the nervous beta reader anon here, what would you say to writers too nervous to share their work given the many talented writers in the fandom?
I’m sorry if this will be a bit long, but I have a couple of different thoughts about this.
I think it is important to think about why you want to share, and what you want out of sharing. I personally, deep down, share my writing to make it real. It doesn’t really exist for me as something ‘finished’ until I share it, and sharing it makes it done, a task I have completed.
Of course I also share because I want people to read it. I want the likes and reblogs and kudos and the comments. It is important to write for yourself first and foremost, but I don’t think we can ignore our need for validation. It is very human. Allow yourself this need. Find an ally to cry with when your stories don’t get the recognition you expected.
But I think we need to find something outside the validation that matters when sharing and writing. Is it the joy of seeing what you want our there? Seeing it being real? Telling your story? That ONE person who likes and supports your writing? The practice you get? The idea that you can now move to the next story?
Only you can know, and you need to find it. Writing only for validation will make you upset, and it will be a beast that never can be sated.
Now, I talked about validation, and you asked about talent. I think it is very very important to acknowledge a couple of things about talent. First of all, while there are things we are more talented at than others, talent never really gets you anywhere. If you want to be the best of the best, you probably need both talent and hard work. I’m not going to ever swim like Michael Phelps. But if I took swimming lessons every day, I would swim much faster than I do today. And if I had all the talent in the world, but never set foot in a swimming pool, the talent wouldn’t matter. TL;DR: Hard work is more important than talent.
That said, what does talent (or practice) mean in terms of writing fanfic? Unlike laptimes for swimming, you can’t measure the quality of fanfic. Something I think is brilliant, others might not like. Something other enjoy, I might not enjoy.
So here I arrive at the optimistic peptalk - your writing is worth it because it is yours. It is unlike anyone elses. YOU can bring something to fandom that no other writer can.
one more note - about popularity, because sometimes when people say talent, what they mean is popularity. It is very very important to remember that quality is not equal to popularity.
The Dragon Age: Inquisition fanfic with the most kudos on AO3 has 6496 kudos. I happen to think it’s not that great. Number 3 and 4 on the list (both over 5k kudos) I dislike. One of my favorite works has just over 600, another of my favorites has 13, and one of the most amazing pieces of DAI characterization has 14.
This has to do with tastes and uniqueness, but also ship popularity and timing and fandom.
btw the top fic by kudos in Supernatural fandom has about 33k kudos, the top Harry Potter one 35k+. Does this mean these authors are more talented than ALL the authors in the Dragon Age fandom? Nope. It means kudos is a measure of many other things than talent.
acknowledge the need for validation, and do not be ashamed of it.
find something to post for other than validation
remember that (in almost all cases) hard work trumps talent
remember that popularity is not quality
Lastly - I want to see as many people as possible write and share fanfic, and I want everyone to be brave, but if it is detrimental to your own mental health, that is ok. Knowing yourself and your limits is a strength, not a weakness.
sorry for the rambling, but this is a topic I have many thoughts on.