#vic update

[goodlucksnez]

So I know a large majority of my following joined throughout my years on Tumblr here because I was making fandom or character waves

And I appreciate every single one that I made I believe that they hold a special place in my heart and hopefully in some memories of others out there

But that era has come to an end! I just don’t have the time or the desire to make character waves.

I know others still do and maybe I’ll come back to it or do something for a special occasion, but considering I haven’t made one since February I would say I’m pretty sure I’m done

So what does that mean for this account then?

Well, it means you get to see my writing, my OCs and my own sneeze content.

I hope you all have a great day and I will see you in the next chapter!

[suffering-asthmatic-tifosi]

I need to vent for a moment. This boy, oh this boy. Why is he so pretty? Like his eyes they’re like green but they have some blue and gold. Like his face is just perfect. His body is perfect. Oscar piastri thighs, Hozier hands. Like WHY IS HE PERFECT. Like ive liked him for a while but why did just today dos he seem to glow. Like I finally like recognized his like beauty. Like he’s genuinely beautiful.

Does this count as vic update? It does…

Taglist:

@frankie-norris @supreme-mango @lil-lando-norris

If u wanna join lmk

[goodlucksnez]

Well, tomorrow is the day that I have the surgery. I am terrified I think as anyone would be in my situation, but I just want to let you know if it doesn’t go well I want to thank each and everyone of you for making the past seven years that I’ve been part of of my life. this community, is the reason I kept going.

Is gonna be very sappy, but I didn’t think I had a whole family for most of my life, and when I joined this crazy side of Tumblr, I never thought I would find anyone who would lift me up or would be there for me and I have! so many thanks to give it would take forever, but for the people who have truly changed my life I just wanna say the deepest part of my heart that I do appreciate and love you all!!! and if this is goodbye, thank you so much for the journey.

[goodlucksnez]

Hi y’all

So I am going to post a update so people know stuff, if you care. It is fine if you don’t.

This Friday November 10 I am going into a psych ward as a in patient care. Based on my past history I will mostly be there for 2 weeks. During that time I will not be able to respond or have assess to the internet.

I do have a few things planned/already scheduled so if there is a post it was scheduled prior to me going into the clinic.

I hope this helps, and gives me some helpful insight on how to handle depression and anxiety.

In terms of health sadly it has taken a turn for the worse, for those who don’t know I have autoimmune disease which causes inflammation, because the doctor did not catch this until last couple months my heart sadly is very weakened, and I have severe deterioration on my aortic valve-the doctor is recommending value replacement surgery most likely aiming for January of 2024, this is very scary! But I have to keep talking to my cardiologist about scheduling. But I need to fix my mental health before physical hence the stay.

If you read this far thank you! I hopefully will come back in early December with a refreshed perspective about everything. I appreciate you time and thank you all!!

-Vic

[goodlucksnez]

I fell down the stairs and now my hand and is swollen and blue

Heading to urgent care

[goodlucksnez]

I have been sober for 2 months here is what I have learned!

1.

Hard pill I had to swallow in the past two months is that people who drink to reach numbness deceive themselves. As long as you live, you can’t ever escape reality. Not really. You’re here, and you’re real. No matter how hard you try to push it away, reality always catches up to you. The harder you try to drown it in alcohol, the harder it’ll kick you when you’re not looking.

2.

the point of life is not to feel the “good emotions” exclusively. That’s paradise. The point of life is to feel in general. Humans are feeling beings. Pain, love, anger, joy, anxiety, excitement, jealousy, contentment — life is a crazy pit of emotions, and each one deserves to be felt—even the very worst ones.

It’s not always going to be easy that is for sure but keep trying and it can get easier

[goodlucksnez]

Very personal/ sensitive post

Cw/TW mentions of surgery, panic attacks and other medical conditions

I am going to be very personal in this post. I am going to talk about what I have coming up and I do not think I should brush it off saying it is not a big deal becuase it is.

In February (the 8th) I am going to have open heart surgery. With this procedure there is a 83% success rate, but with my case the cardiologist is thinking more like 79%. I have both an autoimmune disease and anemia, which are not great when you cut someone open to fix a heart.

I know I’m going to be a more sensitive and emotional during the recovery time, so I apologize if I whine or complain-I think it is natural to be sensitive during that.

My mental state will most likely fluctuate as well so again I am going to apologize in advance!

Does anyone have any recommendations about what to watch in recovery, anime, shows, etc.

[goodlucksnez]

I am so awkward at this but umm hi im back from grippy sock...and wow do I have some updates.

Firstly I want to thank everyone for sending well wishes. I really appreciate it so much!!

Second it looks like my scheduled posts did not happen-...i was wondering why when I was traveling home and guess what i found...my apartment door broken into and laptop missing-so in the 2 weeks i was gone my apartment was broken into-lucky i have ring camera and i have opened a police report. But all my work on my computer as well as personal info like health and stuff is gone. I have funds to replace everything but like goddamnit another thing i have to deal with.

Third yup you guessed it I am sick. I started feeling bad last week and it has progressed and they suck at actually taking care of common illnesses so I really only got Advil so I do not feel great. : (

So I have today off to rest and buy a new computer and get a new lock for my apartment.