Tʜᴇ ᴅʏɪɴɢ ᴏғ ᴛʜᴇ sᴏɴɢs. ( accepting )
His soul was still lingering in this place, finding no rest in this scenery of BEAUTY – seeing naught in it but the ugliness of DEATH. Petals have not withered and the leaves withstood time by never turning to brown and red fed; yet it was all l o s t. The magic was restored to this part of the lands, filling it with its life essence once again but his golden feathers could no longer feel it and hear its l o u d WHISPERS. It was all gone, erased and faded to OBLIVION the many moons ago when he had lost his soul and heart to what no longer e x i s t e d. Breathing and being kept alive by mostly only the magic surrounding him was more torture than bliss. His heart had long forgotten h o w to dance, how to make his blood rush by listening to the music only he could hear – the music he had always heard when opening his heart and soul to the fading magic around him. There was no joy, no excitement anymore – only the MEMORY of what had happened; the moment of when he had f a i l e d. He still remembered that he was asking her if she wanted to marry him on this certain day - seeing the LOVE shining in her eyes when she rejected him once again - but they never had a tomorrow. Or a future together.
The gentle touch of the wind could no longer reach him, no longer give him INSPIRATION for his next moves and thoughts. His mind, once only fickle and u n t a m e d like the nature itself, was no longer able to focus on more but the face he desperately saw in front of his inner eye; the face of the o n ly WOMAN he had ever l o v e d. Her voice was the only melody he wanted to hear; her presence was the only reason why he would have wanted to dance once again – to show her how much he loved her – but she was gone. The moment she died the greatest part of his soul died with her; his emotions, his excitement, his joy. It all faded and never returned – and never would. The PAIN was greater than anything he had endured until then – greater than his training in his tribe or the many wounds he suffered while being with her. And yet he would endure it all, even if that meant to be tortured till the end of time, if that could bring her back. But their ANCESTORS would not return her to life; and there was no ancient spell and no rite to revive the dead. Death never let go of what it once claimed; no matter how many SONGS were shared.
And no one had sung for Xayah but h i m. For many days he had sung for her, just holding her pale, cold and yet still stunningly beautiful corpse in his arm until he no longer found the STRENGTH to hold or even sing for her. As soon as the melody had died he learned how weak he truly was – how weak he was without her – and all he could do to maintain his sanity was once again to sing again. Singing for her SOUL to reach her ancestors; to be reunited with all she had loved. All, but him. Imprisoned in this place, surrounded by the growing nature and pureness, he found no MERCY. Even now, with her corpse being long buried, he still saw her in her own blood – an h i d d e n SMILE on her lips. A smile which told him that she was glad that it was n o t him who had to follow the REAPER– and yet he had faded, the same way she did. Being more dead than alive.
Dull. Empty. There was no longer any emotion – no sadness, no joy, no HOPE. It was all g o n e – gone the moment when his memories of his beloved mate had started to fade. Her face started to be covered by thick mist, her voice had become too low for him to hear. Yet it had not been his MEMORIES who deceived him, but his heart. It was his HEART who started to dance with his soul, his mind – its f i n a l dance- to slowly lead him to his eternal slumber without any pain, any memory. There were no failures of the past, nothing which kept him alive. The melodies and songs had been long silent as they could no longer reach his heart since it refused to be with anyone but her.
Many moons ago his golden feathers had turned to a fading brown, resting on the small, green hill where once Xayah’s body had fallen to ashes. Yet now another body had found its eternal sleep midst a field of flowers, pure white and red, joining and embracing his lover in his death.