking care of him. “You don’t have to always put in 110%. Sometimes 70% is okay too.”
You can rely on me, he wants to say, but the words catch in his throat. How can he say that when he doesn’t know if he believes it himself? “You don’t have to take care of me anymore so...at least take care of yourself.”