Do you think Ford could be somewhat of a moth collector, if so, how dedicated do you think he would be?
I personally like the thought of him giving reader a moth or two as a cute little gift😭😭😭
He does collect moths! Bill talks about it in TBoB, I believe!
Listen, I had an Uncle who actually also did this. He collected butterflies and moths, and he'd put them in these gorgeous display cases he made. He had tons. He actually gave me two from his collection when I was very young, a red admiral and another one that I can't remember. I thought they were super cool. He detailed how he pinned them and it's a very delicate, careful process. It requires a lot of attention. Very cool and not boring at all, fuck you Bill.
I cannot get the idea out of my head of Ford teaching you how to pin them properly. He thinks you ask him to do it just to humour him, not for a special reason or because you care, but you do.
You hide it from him, though. You hide your intentions and then in secret, you take little trips out into the shallow parts of the woods where Ford has told you they congregate, and you search for one that's died of natural causes. It takes a while, and they're hard to find, but you manage it.
And you've listened very carefully to everything Ford has told you about how to handle them. You've looked up tutorials on how to do it and you have one playing as you make your own special little display for Ford. You put extra effort into everything; you buy the best fabric you can, the nicest pins, everything.
You pin it for him in the prettiest mahogany antique frame you can afford to buy and it's a little wonky, it's not the best, but it looks good considering your lack of ability. So you wrap it up in neat tissue paper, and hide it away carefully in your bag.
It isn't until you're both alone in the evening, enjoying each other's quiet company, that you gift it to him. It's not for any real reason, not his birthday or any special occasion, it's just something you want to do for him.
And he's over the moon with it. Like, super over the moon. He doesn't tell you, but he's already got five of the same species that he's caught himself, but he subtly throws them all out so he can put yours in their place instead. He hangs it up in his study so he can look at it all the time, because he's a big softy at heart, and he appreciates the effort so much that he gets a little misty eyed when he shows it to you.
You can’t use alcohol and boys and social media to cope with the difficulties that life is throwing at you. don’t let your cynicism stop you from building a healthy life, just because you are used to drinking every weekend, jumping in from one relationship to the other, posting deranged things online doesn’t mean you can’t do better. Everyone that has gone through that can see that you are running from yourself, so try to stop and acknowledge it, then hopefully you can implement some new changes. Please don’t keep yourself in shitty situations because you are used to it. You can do it
“Going against the grain is important when you can really identify what in your life or your art is negatively sapping you or if you can identify normative institutional patterns that are actually oppressive and need disruption or destruction. But to simply be a contrarian for the energy of it in a way can be reckless. Look at our last political administration and what a disaster it was, in part, because of the reciprocally admirative relationship between Trump and his supporters around triggering behaviors. In other words, being an asshole. I was thinking about that as Biden won this week. You saw people cry in the streets. How much was this country hurting emotionally because of the other side’s chosen troll avatar? We’ve been living through a cycle of spite.”
